I was with my family in front of a TV at my aunt and uncle’s house in Guilford, Connecticut. It was the evening/night of Sunday, July 20, 1969 – a little less than a month and a half from my 18th birthday. And a month or so from my High School Graduation. Together we watched the Apollo 11 Commander Neil Armstrong step onto the Moon.
Hearing the words of JFK calling us
“my fellow citizens”
I watched the documentary Apollo 11 and the feelings that struck me were the unity of us as American People. We achieved something as a nation through Armstrong, Aldrin and Collins along with all of NASA that allowed us a feat in modern exploration. The shots of the people that watched the launch, hearing Walter Cronkite, anchor of CBS News brought back a feeling of solidarity.
It was the solidarity that ended the war in Vietnam, the solidarity that ignited the Civil Rights Movement, that supported Unions and hope and made us all feel that anything was possible.
Hearing the words of JFK calling us “my fellow citizens” in his 1962 speech about putting men on the moon and returning them safely reminded me that we are not cogs in a predatory capitalist machine but a part of a greater community striving for democracy. The Merriam-Webster dictionary lists citizen as: “an inhabitant of a city or town; especially : one entitled to the rights and privileges of a freeman” I would add“free person” to include everybody beyond just men.
Seeing the films of the ticker-tape parades for Armstrong, Aldrin and Collins and the pride and love of the people for the astronauts and how we supported them as a people and a nation. I felt once again that we were the United States of America.
Let’s begin to engender those feelings of unity again.
Ever since I was very young I saw my mission to help relieve suffering in the world. I wanted to be a therapist and work to relieve suffering one person at a time. I studied Psychology in college and received a BA.
I began as a counselor.
In 1990 I received a calling, a mandate from God.
One night before retiring I asked God what I was supposed to do with my life. In the morning I had a waking experience that lead me to a woman that was thinking of killing herself. I listened with acceptance and did not offer advice. I was about to give her the names of therapists and groups to which she replied:
“The universe put you out there to hear my call and that’s all I needed.”
She chose to live and is alive today.
As a counselor and later as a healer I have encountered peoples’ many personal realities. As a counselor in alternative mental health facilities for over 20 years I learned to listen deeply to others problems.
In the course of that work I began to let go of judgment.
When I felt their helpless I allowed myself to feel helpless with them without necessarily saying anything. Sometimes that appeared to have helped them.
All my life I have had bizarre experiences that have been “out-of-this-world”. I never spoke of them for fear of being condemned and shamed as “crazy” or “weird”.
When I moved to California in 1982 I felt that the land and the mountains accepted me and that I had arrived home. The east-coast Connecticut Yankee critic in me was very harsh regarding the “foo-foo” impressions and thoughts running through my consciousness at that time. I continued to engage in inner “spiritual” work and observed this new consciousness within me.
In 1984 was a bizarre time for me. I saw light running like blood through trees. I had x-ray vision into my left arm where there was blood pumping there was light. A nearby plant extended its light over that very arm. I decided I was crazy – I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy. When I opened my eyes, everything returned to normal. For more follow the link: Connection to Nature via the Heart
A couple of months later I moved a pool skimmer that was caught-up on a wave-gutter of a backyard in-ground swimming pool without touching it – for more follow the link: Gateway into the Light
I saw a white-light come from friend’s heart to my heart about 20 feet away. I felt love and the warmth of friendship.
Not normal experiences.
As it has always been with my work as a crisis and half-way house counselor the information shared remains confidential so it is with the many clients I have seen in my healing practice.
Clients have come for a wide array of problems ranging from a concern over future events, physical / disease problems, opening to other worlds and many more. The intimacy I share with people is very sacred to me and I feel honored and blessed to be trusted so. I have found that there is something in me that always has transcended the Connecticut Yankee skeptic and critic inside to completely accept, honor and embrace a person’s reality with kindness and compassion. This has been a great blessing.
Each person brings the gift of their dilemma and with that a teaching for me. This completes a cycle of assisting them to solve a problem or problems while receiving a teaching. The cycle of giving and receiving is completed within each session that in-turn creates many blessings for me and the world at large.
Continually letting acceptance flow from me has taught me to embrace the shadow within, and to apply love and support to the parts of myself that I dislike and fear. The cycle of acceptance is a grace from a higher place where we all long to dwell.
When I complete a session, I feel vulnerable and in a trance of higher vibrational energies. The acceptance spills out imbued with love and compassion to include others throughout the world in a new kind of inclusiveness.
In the beginning I avoided the extraordinary experiences because of a respected teacher had said:
“Many psychic-type experiences will happen as you do ‘The Work’. Pay no attention to this and continue to do your inner work.”
spoken by Pierre Elliot Headmaster
of the Fifth Basic Course at Claymont School for Continuous Education
in August of 1981.
In 1981 I had started a house cleaning business incorporating my inner work or ‘The Work’ as within the tasks of cleaning in Connecticut. Then I transferred the business to Stockton, California in 1982 and then to Sonoma, California in 1983.
On July 3rd of 1984 I was cleaning a summer residence. J’s household was around in the early afternoon and then would leave with the children and Grandpa to Costco in Santa Rosa. They left me alone to clean the house. The weather was odd on that summer day in Northern California, overcast, hot and humid.
I was finishing up in the back utility room by putting away supplies when I heard a commotion on the deck between the house and the garage. It was a dust devil or whirlwind. It had picked up the plastic chairs and tables about 12 to 15 feet in the air whirling around. I peered out of the window watching it when it suddenly stopped and all the furniture clattered back to the deck. I straightened it. I was tired and dirty from cleaning and I had wanted to go home when I heard an odd sound originating at their built-in swimming pool.
The pool skimmer was caught up on the wave gutter of the pool. Wave gutters are normally for Olympic sized pools and one does not see them in backyard swimming pools very often. This pool skimmer was sputtering, a garden hose attached to its under belly.
I stood there examining the situation and finally said aloud to no one:
“I don’t feel like bending over and lifting it off.”
I felt an impression of a voice in my head say:
“You don’t have to do it that way.”
“Oh yeah,” I said feeling like an idiot for talking to myself, “What other way is there?”
No answer. A feeling or a sense swept over me.
I bent my knees slightly. I clenched my fists and bent my right elbow so that my right fist was near to my right shoulder. My left fist and left arm were extended by my left side. Using tension in both arms I reversed the positions and the skimmer moved off the lip of the wave gutter out towards the center of the pool.
“Nah,” I said aloud. The impression of the voice said: “Well, bring it back.”
I reversed my arms and it came back onto the wave gutter.
I freaked out. I ran to my car and ripped out of there thinking I was crazy.
In the summer of 1984 I experienced many odd things. I saw auras around people at times. While running, my spirit soared into the sky. I saw how light connected our hearts together and how that connected to the light of trees and plants and connected everyone with every being.
Humans are mammals living within a larger living being – Earth. Another way of thinking about the context of ourselves within the planet is the planet within us. We are host to many parasites, to cancer cells mostly inactive, bacteria and so on living symbiotically with us. Most of us have forgotten that we are animals and we have lost our connection to our home – the planet that sustains us. It isn’t enough to think about a connection to Earth and be connected. Thinking keeps us in the realm of thought and the mind. Thinking about being connected to the planet may be a romantic notion that continues to keep us disconnected. It is thought and the technology of thinking mainly language that has aided us in our disconnection from Earth. The nature of language and how we have used it has laid the groundwork for the objectification of Earth as a thing. Modern Capitalism has defiled Earth into resources or things.
Our bodies are ordinarily grounded to Earth. But we are not always present in our bodies so the grounding visualization is ideal for feeling a connection to Earth and having a personal relationship with her. Due to our focus on and in our minds we don’t have much awareness of our bodies and how they relate to one another and the environment both human-made and nature. We treat our bodies as vehicles of consciousness and thus make our bodies things to be used. Experience becomes objectified and we are cut off from our bodies, our emotions and even from our minds. The disconnection spreads to see people and earth as things. We become more easily manipulated and eventually enslaved from this kind of disconnection.
Earth: At the core of Earth is an iron ore crystalline sphere rotating four degrees faster than the surface of earth as it floats in the liquid magma at Earth’s center. Surrounding the magma is the magnetic core. Surrounding the magnetic core are all the layers of rock divided by volcanic fissures. The Iron Ore crystal contains the codes for all organic and in-organic body-beings in the biosphere. The Iron Ore is earth’s heart because it allows life and the magnetic field (aura) to exist. By connecting to the core on a daily basis one can develop a personally intimate connection with earth that goes beyond words.
This is a sacred process. When we feel Earth as mother and friend the threads of sacredness spread out to include all beings organic and inorganic. Sense, feel and envision our planet as a friend and our participation with Earth as a harmonious celebration of life.