Charlottesville and the Downside of The Solar Eclipse

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The eclipse is the shadow of the moon obscuring the light of the Sun on the Earth. Shadow elements of the blockage of the Sun (in late Leo – proud heart of love) is bringing forth its opposite hate, fear and violence to be released.

The god of war – Mars is also associated with action and leadership – on the high side and anger, violence and aggression on the low side. Mars is a (male) yang planet. Mars in Leo can be pushy and dynamic and is associated with the eclipse, part of the shadow.

The impulsive/ dark side violent energy of Mars in Charlottesville was fueled by Moon in Aries wildly impulsive prone to emotional outbursts.

The shadow of fear and hatred has come to light. One of the perpetrators has lost his job. Others are under investigation for their crimes.

The Illinois State Legislators have proposed a law:

http://reverepress.com/news/illinois-senate-passes-bill-label-white-supremacists-terrorist-organization/

Covering the Bases on August Total Solar Eclipse – 2017

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INTRODUCTION

In 999 AD there was a total solar eclipse in Southern Europe. The combination of the ellipse with the calendar – the upcoming 1000 AD produced interesting effects. Many people believed the world was going to end. Farmers stopped tilling their fields. Many people gave property and “worldly possessions” to The Roman Catholic Church.

There was a famine

On New Year’s Eve 999 many huddled in churches waiting for the end. When nothing happened many demanded what they had given to the church back. The Church Fathers said no. There was a famine and the middle/business class collapsed. It took Middle Class took ten years to rebuild.

Many succumbed to a similar hysteria around the Y2K virus. A friend never recovered from going into debt in preparation for the collapse and has been looking into conspiracy theories for new collapses.

Endings and beginnings are based on the invention of language that feed ego.

Astrologers and the current eclipse are predicting big changes and transformation. There is a need in a culture based in capitalism for events and a cellular desire / fear-aversion for endings (also built into Judaeo-Christian and Islamic philosophy). Endings and beginnings are based on the invention of time and language that feed ego functions in us all. While eclipses occur four to seven times per year – both solar and lunar. Solar and lunar eclipses are approximately two weeks apart from one another.

A Solar Eclipse both total and partial are positions of the Moon in front of the Sun casting a shadow on Earth. A Lunar Eclipse is the shadow of Earth that blocks the Sun from illuminating the Moon. The symbology of eclipses or metaphors  in Solar Eclipses – unconscious or “the dark side” of personality / inner self comes to light and in Lunar Eclipses – unconscious or “the dark side” of emotions come to light – because we observe the process.

The Astrologers I have read so far regarding the eclipse event do NOT predict exact events. It’s all rather vague, claiming transformation. There are some reasons for this:

  • Modern Astrology doesn’t predict events
  • Astrological transits (planets, the Sun and Moon in relationships with one another and/or with natal – or birth charts or progressed charts of persons, entities – the USA for example) are parameters of possibility.
  • Parameters of possibility don’t predict events per se. Parameters are about limits and a way of prescribing sets of variables within a set, in a formal manner.
  • Parameters of possibility can fall High, Medium or Low probabilities
  • Parameters of possibility can be interpreted from a Transcendental Perspective, from a Conscious Perspective or an Unconscious Perspective.
  • Whether our experience falls within the parameters of possibilities depends on too many factors, but if we were to list the salient factors they might be:
  • Choice, will, and decision
  • Soul age
  • Hazard / luck
  • If an astrologer were to predict a specific “fearful” event and they proved to be correct then is a self-fulfilling prophecy dictating the process may have occurred. No person or astrologer would want this responsibility.
  • If an astrologer were to predict a specific “positive” event and it proved to be correct then others would look to this astrologer for past and future replication of this “educated guess”. And /or consider them “psychic”.
  • If an astrologer predicts a “positive” but vague and seemingly magical future event then there is usually no way to determine whether it actually happened or not from a common perspective.

BUT

According to astrological cycles the new moon / solar eclipse (August 21, 2017 at 18:30 UT, 2:30 pm EDT, 11:30 am PDT) are about new beginnings having to do with revealing the shadows of the emboldened ego /self. (Trump’s chart relates strongly to this eclipse – more later on that.)

a new world could be opening into a shared power base

Astrologically the obvious major influences are the release of shadow elements regarding authority and a revolution. This could portend a shift of power in the world – ie the USA being dethroned as the top of the heap of the Superpowers and / or a healing of that power.

Communication will be intense (as in negotiation – perhaps) – Mercury in retrograde and fraught with possible deceptions and/or lofty ideals as a one-world government etc. – Neptune (ideals / spirituality, illusions and delusions) opposite Mercury.

Regulus – a “fixed” star has been in Leo for the last 2,000 years and has recently enter Virgo. Regulus – meaning royalty and those that serve royalty (the patriarchy) has moved into Virgo – innocence and healing bounded by a spiritual community.

This looks to be a time of stand-offs that are painfully entering a new time of healing.

Trump could get a karmic kick in the butt

Looking at this as a key opening a lock: a new world could be opening into a shared power base. In other worlds the patriarchal hierarchy is gone and this new way of a community of shared power is emerging. It could be felt in how all our relationships work – assuming you don’t take the role of the parent or child and instead become a peer.

 

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Trump’s natal chart reflects his impulsivity and his karma. This eclipse could reveal his shadow and end up with a karmic kick in the butt.

Dealing with Anxiety – a primer

The Unhealthy World

Anxiety arises from fear and it protects us from danger.

Anxiety has become a complex problem due to many factors.

There are two types of anxieties. One is exogenous and one endogenous. Exogenous means something that is produced outside of us. In and in the way I am using this word is directing the cause of anxiety to an event in our immediate present or near future. Endogenous means causes by something within us and I surmise that this type of anxiety began in the outside world in one or many traumatic events so that it appears to become internally produced or triggered. In this case there is no identifiable cause of feeling anxious and this becomes an existential condition.

Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management.

Exogenous anxiety is a cause and effect relationship. I’m anxious about my day in court. The day comes – it wasn’t as bad as I thought, I feel relived and anxiety is reduced significantly. However if I have experienced clustered exogenous anxiety producing events as a child then these can easily translate into an endogenous anxiety condition.

The two basic systemic problems of coping / dealing with anxiety are as follows:

  • We live in a complex world undergoing transformations even beyond institutional control that are stressful and anxiety producing.
  • Denial that anxiety is an emotion that could be valuable and is thus thought of as an emotion to be constantly controlled or virtually eliminated.

Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management. It is the perfect emotion to target with a product because our attitude towards the emotion (to be gotten rid of) and a world that is a nest for increasing anxieties and thus provides continuing and increasing profits. And it is not that simple either.

The use of street or illicit drugs at a young age for self-medication (dealing with depression and anxiety) and the concurrent addiction issues along with marketed pharmaceuticals on television has engendered a culture that looks to legal drugs to squash emotional problems of anxiety and depression amongst others. And while this may be effective it reduces our ability as a culture for self-reliant behaviors and creative problem solving.

Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience.

What happens when a younger person uses street drugs or prescribed medications to diminish anxiety, the anxiety goes away. Emotional growth stops at the age when street drugs and/or prescription drugs are used and often abused. A drug abusing person enters into a drug-culture. Later in life when a person wants to genuinely deal with emotional and psychologically difficulties their emotional responses may be childlike or childish because of legal or illegal drug use. Cognitively they may act like adults but when beset by anxiety they become stuck children. The frustration is overwhelming and dependence on drugs legal or illegal provides instantaneous relief.

 

Beginning to Deal with Anxiety

There are two basic strategies in dealing with anxiety:

  • Tolerate it until is dissipates.
  • Deal with it directly or indirectly.

In order to be able to tolerate anxiety one has to have had a history with it. Embedded in your history are the methods used to cope with anxiety until it goes away or disappears into the subconscious. Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience. Even part of tolerating anxiety becomes a part of dealing directly or indirectly with it.

Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies.

In dealing indirectly with anxiety comes the use of distractions. Some of the distractions may be healthy and some unhealthy. If you are depressed and you begin using methamphetamines to lift your mood, you will get an instantaneous lift from depression along with feelings of grandiosity and anxiety / excitement and this will be temporary. If you use marijuana to reduce anxiety you may become insular, depressed and /or paranoid if used to excess. Watching television to excess can make a healthy distraction unhealthy serve to isolate the individual etc.

Some distractions can also be a direct strategy in lowering anxiety. Taking a walk in nature or a run is one way to burn and / create energy to lower anxiety. It distracts the mind from the feeling and allows the body to detox anxiety on a cellular level.

Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies. In most modern cultures citizens don’t live in the body, we live in our minds (this also cold be called a preoccupation with thoughts to the exclusion of emotions and the sensory phenomena of the body). We know we have a physical body but we may be unaware of the body in a sensorial manner. Only un-mechanized agrarian cultures may remain in their bodies.

Immediate anxiety is an emotion that serves us when we are afraid and that fear is immediate. Anxiety serves to heighten awareness in this instance of immediacy. If a person is anxious about crossing the street because drivers are going through crosswalks illegally, anxiety and fear protect us from being hit by careless motorists. This is anxiety is exogenous.

Endogenous anxiety may be a feeling of dread upon awakening that develops into a full-blown anxiety attack. When that happens medications may or may not help. Practicing being aware of our body and our breath prior to a panic attack or increased unmanageable anxiety can assist in helping to lower anxious states if one remembers to employ the techniques. Dealing directly with anxiety can take on a number of strategies including:

  • Breath work
  • Systematized processes of reducing tension in various body parts allowing the person to be present with a body in a state of continuing relaxation.
  • a hot bath or shower
  • Receiving a massage
  • Drinking a relaxing non-caffeinated beverage
  • Listening to soothing (floatie-driftie) music
  • Reading
  • Sitting under a tree
  • Being with Redwood trees
  • Watching the waves at a beach
  • Soaking one’s feet in a foot bath
  • Centering and grounding
  • Hiking on a trail in nature
  • Running / Jogging
  • Swimming
  • Meditating

 

Besides using pharmaceutical anti-anxieties there are a number of natural alternatives. The supplement GABA or Gamma-Aminobutyric Acid is a neurotransmitter that has a number of benefits including lowering anxiety and … http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-and-supplements/gaba-uses-and-risks

 

And Acontium Napellus 30 c – a homeopathic formula for anxiety

 

 

Last Mass Extinction Scenarios and the Best Alternative

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About 25,000 years ago life on Earth was substantially very different. People had a natural ability to connect to nature, to communicate with animals and plants as well as each other in a way that was telepathic and empathic (emotional) woven together. A Guardian of the Planet due to races on the other side of the galaxy seeking to mine higher functions of humans – basically to eat the light that humans generated shut off this ability. A buffer was put in place for about 200 to 300 years. When it was removed the ability did not return for the majority of humans though the danger had passed.

 

Not to scale – charts of worlds 1 – 5 (and the beginning of world 6)

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Aliens and humans from the future orchestrated a mass extinction event that instigated a thermonuclear war between two major powers and Atlantis. The war and the testing of a crystalline communications and power transfer system totally destroyed almost all the people of Earth and decimated Atlantis through massive floods and sinking islands and sub-continents. The Toltec described the end of the 3rd world as a thermonuclear war.

 

The era of the 3rd World of Atlantis and Lemuria were a time of clans and guilds. Lemuria pioneered genetically produced human beings to augment and replace the Servant Clans towards the end times of the third world. Many of the new servant class were clairvoyant and knew of the impending end and went into caves. The Bible mentions Giants. The servant class was short in stature 4 to 5 feet tall. The “Giants” were easily six feet or taller. They emerged from Shambhalla (also know as the Hidden Directorate, Shangri-La, Beldovia) to assist the humans of that time to cleanse from radiation poisoning and to provide seed stock and grains. The Shambhallans traveled as couples man-woman pairs taught populations how to cleanse from excessive radiation and then they perished.

 

The servant peoples evolved into the Matriarchy and survived for 5 to 6,000 years before being overcome by the Huns. There was no single Mass Extinction Event between the Matriarchy (the 4th world) and the 5th world, the Patriarchy. The Matriarchy survived the longest in North American before the influence of Europeans and other influences destroyed their way of life through genocide.

 

Jeffery Wolf Green astrologer and author of many books – Pluto being one of them (Pluto – death brings new life) says that we, meaning all of us alive today- born in the mid 1930s to present time were alive during the matriarchy. And those awakened are the leaders into the sixth world.

 

Moving into the Sixth World: Three Scenarios

 Moving from worst to best. Each of the three scenarios listed below in terms of maximizing economics and limiting human suffering is the last choice.

Continue with Climate-Denier Policy

Droughts, floods, super-storms, wildfires, famines, water-wars and other resource wars are just the beginning. Species of plants, animals – gone.

Result – Human Species wiped out.

Preventative measures – life underground for 1,000 to 3,000 years – only the rich will be able to access this. Underground seed banks and genome banks to clone animals when humanity returns to the surface.

A Thermonuclear Holocaust

 A small amount of humans survive – in underground bunkers and space stations. Well space stations are unsustainable. Population reduced to about one million or less. There may be places where radiation may be lower, but due to radiation cloud cover for about 1,000 years it won’t make a difference.

Some may build domes in advance of the war(s) and this could be viable with orbital solar panels.

Underground seed banks and genome banks to clone animals when humanity returns to the surface.

Human Contribution to Climate Change and Actions

The Paris Accord. Rapidly phasing out oil and gasoline…

Humanity is saved and COOPERATES.  Humanity enters a new era.

An Alternative funding source for Medicaid/Medicare

Premise: Part of the problems of healthcare may be an increase in chronically ill individuals due to age and environment per capital. Due to an increase in population in a context of an increasingly toxic environment health problems have significantly increased. Using the reductive methods of the scientific method without common sense the effect of the environment as a major contribution to chronic disease can always be debated. Common sense follows that ignorant and non-ignorant corporate greed has created a general environment where toxicity has increased directly and indirectly. If we accept that corporations have wittingly or unwittingly contributed to a toxic world over the past 50 to 60 years then we can conclude that they are directly or indirectly accountable for support the health of the citizens.
Actions: The EPA has been the policing agents for corporate polluters. However corporations have not been held accountable for contributing to an environment whose toxicity has created significant health detriments to people, animals Eco-systems and Earth.

Two actions are required. Stop contributing toxins to the environment and pay for healthcare for those that cannot afford health care.
A healthcare tax on corporations could fund Medicaid and Medicare and provide an incentive for ceasing actions that contribute to making a toxic environment.

Recent Violence with Astrological Correlatives

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London, Washington, DC, San Francisco, CA

INTERPRETATION:

Revolution and unpredictability blended with warlike / warrior energy fueled by an intense authoritarian backdrop with an eye towards a bold and perhaps narcissistic future.

Combine this with disembodied emotions in service to a grandiose indecisive expansiveness and connected to trying to hold everything together by doing the impossible.

Planets and Aspects:

Uranus and Eris TRINE Saturn (in retrograde) on one side and TRINE North Node on the other (Saturn in retrograde and North Node TRINE)

Sun TRINE Moon TRINE Jupiter TRINE Sun

Two inverted Grand Trines one in Air and one in Fire – not quite a Star of David but close.

 

 

Empathic Protection

Originally published May 21, 2015 and updated June 3, 2017

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Most children are empaths. Many people are empaths and sometimes this is a matter of degree. If we begin to think as the empathic ability as a continuum then sometimes people are highly empathic – highly sensitive and sometimes less empathic perhaps due to circumstance and/or better boundaries. However in every social group there may be one or more empaths that may function as checks for both conscious and unconscious emotional patterns within a particular group.

A client who was an empath asked me how she could keep out “bad energy” or “negative feelings”. How could she protect herself? This is a good question. No one who is an empath stays in a feeling place all the time. We go into our intellect as a way of protecting ourselves from the suffering of the world and from our own suffering.

Emotion is analogous to flowing water.

No one can stay in the heart one hundred percent of the time without breaking down. The best parts of ego allow us to balance emotions with the intellect. It is possible for an empath, stuck in fear for example, to begin to rationalize judge and exclude others shifting themselves from the heart into the mind and using the intellect as a fortress against emotions. A person overwhelmed with emotion could be fearful, defensive and react in anger if they are unaware of the empathic abilities. Other empaths may seem to attract nothing but negative energy from others (see Shadowcatchers below) and this may originate from being scapegoated as a child and accepting the role as an adult. Balancing mind and emotions requires attention and the use of thinking to identify emotions in others and our selves. Once we engage the mind to identify emotions we can develop a plan of action to help us cope with others’ feelings (see example below).

Most people who are empathic sponges would like to keep bad stuff out and let only the good stuff in, that’s only natural.

 

The best defense for empaths is flow.

 

Let it flow through you. A metaphor for flow of emotions is a fast flowing stream, waterfall or river. Emotion is the empaths currency. Emotion appears, we sometimes process it and then it goes. Empaths ability to feel others’ emotions and identify these emotions can be developed into a skill and can trigger responses in empaths that remind us of woundings from the past. As soon as you realize you are triggered remind yourself that you wouldn’t be able to recognize the trigger unless you were ready to deal with it.

If the empath can answer these questions when feeling others’ emotions then protection becomes simplified somewhat:

  1. Does this feeling I’m feeling belong to me? (Does it originate with me?)
  2. If YES, decide whether to deal with it in current time or postpone it until you can deal with it.
  3. If NO, then either let it flow through you quickly and ground it down into Molten Core of Earth, or offer it to be burnt up in the sun, or create a column of light to the left or right of you and put the emotion or set of emotions in the column of light.
  4. If MAYBE, it’s likely that the emotions that you’re feeling are similar emotions than the persons or persons producing them and you have lessons to learn here or you feel triggered. Ask that Spirit separate your feelings from the others and then deal with the feelings from the others as you would in #3 and /or in #1.

Many times the four-question method above may not be possible. When we encounter others’ emotions we may be overwhelmed with their emotions. Their emotions may trigger similar emotions in us. Part of our abilities as empaths is recognizing the common threads of emotion that bond humans together. Two common emotions that humans feel are grief and love. Feeling love in another or in others feels good. Feeling grief can be problematic. Part of the problem is that grief can spawn feelings such as sadness, anger / rage and these can turn into depression sometimes. Recognizing when you are triggered and dealing with the trigger is a first step at diffusing overwhelming emotions.

There can be two kinds of empaths for the purposes of this piece.[1] If you are reading this and feel you are an empath then you are on the path of a Conscious Empath. However there are unconscious empaths. These people become overwhelmed without knowing the reasons and sometimes blame others or become depressed. Their childhood traumas may be so complicated and their self-images so solid with walls instead of boundaries that their empathic abilities overwhelm them and prevent them from seeing triggers. They cannot process the overwhelming emotional onslaught without help. Usually some of these people feel they don’t need help.

You may also be a Shadowcatcher.

You may be a magnet for others shadows. Shadowcatchers may be absorbers of others unconscious projections. Essentially a shadowcatcher feels the shadow of another or shadows from groups. I noticed this when I was a participant in a healing circle. The facilitator asked for loving and healing energies from the group through coming forward – for a laying-on of hands or from our spot in the circle. Immediately I felt a surge of resentment and anger that was overwhelming. It happened many times until I realized what I was feelings was not coming from me. And as soon as I grounded it out I felt the love and was able to participate in the healing circle.

Sensitive people always attract less sensitive people to them especially if one or both parties are not conscious of their sensitivities. In psychology this is called Projective Identification.[2] Our culture often brands sensitive people as “weak” when in fact the opposite is true. I grew up in a stiff upper-lip Yankee family where tears were rarely shed. My Mother would shame me for my tearful behaviors by saying – “You’re too sensitive.” Often it was she who was projecting feelings onto me that I could express and then she would shame me for having done so because she did not want to acknowledge the feelings in herself. When sensitive people become aware of their sensitivities and can name their feelings and take responsibility for them with “I feel” statements then merely on the psychological basis feelings can be owned and the blame/shame game can be reduced.

If you are an empath that becomes infected with the shadows of others and these shadows blend with your emotions, then problems can become severely compounded. As a child and survivor of ritual sexual abuse that had been repressed I was severely depressed and passively suicidal for all of my teen years. When the memories of abuse began surfacing in my 40s I was able to begin to deal with the feelings and slowly work through the most arduous territories of the abuse. Every person on the planet has grown-up in a dysfunctional family to one degree or another. If you played the role of an empath in your family and that particular family was highly dysfunctional and negative then its likely that you may be carrying your family shadow and are acting out what had been passed on to you. There are three paths of approach that may help with your healing:

 

  • A daily spiritual practice that includes working on developing a non-judgmental and compassionate observed of your behaviors, thoughts and emotions (feelings)
  • Therapy
  • A visit to a healer to assist in removing possible ancestral beings stuck in your electromagnetic field.

 

I have been engaged in a daily spiritual practice for over 40 years and more intensely during the flashbacks of the abuse.

 

 

[1] The range of empathic abilities: https://lonerwolf.com/what-type-of-empath-are-you/

 

 

[2] Shadowcatchers in psychological terms: http://drs-oleary.com/Projective_Identification.htm

 

“Why Traps” – an Affirming Present or a Future Expectation of Negative Outcomes

brain_f2 Psychoanalysis uncovers the genesis of a problem or problems rooted in the unconscious and when understood by the conscious mind there is an occurrence of healing. This is a vast oversimplification and it belongs to a world of mechanistic cause and effect relationships with an assumption that the mind unlocks healing.

Our brains are hardwired for fear and possible negative outcomes.

This myth is perpetuated into logical thought and the some of shortcomings of the scientific method. In other words psychoanalysis has perpetuated an assumption that thought and the will can overcome unconscious traumas of childhood. That would be true if everyone lived in a cause and effect world.

Fears and anxieties based on an expectation of a negative outcome is an urge some people to begin to try and think how to escape the negative outcome. This in-turn encourages more thinking to solve the problem. This is the cycle of worry or obsessive thinking. The pattern of this kind of thinking may soothe the thinker for a nanosecond but then initiates the obsessive pattern again. The worrier doesn’t use fear to attract the negative outcome to themselves but allows them to find situations were the negative pattern manifests. [People come to me and ask about romantic relationships they inevitably say they feel in-love for the person because it feels “right” and “familiar”. The root word of “familiar” is family. After a few dates I suggest some questions. If the person asking me is a woman talking about a man, I ask the woman about her relationship with her father. I suggest that the woman ask the man about his relationship with his mother. You get the idea.] The family we were raised in represented a particular world. Some offspring leave the world of the dysfunction – often cause and effect relationships for a world in the present and they may slip back into the cause and effect world when encountering a parent or two or siblings. The function of expectation for a negative outcome is key and this is often an unconscious process.

When we humans feel joy and happiness expectation falls away.

Our brains are hardwired for fear and possible negative outcomes. This took place over a long period of time probably tens of thousand of years and was based in survival against real danger, such as being attacked and eaten by predators. Eventually the patterns that helped our ancestors cope with dangers were substituted with fears based on anxieties about our negative expectations of a future based on a causal world.

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When we humans feel joy and happiness expectation falls away. These are emotions that expand and uplift and belong to a different reality than the expectations of negative outcomes and how to solve them. Expectations of negative outcomes and its solution – obsessional thinking curl us into self-protective loops that create conditions for suffering and breakdowns. Joy and happiness belong to a separate reality divorced from expectation and in the world of the present.

This takes a compassionate neutral place within our Being.

I had a friend that would ask me “Why?” to whatever subject she was grappling with at the time. I would answer that “Why?” questions assume that if one knew the reason for this or that problem then there would be a self-evident solution. “Why” questions belong to the cause and effect world of psychoanalysis. Cause and effect worlds are less complex and predictable. The Higher Worlds predicated in the present are more complex because the emotions of joy, happiness and love open us and make “Why” questions superfluous. The intellect and rational thought is not the answer to everything.

Overcoming worry and causal realities takes time and effort. Awareness is the first step. Awareness must be free of judgment. The spin of worry / obsessional thinking must be observed without judgment. This takes a compassionate neutral place within our Being. This place requires cultivation. Once the force of a witness is sufficiently cultivated we become aware when we are obsessing and have an expectation for a negative outcome.

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A conscious breath may be enough to interrupt the pattern for a second. The use of distraction, moving out pattern of thinking to feelings of hope and joy may help us shift out of the pattern. Repeated efforts along these lines are necessary throughout our lives because of the hard-wiring of our brain explained above. For a better habit to replace a bad habit- especially one that is hardwired into our brains must be continually practiced.

I have noticed that breakthroughs into other worlds and even into a “place” beyond time are possible.

 

A practice of saying “thank-you” from the heart

As a recovering perfectionist I learned how to receive compliments and let go of doubt, low self-esteem and the constant need to be perfect in just a moment.

I was attending a Gurdjieff (Spiritual) School in the early 1980s. We were organized into groups for the first semester based on type. I was in a group of individualists who were creative, inventive loners, not playing well with others and had a cynical / angry / awkward edge to each of us. Our team / cooperation skills weren’t very good and so we were assigned to repair a truck gather wood while other groups worked on construction projects – finishing a greenhouse and building a loafing shed, and working on building a house. Our lack of teamwork and inexperience became evident when cooking a dinner. Our first dinner cooked by the ten of us for ourselves and 30 other students was a disaster. The appointed manager didn’t know what he was doing. But we improved.

After Thanksgiving I was manager for a meal. A woman from a group that made the best dinners approached me just before an evening class and congratulated me on doing a good job. I started to say that it could have been better (or perfect). Her reaction to my self deprecation was disappointment. In that moment I felt her praise, took it into my heart, looked her in the eyes and said:

                                                   Thank-you.



I saw that she was warmed by my acceptance of her compliment. This demonstrated an important principle of energy exchange.
It demonstrated a cycle of giving and receiving. When we work to accept a compliment in a heartfelt way we allow ourselves to receive a gift from another. When we say: “Thank-you” and look the person giving the compliment in the eyes we honor that person and acknowledge their gift with tender loving kindness. They gave us a compliment from a place of love and we have returned that compliment in kind. Giving and receiving is not a closed loop, it opens and allows energy to build.
The logical end of giving and receiving is a new economy based on community, cooperation where all are included…

Surrender

Occasionally I think about the arc of my life as a rainbow of possibilities replete with connections, connections of the heart to friends, relatives and lovers… Tonight I feel filled with love, blessed to live in community. I feel incredibly wealthy and blessed. Thank-you.

The community in Sonoma and in the world for all that I have touched and whose hearts have touched mine. The connections through the WordPress blogs, Facebook and Medium to name a few are also heartfelt. I am deeply grateful and honored.When I dip into the breath and down into meditation the web and weave of a greater consciousness seems to open. In that opening I have glimpsed destiny based on synchronicities, karma, perception and the oneness of the heart. It is as if my life has been written as I surrender into a higher consciousness letting go of ego for those briefest of moments.
In 1990 when I asked the question – “God what should I do with my life?” and the subsequent “answer” that led to a place of choice. I could have continued to pursue what “I” (ego) wanted to do – make video, write unsuccessful screenplays and continue to work as a Crisis Counselor or…

I could surrender to a life as a “seer” and healer. So I surrendered. However that initial act of surrender wasn’t the only one. My rebellious and bratty ego keeps making himself known and this requires continual acts of surrender to the path.

I wish I could adequately describe the feelings of sweetness connected to the act of surrender. However the 1990 act of surrender wasn’t my first. My ego remembers all the seemingly magical acts of surrender, and there were many that were failed or seemed not to produce any obvious results.
To arrive at a place in ourselves where surrender is possible other avenues of work are required to generate the energy of beingness necessary for the sacrifice in the surrender process.
Avenues of work on oneself:
Struggle: Most people have an onerous association to struggle and avoid it. Most of our struggles are successful and easy. Getting out of bed in the morning, or driving to work etc. Paying taxes may be a task we put off – so that may be an odious struggle.

Struggle is the battle between “Yes” and “No”. The cultivation of the Witness observer self helps in two ways: it allows non-attachment to develop and the observer / witness can create energy from the friction of the struggle.
Help: Most people ask for help much as a child would ask an adult for help in the same way people ask for help from God, the Divine, the Universe etc. Many people expect help will arrive because they asked and that the help will arrive in a clearly recognizable way. Help can come when we make space for it and are attentive to the ways in which it can arrive and how we respond to it.
Learning: Learning can come from books. Deeper learning comes from direct contact with a Master and /or teacher.
Surrender or Sacrifice: This can only happen in the present moment. It involves a surrender of thought, feeling and motion (somatic knowing). It involves letting go of expectation and fears. When ego is released the Witness or Observer self may be present.
In 1982 will participating with 50 or so individuals in a practice of a Gurdjieff Sacred Dance – The Great Prayer, during the last twenty minutes I experienced a divine presence “doing” the movement while my Witness Self observed. This was an ineffable experience where to use words to describe it would denigrate it.