On Wednesday June 24, I contacted the energies of the Coastal Vortex about 50 miles from my home in the Point Reyes Peninsula and received permission for a visit on Friday.
The advance message: the vortex was seeking to envelop me within the folds of its energies and hold me there for the purposes of “a personal healing”.
When I first visited the site of the vortex, there were three smaller vortexes dancing around each other. One originated in the epoch of early Lemuria, another from the epoch of Atlantis moving back and from that continent into the present. The last of the three was (is) anchored outside of time or appearing to come from the future at times. At other times it included past, present and future or in other words the malleable expanding present or ever expanding Now.
Eventually all three vortexes combined into one, occasionally separating and recombining after a few seconds or minutes. The biggest the vortex had become – we could feel it at least 7 miles out about a mile in diameter.
Sometimes vortexes do not grant permission for access. If vortexes are in public spaces or on a street people passing through them may notice a “specialness”. Due to the stream of consciousness of random associative thought the effect of passing through a vortex without permission or from a sacred place will dramatically decrease the experience.
Friday June 26th Vortex Experience
I was immediately taken into the folds of energy within the vortex for the first five minutes and cleansed. I’ve been involved in a physical grief detox process since November of 2019 and the vortex and Guides initiated a cleanse process in me.
About half-way down the hill towards the middle of the vortex I was invited into a journey into the Being Work I had been involved in late May of this year.
The vortex expanded its being interdimensionally to include all of time. [By “going” all the way into “the future” perspective shifts and we find ourselves in the present. By “going” all the way into “the past” perspective shifts and we find ourselves in the present. In other words, time is experienced as an expanded present.] Twenty-four being states separated from the Elohim or twelve dyads were “placed” on Planet Earth while simultaneously Planet Earth was (is) placed with the Twelve Dyads of the Elohim. I was used by the Greater Being to connect the Twelve Dyads (24 Beings) to one another so that those open to Being within their own spiritual practices of Being could feel the connection on infinite and finite (ego) levels as a way to support the epoch-transformation between the failing patriarchy and the new energies of greater cooperation with all beings.
Towards the end of the experience the vortex injected a huge amount of energy into my 2nd chakra or Chi and propelled me out of the vortex – up the hill and through the pain of the arthritic inflammation in my joints.
As I left my friend for the long drive back home I felt a visceral irritation in my body that last for about 8 hours.
I continued in-process of the experience. The vortex was continuing to work through me and I worked to understand and clear the physical effects of childhood wounding by understanding the clearings in my body.
My Father passed on my 55th birthday. If his body had survived he would have been 100 years old this year going on 101. He’s a better father and friend since he passed than when he was alive.
He was highly intelligent with an incredible vocabulary (which rubbed off on me). He taught me logic and debating while using these tools to brainwash me into his way of thinking and believing – the conservative mindset. At the same time, he modeled being a free thinker. Well I could be free as long as I thought within his parameters of acceptable thinking and behaviors. Nevertheless he was proud of my intellectual prowess while he occupied his body and I felt this and am grateful.
He was very self-centered and a narcissist. He belittled my mother’s non-rational intuition as if he was admonishing a child. When I was a kid I wanted to defend my mom but didn’t know how. My dad was very fearful all his life and over-compensated by having to be “right” and angry at all costs even if that meant bullying others and “shouting them into submission.”
After he passed the shell of his fragile damaged ego fell away and he became the sweet innocent that I had seen in photographs of his childhood. We share love and occasional communication. He has told me he is proud of me especially after I published my first novel – a fantasy – The Green Man of Destiny.
This is for you Dad as you really are – not some patriarchal definition of a man afraid and always defending himself but a Dad with a boundless curiosity about everything and a dorky sense of humor.
This is for my Dad with a boundless heart and intellect exploring consciousness as a sweet curious boy in the world beyond the corporeal body.
Systemic Racism clearly exists but as a white male living in a mostly white, small city I have known this kind of racism exists. Because, currently I have no black friends, one Asian-American acquaintance; I am not confronted by systemic racism daily so I haven’t felt it, until recently. But I am a part of white male privilege and I have used compartmentalization to screen out the privileged system I am a part so I don’t feel its affects until recent events: the brutal murder of George Floyd. And the constant barrage of bigotry against people of color, non-Christians, Hispanics and so on.
This makes me a racist.
I am part of the system and up until now I have only been tacitly fighting against the systemic injustices (monthly donations to the SPLC, ACLU etc.). I have not used my privilege to help level the playing field. Inaction while pleading ignorance is inaction, indifference and systemic racism.
Anyone who is different is often shunned by their community and/or persecuted.
Most white people don’t think they’re racists when they are; because of prejudices of an exclusion mentality (us and them). On an individual basis of meeting a black man, woman, an Asian man or woman, or an indigenous American there is a kindness that may exist and treating people as equals in-person (taken out-of-context of “privilege”). As a group whether the people are thought of as different or consigned to a lesser-than position than another group then this is part of systemic racism and is most likely an unconscious response.
One reason we may not be aware of as members of a white privileged class is one of systemic laws that arise out of the Jim Crow Laws after the Civil War to redlining (economic denial of people of color based on segregation and location for private sector benefits as well as government benefits thus keeping people of color — mainly blacks — in economic slavery). In 2013 the Supreme Court struck down part of The Voting Rights Act of 1965 on the assumption that racism had been eliminated and as a result opening up states’ rights to discriminate against blacks and people of color. This along with gerrymandering to keep politicians in power — mainly Republicans currently. These are examples of systemic racism — and have been hidden from well-meaning liberals by Mainstream Media. Once again, here is the out-of-sight / out-of-mind rubric at work. It’s easier for privileged whites and white males to say they are not racist because of the body of laws that exist systemically to keep black people and people of color enslaved are hidden from public view.
“pull yourself up by your bootstraps”
Anyone who is different is often shunned by their community and/or persecuted. They may take up positions of isolation to feel safe. This is a two-tiered process of racism at work. Isolation in more obvious examples lead to segregation. Those who are shunned from the white communities are put in positions of “out-of-sight / out-of-mind”. However black people have contact with white people in the course of daily life. Due to many hundreds of years of oppression / slavery from injustices related to: economic, educational, social, police harassment, brutality and death and the (in)justice system including needless incarcerations of young black males, voting rights prejudices, bias and bigotry (written into law) are some of the examples of systemic racism.
If you were born into white middle- and upper-class culture you and I are a part of systemic racism whether we admit it or not. The first step in resolving a problem is admitting there is one.
The “Pull-Yourself-Up-By-Your-Bootstraps” Metaphor
What does this mean?
If it were so simple that’s what people with profound depression, or people of color would easily do if circumstances were fair or the playing field was all equal and level. The “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” metaphor is usually spoken offhandedly by those that consider themselves strong individualists often from white middle class or upper-class families (or disenfranchised white male members of Right-Wing or Neo-Nazi radicalized groups). They are firm believers in the American Dream: work hard and achieve your dreams. They have no idea that the American Dream is only available to those with privilege and wannabes (see end notes on wannabes). Being so entrenched or enamored with(in) the system of privilege they deny their place in it.
I didn’t want to give up the privilege of wearing a man’s body
So, they make idiotic, cavalier statements without understanding their so-called “superior” status in the world of privilege and dismiss others without it who often find themselves in positions of slavery.
Privilege and Exploitation
We shun or are afraid of others for their differences most times unconsciously. It has been my choice to isolate and privilege has allowed that option. From privilege comes advantage. From advantage comes exploitation.
Let somebody else do it.
Privilege, advantage and exploitation can easily be rationalized away as a racist stance by power-possessors and those who have money and the power that massive accumulations of money create. The bubble of Republicans before and after Trump has been one of male white power in a world being transformed by an influx of non-whites in numbers to the United States. Fear, prejudice and bigotry have been and are being manipulated by many Republicans to hold onto their power. Blame the Blacks, Hispanics, the Muslims, the Asian-Americans, the immigrants, the other to foment racist furor in those afraid of the changes.
Money and Transformation
And yet everyone who has some money would like to hang-on to it even if it means depriving others that may need it. The thought is – let the rich pay for the changes needed for economic transformation. Let somebody else do it. And so everyone thinks the same way whether its economic justice for all or remedying the climate crisis.
There may be an unconscious element at work in electing a president and other representatives. When we elect them, we trust them to do the right thing much the same as a child trusts a parent. We the people often leave the practice of democracy to others to our elected representatives and activists rather than joining with activists in a truly participatory democracy. After all we have had a marvelous tool to help us in participating in democracy computers and the Internet – but again for the privileged who can afford it.
If everything isn’t addressed at once from my pocketbook and yours. By everything I mean:
Replacing Privilege with the Public Good
Economic equity and justice
Healthcare for all administered by Government through heavily regulated Insurance, Big Pharma, the AMA.
Justice for All (especially for those that can’t pay for it)
Investments in Public Education
Investments in the Postal service
Investments in Public Infrastructure
Balancing Police and Defense Spending with Public Investment
Investments in Methods that Save the Planet from the Shortsightedness of Predatory Capitalism from industry and consumer/citizens point of view
Replacing Predatory Capitalism and its singular focus on profit to the expense of all else, to a longer-term system based on human and planetary health.
And more… (I’m sure I’m leaving something out.)
Let’s not leave anybody out because we cannot embrace our shadow and own the darker elements of our psyche. The first step in solving a problem is the admission that we have one.
*Wannabes – are people who live outside the American dream who may or may not be privileged. They are often NOT people of color. They believe so strongly in The American Dream and being the strong individualist that the public good does not enter their rubric of the American Dream. They look to and worship those that – in their eyes have achieved the American Dream and sacrifice all for either worshiping their heroes or amassing more and more money to achieve the Dream. But “More” is never enough.
This is a simple logic argument with two premises where healthcare and healthcare insurance went from being a service to being a predatory profit high growth business.
Context is required here.
“Greed is good.”
We cannot take healthcare as a service and healthcare insurance out of the context of an insanely profit driven system that puts the health and well-being of 100% of humans’ health at risk. And it isn’t just healthcare its – well everything is at risk. It’s the snake that eats its own tail. And we are all to blame.
In the Oliver Stone film Wall Street, the character Gordon Gekko said “Greed is good.” Stone was tapping into the zeitgeist of America and the origins of predatory capitalism that was building towards the insanity that is now – worldwide.
How it has happened – here are some factors involved (but not all):
World-Wide Corporate Power exploded with deregulation under President Reagan.
Representative Governments sell-out to Corporate Power
The USA Republicans became the tools of Corporate Power under the free-enterprise system
The Democrats followed the Republican sell-out model beginning with Bill Clinton’s second term as President
The Republicans have been plotting to end the Democratic control of the Country by whatever means necessary – enter Trump the ultimate tool of Corporate Power and corruption
The Baby-Boomers – for the most part dropped out of politics for the New Age movement or Spiritual Development at the expensive of political activism for the most part. Other Boomers became millionaires and even billionaires while others just went along with the status quo (“Our leaders will take care of us,” attitude because we elected them and were under the illusion that they represent the people.) Or lost faith in government after Nixon and Watergate. Subsequent generations have just gone along with “the status quo”.
What has been happening and where the Climate aka World-Wide Health Crisis originated (but not all):
Free-market capitalism will police itself. Well, only in terms of maximizing profits in the short term. Pollution? What’s that?
The EPA (Environmental Protection Agency) was signed into being by Nixon but was never given real power to effectively stop polluters from polluting.
And we – former citizens – made into consumers by the facts of capitalism in its extreme continued passively to accept polluting technologies.
No one with maybe one exception has raised the issue of what is a healthy planet – Patch Adams and how the health or non-health of the planet has contributed to human beings’ health.
Why healthcare is a human right? Corporations and the citizens / consumers have made blind choices to the worship of money, profit and greed to an increasing toxic world for the sake of increasing comforts and convenience
Consumer passivity – who has time for activism when you’re working two jobs and so is your partner to provide for your family. (All part of the oppressive / suppressive oligarchical design aka keep the consumer in-line.)
And the upcoming mass extinction event coming to a multiplex near you or maybe too close to you.
The two premises are:
Healthcare Industry is a gambling industry based on the odds that you will not fall ill. Their job is not to pay for your claim regarding your illness if at all possible. Their primary aim is making money, their secondary aim is paying for your partial healthcare costs.
Health does not occur in a vacuum. It’s related to an environmentally balanced world. A planet that receives toxic substances grows increasing unbalanced until its systems require balance. If a number of humans or all the humans are eliminated the planet will seek to rebalance her/him/itself. Thus, the upcoming mass extinction event.
Healthcare as a human right. Water belongs to the people. A Bill of Rights for the Planet. These are antithetical to the world-wide corporate cabal and needed for the survival of the human species on the planet.
Is it too late? Maybe or maybe not. We’ll never know unless we go for it.
When is it ever too late to relieve suffering?
Never is my answer.
All the systems of modern life are synergistically related to human healthcare, the health (toxicity) of the planet etc. income inequality, substandard justice, the USA continually at war, Machiavellian Politics and the use of the scapegoat to name a few. At time where worldwide cooperation is needed to provide community solutions to the Climate Crisis the fomented atmosphere of the US of A is every person for themselves – and blame problems on non-white groups mainly immigrants, LGBTQ, and religious groups such as Muslims. This mentality has infected every element of our culture. Fear, anger, rage and sometimes violence has been promulgated to keep people divided and oppressed. The corporate has secretly promoted an “us versus them” to keep government from doing anything that would assist her citizens.
By the way the internet aka Social Media provides the illusion of immediate solutions the same way people solved all the problems of the world in coffeehouses by just talking about it. So many of us go ballistic when politics doesn’t keep pace with what we want. We’ve been lured into an either / or dynamic of seemingly quick change. A change in politics takes a long time, although when our money is effected voting patterns foster seeming changes.
I am pleased to announce that my new book is nearly ready to go to my editor after a second draft. (I began the first draft in October 2019 and finished it in February of 2020.)
The new book is a memoir based on my rather strange life and evolution as a healer. Even though it is a non-fiction account of the salient points in my life of evolving consciousness and struggle in life’s trenches it reads in a stranger than fiction manner.
There will be a print book with a small number of photographs scattered in the text. There will be an e-book (following the print book very closely) with links and the possibility of an audio book too. Formatted – it is slightly over 200 pages.
Suggestions for further readings from other works of fiction and non-fiction as well as selections from this blog will be included fairly soon.
This fantasy novel, for adults, is the hero’s journey to find the Green Man and bring him back to the desert to restore the ancient trees that were once there.
The Green Man in Druid Lore is a man with green skin who heals plants and trees – he is the go-between between humans and the elemental world of devas, elves, fairies, and Pan. While writing the book had its own life of synchronicity that could be called magical it was also partially channeled. For instance, I was writing long-hand where the main character, Gren raises the sword of power and calls out to Spirit – demanding he be shown the way to the Green Man. Lightning strikes the sword and… As soon as I wrote “Lightning -” lightning struck in the distance followed by thunder a second later. It’s a grand adventure story about self-discovery, dealing with conflict, addictions and the nature of power.
It takes place in three parts.
Part One: The Desert (part two: Into the Forest, part three: After The Fall)
Chapter One Home is excerpted below:
The book is on sale marked way down from $16.99. If you’re interested contact me:
It’s easy to become spaced-out under high stress situations or forgetting to eat and drink H2O. On the low end we may be missing our exit on the interstate or getting lost in thought when we’re late for a meeting. The more our schedule becomes undefined, scattered, disorganized due to stress and worry the greater the chance of dissociation or feeling spaced-out.
And audio recording of the instructions for the written instructions for the quick grounding that may help you relax and take the edge off of your anxiety:
Here’s a quick way to get grounded and centered in your body:
Go into your kitchen or a place where there is a firm counter-top with a “lip” at about waist-level (the countertop or desk must be close to waist level and firmly anchored to the floor).
Make a mental note of how your body is feeling right now.
Stand facing the counter-top (about a foot to six inches away from the edge).
Bend your elbows at your waist and put your finger-tips underneath the lip of the counter-top or below the molding.
Bend your knees slightly and balance your weight between your left and right feet.
Focus your attention on your feetas you gently pull up with your finger-tips under the counter-top.
Hold for a moment or two (count one thousand-one, one thousand-two) and Stop.
Do you notice the isometric tension in your body? Or do you feel the subtle difference in your body? Is the spaced out feeling gone? Do you feel your physical presence? Are you grounded?
This practice is designed to find a middle way within. In other words, I find that helps to create a place between acting out anger or rage and running away – fear. Anger when expressed effectively does not become toxic (see Men-Anger-and-Rage-in-the-Toxic-Patriarchy).
The Peace Practice can calm us for a more compassionate thoughtful response to emerge.
I was taught this practice or exercise as a way to relieve the desire to light a cigarette. The practice only worked if I did not pick-up a cigarette in my hand. Once the cigarette was between my fingers it went straight to the mouth and was the lit – too late. The technique was simple enough that I began to incorporate it into the work I was already engaged in – into developing an impartial compassionate witness within.
I expanded the technique to help cultivate a place of peace within myself. This exercise can be done anywhere. To begin for the first time, I recommend starting by sitting. To identify where you’ll be sending your attention bring one hand to the back of your neck. Using your fingers trace up the neck to where your spine meets your skull. There is a bump there and a space between your vertebrae. That’s the spot. You can remove your hand and place them in a comfortable position at or near your waist or on your knees.
Sit quietly and put your attention on the spot. Visualize your in breath going to that spot. Hold it there for the briefest of moments and exhale (see photo below). That is the Peace Practice or exercise.
The place of attention in the Peace Practice is in the brain stem where the medulla is located and is part of the flight or fight response. Anti-depressants such as Paxil – for impulse-control-related depressive moods interrupts the flight or fight response in the same area of the brain.
The time the flight or fight response is essential in situations where immediate danger is immanent. In modern civilization this function is still expressed and is often an inappropriate maladaptive response within complex social behaviors.
The Peace Practice can calm us to allow for a more compassionate thoughtful response to emerge. Like any practice the Peace Practice takes time to develop for better effectiveness.
Nobody wants to really quit smoking except maybe the non-smokers around you.
In fact, nobody wants to quit anything really. We hate loss is why we don’t want to quit. It took me 8 tries to quit smoking to realize that trying was just that: trying.
In the words of Yoda:
“There is no ‘try’. There is ‘do’ or do-not’.”
I started smoking because my girl friend, Tessa, from the college days; smoked. But it took more pressure from her. She smoked sometimes after we made-love and while she was studying at home. I had my own place but I spent a lot of time at her place a block away.
We were in a study group for a post graduate course given at the Boston VA Hospital on Brain Trauma and Injury. The final exam was the only determining factor for the grade. Due to the flu I missed all the lectures on Aphasia. Besides Tessa, everyone else in our small study group smoked. So I started. I picked up one of her smokes and lit-up. I liked it and I was hooked.
Two weeks later I tried to quit after having gone from filtered to non-filtered cigs. I did succeed in quitting for two weeks until I ran into a friend – a smoker.
I began smoking in ’76 and stopped in 1983 – seven years. It was on again off again.
In the ’81 attempt it was initially freeing. I cleaned large and small bathrooms at an alternate school I attended at that time to replace the hand to mouth habit. About 6 months of smoke detox suppressed frustration and rage reared-up and were loosed on anyone nearby. It was overwhelmingly, which then drove me back to smoking so I could dampen down the intensity.
So, the 9th time around I rewarded myself with breathing cleaner air instead of filling my lungs with smoke. I weaned myself off slowly. I first stopped smoking in my car and then cleaned it – all that brown and yellowish gross film on everything. Next I stopped smoking in my apartment and went down into the back alley. You get the idea. Each time I desired – craved a cigarette – aka cancer stick I would remind myself that I was replacing smoking with breathing cleaner air (and do the peace exercise).
Filling my lungs with smoke whether marijuana or tobacco interfered with emotional cognition and yes — contact with “spiritual energy”. Maybe that’s too woo-woo – that spiritual stuff. I was able to let go of the frustrations and the rage just enough to get by and manage the outburst. But I was into being a detective to find out where the rage was originating.
And then I was free of it well except for marijuana smoking. That habit lingered until the end of September of 1985 with a two year vow to breathe cleaner air and not smoke MJ. And it worked. However on the first day after the two-year vow ended someone offered me a joint. So I made a 3-year vow. Same thing happened again and I made a 5-year vow. After the 5-year vow ran out I lost the desire to get high.
The Trees are my friends who speak in a language (not English, nor a human language) that is too slow for us fast moving humans to perceive. It’s more than likely that we have all had opportunities and may have felt the presence of trees.
reconnecting with the sacred inside us through a personal relationship with a tree
The Japanese practice of “forest bathing” an immersion in the woods or forest is a cleansing experience. Certainly, I have noticed the peace that the forest affords. I have experienced it in myself and observed the outward manifestation in others in the forest. [Amongst others there is a stream of conversation that goes on and on. The talk abrupt stops as they have detoxed enough and notice the trees and are quiet much like the quiet of a church service.]
Upon entering the forest or woods I automatically dip into the stream of consciousness that many carry with us whether that comes in the form of an inner dialogue, music and/or visual images. For me it’s mostly visual images sometimes with dialogue or narration that is the streaming junk of my daily life. Then it stops.
Wow, there are Trees Here!
When it does stop I notice my surroundings. Peace emerges and pervades my being as I stand near a copse of trees on the path in the woods. Sometimes when I stop moving and the stream of conscious ceases I feel the presence of large boulders, tall trees, a stream or brook, maybe a small waterfall. I feel washed clean by the powers of nature.
feeling of being grounded and connected to Earth; our shared home.
There they are – these standing ones whether they be Douglas firs, pines, redwoods, the deciduous aspens, the Japanese maples, and some oaks. They stand and wait for a human to make contact. Once contact is made and we allow ourselves – mostly our minds to slow to the patient levels of the trees we can begin the feel the peace trees exude. As I slow further I may merge my spirit with the spirit that the tree surrounds its body and we share a space together. In that space there are many non-verbal answers and somatic emotional states. One is a feeling of being grounded and connected to Earth; our shared home.
peace becomes evident and the love slows me down into a being state
As I continue to open my senses of touch, directionality, groundedness, sight and heart-centered emotion I feel embraced and accepted by my friend and friends – tree(s). Deeper – even before “the hug” there can be a singular song of a tree or a choir of song by a family of trees. The peace becomes evident and the love slows me down into a being state. I may temporarily slip out of ego into being and experience my place amongst the animals and trees in that local community of nature in which I have chosen to be a member. Ah such sweetness…
we can begin to become a co-equal member of a forest
I have made a bond with the Redwood species; and deciduous Sycamores and Maples both individually and as species. In these bonds I have asked the trees to hold spiritual or plasma energy for me. This is a technique for inner – spiritual work. Often, we receive an epiphany or a “high” when engaging in spiritual work there is an automatic tendency in us as humans to blow off the energy by “ego-talking” to others about our experiences. The use of accumulators becomes important in spiritual / inner work as a way to deposit some of our energy in a tree or group of trees. Later we can make a “withdrawal” on the “interest accrued” as long as we don’t withdraw all the energy we have “deposited” in the tree. It’s one way to stay silent about on-going inner work without blowing it off by talking with others about it. Another way to stay silent in addition to asking a tree to deposit or give energy to him/her/it is to make an agreement with oneself to pay attention to our breath instead of talking (and blowing off energy).
Its so easy to forget that trees are beings too
In asking a tree to participate in acting as an “accumulator” we can begin to become a co-equal member of a forest and /or woodland community. We become members of an ecological local community and remember our roots to help cultivate an intimate relationship with Earth on a local level. Its so easy to forget that trees are beings too and treat them as objects for use in a soulless society of use and waste that’s disconnected from the sacred.
Here is the beginning of reconnecting with the sacred inside us through a personal relationship with a tree or a community of trees in the context of a larger local community in which each member plays a part.
What a wondrous world to uncover and honor the sacred.