Empathic Process and Beyond

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On this precipice of transformation the world seems entrenched in romanticizations of the past, which is producing unnecessary injustices pain and suffering beyond the pale of the ordinary.

as an empath I feel their pain

 Survival is an interesting balancing act between feeling deep anguish,pain and suffering and a retreat into rationalizations and /or other protections of the mind. The danger of a continuous retreat into the mind is a numbing of emotion. Too much emotional distress that is left unprocessed leads to overwhelm and shock, suppression recycling unconscious processes that have alternating anxiety, fear, anger and /or depressive moods to name a few a part of the emotional strategies of coping albeit unbalanced.

something happens that seems like divine intervention

When I work with people who are in pain I acknowledge their pain, its truth and being and as an empath I feel their pain. It pushes up against the pain I have felt in my life and allows me to identify and bear witness to their pain and mine. Merely by bearing witness with an open heart, suspending judgment sometime something happens that seems like divine intervention. Their pain is slowly allowed to release a little in the moment. It doesn’t mean that the pain won’t return it just means that if I hold a respectful loving and compassionate space for someone without expecting any result the pain sometimes leaves. This is miraculous. It seems divine because it has to do with a force that is invisible in our lives – the neutral space, the place of the witness.From the witness the higher vibrations of love and compassion flows through me and amazes me because – although it seems a part of me it belongs to a greater oneness that is part of the essence, core or divine self. From many years of healing work it has become easier to release judgment and accept another person’s reality completely. This has been a gift (from the mystery of the Divine).

The Divine enters and is both me and not me

Surrendering ego is the push that keeps a boundary in place that may as well be a wall and that is extraordinarily difficult to release until it isn’t. In that moment when the “I” is released all compassion, love and/or the divine that is all round as it has always been. I have kept it out, me the ego. The release of ego is so simple in the act. Getting to the place of release, of surrender, of sacrifice is gut-wrenchingly arduous. The release is sweetness and freeing.

the light of relief is experienced in all its innocence

In that momentary place of release and holding space the healing empathic forces come into play. They come through me when I step out of the way in the moment.

The Divine enters and is both me and not me, is a child of mirth and wild play; and that which is greater acting through me. Still the ego in me would like to lift the suffering from the one who is with me. I, the ego, realizes this is a disservice to the person in front of me who is suffering. I have come to see that by holding sacred space and allowing the person’s pain and suffering to run its course that they are learning a new grace and wisdom of unwinding karma and releasing their pain. I feel privileged that I can witness a birth within another as suffering and pain go and the light of relief is experienced in all its innocence.

This is one gift of the empath.

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An Odyssey of Loss and Rebirth (May 2017 to May 2018)

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Fires of October 2017

 

I had dreams of the death of my friend Wendy former lover and good friend in early May and she had given me hints of her upcoming death over the phone but I missed them. Denial is so self-protecting at least initially.

the October fires of Northern California began

News came of Tom Petty’s death…

I got a voice mail from a good friend’s daughter on 9/28/17 about his impending death. I had known it was coming but it took me my surprise. The next day he passed out of his cancer-ridden physical body into the next life.

Wendy had died of cancer in May.

A week later the October fires of Northern California began. I evacuated, as did my neighbors – only to find that it wasn’t a mandatory evacuation as I was lead to believe by authorities on the scene. (I later learned they had moving heavy equipment – massive bulldozers into the mountains at the end of the road.). My cat and I stayed with a good friend in Windsor. I returned one day in the midst of smoke as thick as fog that not even air conditioning in my car, a mask or the interior of my house would eliminate to retrieve a few items and found a message on my answering machine to call the niece of Wendy in Canada.

The losses from the fires were and continue to be heartbreaking and devastating.

I waited until I arrived back in Windsor to call Wendy’s niece. She had gotten my letter (Wendy’s phone had been disconnected). Wendy had died of cancer in May.

My old boss was shot

The losses from the fires were and continue to be heartbreaking and devastating. Thankfully my place and my neighborhood were spared. Many homes that were completely destroyed are just now starting the re-building process. Loss and the anniversary of that loss have had us holding our breaths a bit. I felt us all sigh relief, exhaling as the rains came October first and second.

He was taken off hospice in May 2018

In December another friend passed from cancer.

My old boss was shot during the time my boss asked a question and was in critical condition for a time and then started his recovery.

A friend was put on hospice in February. I could see he wasn’t going to die that soon. He was taken off hospice in May 2018

Consciousness, Memories, Multiple Realities and “Past Lives”

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Arising Questions and Background

In the previous piece I posited that Past Lives could be just memories of past lives instead of having lived a past life or lives.

  • Is it One or the Other?
  • But why can’t it be both?
  • Does it have to be limited to two possibilities?
  • Or is it none?

Before I discuss the possible answers to these questions here there are some experiences I’ve gathered during my service as a shaman:

I was asked to “look in on” a recently passed mother. I saw her in a rocking chair looking out a bay window at a field of clouds with angels playing harps. She was in a two story white house flanked by a very large oak tree on a mound surround by “fields of clouds”. Her son told me that she had a favorite rocking chair and the house I described was her family home in Kansas surrounded by wheat fields. A man was on a four-masted schooner at the wheel clad in beige foul-weather garb from head to toe in a raging storm having the time of his life after his death. I was told he loved sailing. I entered a dream of a man taking field trips to the other side riding around in an Indian Motorcycle with a side-car in Ohio and Illinois of the 1940s. He woke from his dream and said tell him (meaning me) I’m not ready to go yet. His relative said he told her this as he woke up and used my name. A friend who passed a number of years ago told me “There is so much love here.”

A man went to a local hospital for routine surgery and died on the operating table. His ghost walked home to his home in the mountains. For a few years he didn’t know he was dead. When he realized it I opened a space so he could “pass” to the “next world”.

I worked with a woman in her family home and a ghost that had haunted the place. She found out the story after she moved in. The story was a teenage boy lived with his father who was a retired military officer – his mother had passed years ago. He killed himself by firing a shotgun in his mouth. She had had psychics from a local “psychic institute” come to exorcise the ghost. When the ghost threw things at them they ran away. The young man didn’t know he was dead. He thought of the woman’s teen daughter as his girlfriend and didn’t want to leave. She didn’t want him to leave either. And there was some service he was to do for his “girlfriend”. A number of years later just after the young woman got her automobile license she was driving through her town and hit a tree. He pulled her down and the steering wheel went through where she had been. I gave her instructions on how to release him and she did and he “went to the next world”. She went to college.

My Guides came to me four days before my father passed and told me that he didn’t have enough light to get to the other side. (The energies of light and love are of equal vibration when love has no object. The killer of love is fear that is often expressed through acting-out anger. Acting out anger is addictive because it creates the illusion of power and is accepted in our hierarchical patriarchal epoch as the norm. My father’s light was eaten by his anger and fear). My Guides asked me if I would give some of my light to my Father to assist him to pass to the world of Higher Love. I said yes. On the day of his death – the 55th anniversary of my birthdate I watched the process of his death, which was a learning experience set-up my Guides.

Inside each of us is our essence – a core of light that “resides” within us beginning at the crown chakra at the top of our heads – a light that follows the spine to the root chakra near the end of our spines. This light frequency is held in place by the variety of frequencies in our physical bodies. Outside of our bodies are layers of our EM (electromagnetic fields) sometimes referred to as an aura. The aura is our light body. Excessive anger / fear and other chronic negative emotions may eat away the light body.

When life ceases and the brain goes dead, approximately twenty minutes later the light of the essence combines with the light of the body to create the tunnel of light reported in near-death experiences. This is what I saw during my father’s passing. His presence in image form appeared to me twice and he spoke once immediately after his passing.

Granted, these are experiences after this life ceases and it does lend credence to the continuation of life – as in reincarnation.

  • Is it One or the Other?
  • But why can’t it be both?

It’s at least both: meaning reincarnation (past lives) really happens and /or we can access memories of past lives.

  • Does it have to be limited to two possibilities?

No it can be more than two possibilities and I don’t think I have the mental capacity to hold more than these two possibilities at this time that could be plausible.

 

 

Deconstructing the Present

 Taking suggestions from the line of thinking that emerges from this piece and the previous one we could construct a linear past and a method to “travel” there at least theoretically.

memories created “one or two seconds ago” are mediated experiences of reality and is not reality itself.

The simplest answer is: by folding space we can “travel” to a past that we co-create based on our projected memories and ideas from consensual public history. Before we get “there” in the “past” it may be important to deconstruct how we live in the “present”.

First: Our most sophisticated ideas are mediated and shaped by a symbolic technological system called language. So any reality we may experience even the most ineffable and spiritual experiences are changed when we think (verbal or visual thinking), talk or write about the experience.

filters constricts/allows/defines how we receive information from our environment and is shaped by how we interact with it through biological, genetic, societal, familiar and individual both cultivated in the present and based on historical beliefs

Second: If memories are parts of our personalities instead of stand-alone objective observations of history this raises profound questions about our personal memories of our own past. Even collective memories such as The American Revolutionary War and the beginnings of the USA nation in 1776 are based on information organized around agreed-upon facts and woven into narratives created by individuals. All shared memories appear to be mediated experiences even through reflection we are sharing memories with ourselves. As such memories created “one or two seconds ago” are mediated experiences of reality and is not reality itself.

Without memory we would have no identity.

Third: What is reality? Reality as we experience it is filtered through a variety of perceptual faculties including: sight, sound, olfaction, auditory, tactile, sense of direction, sense of balance, sense of orientation in space and time and language, thought and emotional / intuitive experiences, memory and its constant reference to other thoughts in an associative fashion and more… Each of these filters constricts/allows/defines how we receive information from our environment and is shaped by how we interact with it through biological, genetic, societal, familiar and individual both cultivated in the present and based on historical beliefs. Quantum physics has proven that observation of quanta phenomenon changes when an observer experiences / participates with it. In other words our participation of what’s “out there” is created through perceptual filters, mediated by thought and communication and is essentially created by us and projected out into the world. This is a cool idea but when we begin to examine it more closely it means that the reality that humans experience is an agreed upon lie or an illusion. Perhaps it is only a lie or illusion because as a species we don’t or can’t yet take responsibility for the reality we create both individually and collectively. Inside the human experience – that excludes the quanta world it is not a lie or an illusion. It seems real. The laws of Newtonian Physics are only true when quantum physics are not considered.

Fourth: Space and Time. Time cannot exist without space in a Newtonian world. Present time is fleeting. It quickly becomes memory. We don’t ordinarily think of memory as a perceptual facility, but it is. Without memory we would have no identity. The tragic advance of Alzheimer’s shatters identity by destroying long and short-term memory. Both Dementia and Alzheimer’s are diseases that are considered terminal. When long-term memory is destroyed the personality disappears and disorientation abounds. Short and long term memory are parts of the personality that is a sense like sight or olfactory sensations. The memory is a sensation that displays some evidence of the passage of time. The passage of time is also evident in thinking and recording past events as we remember them and they are always associated with space. Observations recorded in the present moment based on the number of rings in a tree, for example are built on previous observations which in-turn are based on personal and /or collective memories.

Being or Eternal time is rarely experienced because it exists outside language and outside biological time

Fifth: Language, Memories and Consciousness in linear time and space assist in co-creating reality. In NDE (Near Death Experiences) sometimes people report meeting relatives that have passed on. When my father passed through the tunnel of light it was his auric field in spin. Meeting his passed-on relatives was at the end of his dispersing auric field. At first he met his relatives as he remembered them and they were just his memories. A little while after connecting with his memories of them their essences or spirits merged with his memories of them to create interactions. A similar principle is at work when we reunite with friends and relatives in our current life – memory and other perceptual filters interact with the person or persons we are meeting to create a space for communication and sharing. It isn’t just memory based on recognition of the person we are meeting it is the richness of experiences or a personal history contained within our memories as encoded in our neural net. From the time we mastered language and communication our brains have been re-wired to filter all other perceptual filters through language. Verbal and written languages are the passports to link with community, society and civilization; and help define our place in that culture.

Sixth: Beyond Linear Time. Being or Eternal time is rarely experienced because it exists outside language and outside biological time. Being time can be experienced in rare moments of expanded consciousness that seem to happen by accident or they can occur through the meditative experience. Being time is impossible to be adequately described in words because it exists outside linear time. However once we begin to describe it, it automatically loses value because our ego gets attached to it and says: “Hey look at me, I’m special I have gone outside of time.” Being time transcends a linear time experience of the present and can include past, present and future as one large present moment. In trying to explain or describe it, it loses its meaning. Being time is consciousness transcending linear time to live in a larger place.

Seventh: I am reminded of sharing a stupid game I used to engage in while at church to occupy my time while the priest mumbled words in Latin. I used to call it: “If there wasn’t a me, what would there be” game. I’d think back to being a small child, imagine being a baby, imagine being in the womb and before birth and driving myself a little crazy – going to the brink as it were. “Okay, its time to come back now,” I’d coax myself and soothe myself to “returning” to life as a pre-teen. Later in Senior Literature class we discussed unusual experiences. I shared the experience and one of my classmates told me that I was trying to conceive of nothingness. Because it had been given a name I could no longer summon the experience. Shamans often go to the void. The void is the place of nothingness. When I “go there” there is no “I” that experiences the nothingness. I only know that I’ve been there by the results – all that is superfluous is stripped away. Others people have claimed they have experienced “nothingness” and found God or have mistaken insignificance and being infinitesimal for nothingness. Some shamans having “returned” from the void are catatonic for days and even weeks due to the residuals of nothingness.

Eighth: The world as we know it is built on quantum dimensions we would consider to be counterintuitive. Yet when we interact with quantum phenomena the experiences are defined by our participation strongly suggesting that the reality we experience is an internal experience projected “outside”. Quantum physicists suggest that as many as nine dimensions help support the world that we co-create with our surrounding immediate Newtonian world.

Humans seem to have the ability to reflect on their actions or thoughts.

Ninth: Every human experience is filtered through a perceptual faculty. The obvious senses: visual, olfactory, tactile, auditory, kinetic, and so on are the obvious perceptual faculties. The less obvious fall into the realms of biology, time, language and consciousness. Biology consists of systems such as endocrine cycles through hormone baths in the body are ways to gauge time outside language. The survival of a species depends on memories of events which threaten the life of the species and this is recorded in the patterns of genes and chromosomes, hormonal cycling, neuron firing patterns – these are some of the biological features of survival that also includes procreation of said species. Denial of climate change is a kind of sensory blocking that threatens species survival and reinforces specific artificial environments that are divorced from biological cues for a species survival for example.

Tenth: Humans seem to have the ability to reflect on their actions or thoughts. Consciousness may also be a perceptual faculty. Wikipedia defines Consciousness as –

Consciousness is the state or quality of awareness, or, of being aware of an external object or something within oneself.[1][2] It has been defined variously in terms of sentience, awareness, qualia, subjectivity, the ability to experience or to feel, wakefulness, having a sense of selfhood or soul, the fact that there is something “that it is like” to “have” or “be” it, and the executive control system of the mind.[3] In contemporary philosophy its definition is often hinted at via the logical possibility of its absence, the philosophical zombie, which is defined as a being whose behavior and function are identical to one’s own yet there is “no-one in there” experiencing it.

It may be that consciousness is the only state that can survive the death of the physical body. From a being perspective consciousness can experience a lifetime as one present moment. As modern peoples we are so identified or attached to the stuff of life and ego this is “me” and this is “not me” that being – that which is not attached to anything or person or to the self can experience a lifetime of being – an ineffable quality that transcends to mundane. It’s also impossible to describe or define it without diminishing or making the experience profane.

 

Some thoughts about time travel

 Theoretically time travel could be generated through enormous amounts of electromagnetic energy to fold space and “travel” back in time. There may be a interaction between my memory and the denizens to re-create time with the memories of those in that time space continuum. Part of the problem with “the past” as language teaches us to conceive of it as a “place” when it is just a memory of place. If we were to literally pin-point a “place and time” in the past would we not recreate that past as we remember it. It wouldn’t be the past as we experienced it when it first happened but as we remember it now. So-called paradoxes of meeting yourself in the past wouldn’t be you, but they would be you as you remember them now with a different perspective etc. so they might resemble you in some fashion but there would be differences.

set off a series of 100-megaton nuclear bombs

Early time travel science-fiction stories reported minor changes in the time-line that significantly changed the present time line when the travelers returned to it. I think major changes – such as stopping or instigating a cataclysmic event could be the only way to alter the time line. Would there be an alternate reality? Probably not. The alternate reality might exist in a potential state but not in a corporal state. One altered reality might be formed in the past, but participants in that reality would not return to the original reality that they had left and would not know the difference because their memories would be altered too fit the new time-line.

“Traveling” or expanding through consciousness may be the only entree into “the past”.

Time Travelers Z, D and M travel to a specific date in the past and set off a series of 100-megaton nuclear bombs. The new reality going forward is supported by 8 to 9 quantum realities some of which may temporarily manifest as corporeal, but eventually fade to support one corporeal world. When Z, D and M return to their starting point they forget the world they started from by the nature of the changes they made in the past. Memories are recreated the present based on the new present they created in the past.

Or if time traveler P went “back” in time ten years to save her husband from a drowning accident and then traveled forward to the time she left then:

  • Her husband may have died in another or similar accident in the interim
  • Her return to present time she may find a different woman, similar to herself and married to the husband she saved.
  • She may return to find no husband and no record of her ever having existed.
  • She returns to find that her husband has survived and is married to another woman because she died.
  • She travels to the past and is absorbed into the person she was then thus merging with her old self and her husband drowns
  • She travels to the past saves her husband and is absorbed into the person she was then thus merging with her old self and lives on.

If we operate along the merging of memories when we meet someone we know creating reality as we go then we may cease to exist when we meet ourselves in the past or may not recognize ourselves because of the different memories especially if memory is one of the chief perceptions that create reality.

 

Lots of theories, lots of ifs…

 

“Traveling” or expanding through consciousness may be the only entree into “the past”.

 

 

NOTES:

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2017/03/05/transcend-space-time-be-in-the-light/

 

https://blogs.scientificamerican.com/observations/coming-to-grips-with-the-implications-of-quantum-mechanics/

 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Consciousness?wprov=sfii1

 

Past Lives – The Other Explanation

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or Explorations into Memories and Consciousness

Beginning in the 1960s many people in the Western World became fascinated with “past lives” due to emerging contacts with eastern religions. The fascination with past lives continues to persist today for many people.

memory is of another life that we lived previous to this one

How can many people claim to have had a past life of a famous person? How can this be true? How many thousands claim to be the King of Prussia or Cleopatra? How could it be possible that many people claim to be famous persons? Is this not impossible?

From a linear perspective if could be true if we could hold composite beings within us – 2 or 3 personalities in us simultaneously not just with regard to famous people but anyone. Or from multi-dimensions many people could have been a famous person from the past.

All of “the past” is built on memory

If we begin to look at past life memories from a quanta perspective then past life memories take on a different mindset. Quantum physics experiments that have been replicated report that our inner experience is projected on the “outer” world and that is our reality.

The past is a made-up fiction.

When someone mentions “past lives” our automatic association lead us to think that the memory is of another life that we lived previous to this one, as in reincarnation and the working out of karma. When talking about past lives the only access we have to them is through memory.

Memories are part of our personalities

Therein lies the rub. All of “the past” is built on memory whether it is personal memories or agreed-upon collective memories often recorded in books; written or re-written by the victors in war.

The past is a made-up fiction. The past doesn’t exist in the past along a time line of past, present and future – that’s a structure we use to organize memories. The “past” exists in the present as memories. The “past” doesn’t exist as an event that happened “back there”. Memories are part of our personalities and exist in part based on artificial constructs of the tech of language and a creation we invented called: linear time. The technology of language as a base allows us quite organically to create time and the precise measurements of time. The structures of language both oral and written have encoded our neuronal pathways with associations that are part of memories. Other parts of memories may include visual stimuli – photographs, cinema, and nuances in our immediate environment, olfactory triggers and so on. Our personal histories are composed of memories which define who we are as humans in the present. All of our memories, conscious and unconscious exist in the brain in present time.

Maybe our thinking is backwards

Dipping into “past life memories” could be as likely as having lived those lives. Past life memories could be accessed in the present from any life needed to help complete our story. In other words – we weren’t Napoleon, Saint Francis of Assisi, and Thomas Jefferson / Mother Theresa, Isis, and Margaret Sanger, we just dipped into the memories of one life or other and were wowed by the feeling or reality, the details we couldn’t have known (but someone did – not public knowledge).

As humans we think of ourselves as separate from others

Just as Jung wrote about the Collective Unconscious, these are collective memories. Where are collective memories stored? How do we access them? Maybe our thinking is backwards regarding the Collective Unconscious, collective memories and collective consciousness. The neuronal structures of the brain are transmitters for the collective consciousness and other collectives such as the unconscious and memories. The brain housed within a human body is not as separate from one another as we might think. If we originate from a larger collective consciousness and are expressed as an individual person we no longer have the capacity to think or remember the larger consciousness in the same way the collective consciousness acts through a planet Earth human.

have accessed the memory from collective consciousness

As humans we think of ourselves as separate from others and this is reinforced through the tech of language. Through the perception of sight I see objects in space. I see these objects in space because the space appears invisible. This assures me that I am separate and separated from another person. Invisible space is filled with a variety of energies including electromagnetic (EM) energy as generated by my physical body. The EM field surrounds and interacts with others in my vicinity and may be augmented by other artificial fields generated by cell phones, WiFi and infrared signals. Biological and non-biological forms emit EM energy. The EM energy could either hold collective consciousness or be a lens for parts of collective consciousness or collective memories to become available to an individual.

So when someone claims to have lived a life in the past an alternative explanation could be that they have accessed the memory from collective consciousness. Examples of collective consciousness could be displayed in a number of ways. When I was about 14 years old I wrote a short about a submarine shrunk down and injected into the body of a human to destroy a clot in the heart. Many months later Isaac Asimov published his book “Fantastic Voyage”. My first thought was he had stolen it from me. But logically that wasn’t true – it would have been more likely that I had stolen it from him – which I knew wasn’t true either. I decided it came from a kind of collective consciousness. There have been times in the Los Angeles area that movies with similar themes have been made without the writers knowing about they other writers…

Triggers – a personal story

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I’m no expert. I have lived with triggers all my life but didn’t know they were triggers until I was in my late 30s.

It was a body memory evoking trigger [that lasted] ten years

What is a trigger in terms of a psychological phenomena? Wikipedia describes:

trauma trigger is the subjective attribution that a psychologic stimulus caused someone to recall the memory of a previous psychological trauma, although the stimulus itself need not be frightening or traumatic and can be indirectly or superficially reminiscent of an earlier traumatic incident. Trauma triggers are related to posttraumatic stress disorder(PTSD), a condition in which people often cannot control the recurrence of emotional or physical symptoms,[1] or of repressed memory.[2][3][4] Triggers can be subtle and difficult to anticipate,[1][5] and can sometimes exacerbate PTSD. A trauma trigger may also be referred to as a trauma stimulus or a trauma stressor.[6]

Remembering times in my past where I had been mildly dissociated. I surmised that I may have been triggered and didn’t know it. Then there were the blackouts with substances and then without substances where triggers were most definitely involved, but impossible to identify.

I told myself that my body felt safe

One of the first pervasive triggers that I experienced lasted during all my waking hours for ten years. It was was a body memory that evoked triggers but in the beginning had no emotion attached to it and then there were fleeting feelings of sadness, grief and moments of profound depression. After those feelings passed the one that remained was rage. It was always there in the background.

The body memory was related to sexual trauma and PTSD symptoms. The specific body memory was a sensation in my jaw that someone was trying to open my mouth and I was resisting with all my might.

One of the difficulties with triggers are identifying that I have been triggered.

I told myself that my body felt safe enough to remember the trigger. Each time I noticed the body memory trigger its physical sensations and accompanying emotions I told myself that my body was releasing the memories.

One day after ten years I woke up and thought: “Something is different.” When I first acknowledged that the body memory had ceased it came back immediately. Within a few days it disappeared. It returns occasionally but is no longer a fixture in my life.

One of the difficulties with triggers are identifying that I have been triggered. Sometimes it has taken me days to realize I have been triggered especially if I feel angry or rageful with a seemingly rational reason.

The nature of being triggered flips me into being isolated because perpetrators isolated me to abuse me.

There have only been three times where I have been able to identify the source of the trigger. One was the body memory of sexual abuse, already mentioned above. I was with a client in his home. He pursed his lips a certain way and I had a visceral response of wanting to punch him and beat him up. I had to bite my tongue to calm down and restraint myself from beating him up. Why the trigger occurred was not in doubt, what it was – was uncertain.

In October of 1995 when I was driving back from having had therapy in Pt. Reyes Station I was driving under a plume of smoke from the Mt Vision fires that destroyed over 40,000 acres. The smoke made the sun red as it set. When I returned home I was inconsolably in tears. I called my therapist – why was I so upset? I had asked. “The fire is big and out-of-control just as your perpetrators were when you were young.” She suggested I use a coping tool to calm down and manage the trigger. I did.

The problems with most triggers are:

  • An environmental cue activates trauma from our past.
  • Once triggered we often enter a regressed or frozen state when we had been traumatized – and may not realize we have been triggered (a call for help to a support person or persons may be useful).
  • We may act out as a result of having been triggered. (This can be mild to major and perhaps life-threatening).
  • We may appear non-rational to others where they may shun us or they may also get triggered.
  • The desire to identify and control future triggers may consume us. Realizing this is an impossible venture is a good first step to work on defusing and working with future triggers.

The nature of being triggered flips me into being isolated because perpetrators isolated me to abuse me. So when I get triggered, especially when I don’t realize I am triggered I isolate. It was a strategy I used as a child to survive. It may or may not have worked very well but when I am triggered and don’t know I am triggered it remains my “go-to” strategy.

Thinking about what “just happened” and analyzing it with the thought that “If I can figure it out I can – know what happened to me; – I can prevent it from happening again.

Thinking was what I used as a child from inside the trauma to survive is a habit. But it doesn’t necessarily work very well to solve the emotional trigger of the trauma. Its one of the ways I perpetuate remaining isolated and lost in a regressive or frozen state of trauma from the past.

Its good to have a preemptive plan to deal with triggers in advance so we can get the help we need until we reach a place where we can deal with triggers more effectively.

This is where a therapist can assist or a self-help guide.

I have found that when I know that I’m triggered that I tell myself I am ready to handle it because I’m aware that I’ve been triggered. However if I’m triggered but am not yet aware of it, I know that I feel stuck, agitated, and/or distressed emotionally I try one of the following options:

  • I reach out for support
  • I ask for feedback
  • I ask for help
  • I sit with my feelings and try to identify what they are before taking any action.

This is just a sample and in no way is what I recommend.

What I do recommend is for you to come up with your own safety plan for dealing with emotional upsets, stuck places and triggers.

[NOTE: I was triggered by my partner when we were hiking Mount Tamalpais (in Marin County California). I told her. She wanted to take responsibility by wanting to know what she had done to trigger me. I told her I didn’t know and that it wasn’t her fault. I told her that I just wanted her to know in case she felt me pulling away from her during my process of the trigger and using my safety measures. I’m not sure she understood and decided not to tell her again if I had been triggered due to her response.

Often in dysfunctional relationships we put responsibility on others for our emotions. This is a reaction that does not make another responsible for our response. We have feelings. In relationships – couple therapy is a good idea to help resolve interpersonal communications and dysfunctional dynamics. Individual therapy can be useful too.

When a trigger brings up a feeling in one person and that one person blames another for their trigger – this is an incorrect understanding of a trigger. Conversely of a non-triggered person enters into an interaction with a triggered partner for example especially if the triggered person is unaware they have been triggered then a mess ensues. If the triggered person becomes aware they have been triggered and the non-triggered partner attempts to intervene – to fix the situation then what occurs still could result in a mess.

One possible way to prevent a trigger from creating a mess would to speak with your partner about your triggers. Explain to them they are in no way responsible for the emotional reactions they – the triggered person, may have and that they may need:

  • space
  • try to be patient – wait
  • for the non-triggered person not to make assumptions
  • know they are in no way responsible for having been triggered.

Some Flaws of Capitalism or…

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Or Some Flaws of Capitalism in its Current Incarnation

 

These ideas are not a new idea or proposition set forward below:

Sixty years ago my family bought a GE toaster that I have and I use regularly. It makes good toast. I have had other toasters and a few toaster ovens that have broken and were eventually too expensive to repair.

a rubric of infinite resources, income and growth in a finite world

Capitalism after WWII was steeped in growth, craftsmanship and materialism. It was a time a massive rebuilding, re-population and expansion. Though mass production reigned, craftsmanship and materialism were the building blocks of capitalism. Labor unions, industry and government were partners in reconstruction after the war and there was a resplendent growth of the middle class and income.

Capitalism in its continual reinvention of itself relies on some major flaws. One of the most obvious flaws are the finite limits of growth. It operates under a rubric of infinite resources, income and growth in a finite world.

The vestiges of citizenship were degraded into “the consumer”

In the 1980s capitalism threw off the last vestiges of materialism in favor of mass consumerism through planned obsolescence. The shift from materialism to accelerated consumer based capitalism accentuated the flaws of the system and produced lemmings running to the sea. Capitalism became the religion of the land and democracy grew more entrenched as a slave to consumer-capitalism.

Corporations have become the new citizens who have delegated individuals as the consumers of goods and services.

The vestiges of citizenship were degraded into “the consumer” as political action committees (PACs) usurped individual citizens’ participation in government and re-election of so-called “representatives”. Congresspersons and Senators have become the servants of corporations in order to streamline government for accelerated capitalism. As citizens have become superfluous they have in-turn been plugged into being consumers of products and services of demagogue type of capitalism.

Corporations have become the new citizens who have delegated individuals as the consumers of goods and services. Products have been redefined into smaller parts designed to wear out swiftly and /or be replaced by newer “improved” models. Services are also degraded by dividing services into smaller portions, employing less qualified people and by outsourcing – language barrier problems (outsourcing is double-speak for layoffs).

The finite world is ignored for immediate quarterly profits

Another PAC strategy for corporate agendas is making “representatives” into divisive enemies so that either nothing is accomplished for individuals. One PAC strategy are “a no-holds barred” attacks against the enemy such as Republicans versus Democrats; Pro-Life versus Pro-Choice, etc. Democracy has been lost in the process and applies more to corporations than individuals. Giant powerful PACs are increasingly controlled by the top tenth of the one percent wealthiest individuals who ascribe to making more money and a consolidation of power.

The finite world is ignored for immediate quarterly profits. The focus of corporate/business and financial leadership is profitability in the next three months that can be extrapolated into a yearly goal. Looking into a future of the limits of growth based on finite resources is not built into consumer-capitalism. As a result the current reiteration of capitalism is systemically handicapped to deny finite resources through faulty cognitive re-framing. Some of this is the momentum of the capitalistic system fueled by greed and a lust for power and some must have a conscious design. At the base of this consolidation of power is an addiction of greed fueled by fear.

(Conservative/GOP) group views consumers below a certain income level and all liberals as potential servants, serfs and those needing manipulation

While consumer-capitalism within a broken patriarchal system has its own momentum that may carry many leaders of this movement along in a short-term gain (that looks long-term in the context in which they flourish) there is another conscious force at work. Some of the top tenth of the one percent of wealth in the world fights for increasing consolidation of power and wealth (call them A) while others fight for a more equitable distribution of wealth (call them Z).

A’s use their money, power and influence to create obstacles in government to further or block the agenda of the other side. When Newt Gingrich came into power he begun to characterize the opposition – the Democrats as “enemies” of the people. Before that time Democrats and Republicans may have vehemently disagreed with one another and their goal was to govern so they compromised to move their agenda forward. The current climate between Liberals and Conservatives is combat. There seems to be less compromise. Conservatives work at blocking Liberals at every turn. The result is no new legislation is adopted. Even in the current Republican block to repeal and replace the Affordable Care Act has only left the ACA in shambles and disrepair. Its as if the GOP’s secret wish was (is) to replace the ACA with nothing. The A group is moving towards satisfaction with the ACA being replaced by nothing because they wish to see a world that existed before the implementation of the Income Tax – 1912. When US Congress is deadlocked and new legislation is passed the A Group is generally satisfied. The only times that the A group may be dissatisfied is when legislation that favors their position is not voted into law.

Since 1776 to 2015 the US has been involved in wars 93% of the time

The A Group views consumers below a certain income level and all liberals as potential servants, serfs and those needing manipulation to motivate them towards they’re agenda.

The A Group does not want:

  • Income equality
  • Advancements in public education – (or consumers to think for themselves for then they may become citizens)
  • Racial equality
  • LGBT equality
  • Women to have equal rights, equal pay, the right to have control over their bodies (pro-choice), equal protection under the law
  • Consumers to live in a world without fear
  • To acknowledge that Climate Change caused by and /or contributed to by humans is real.
  • Considers the ACA a hand-out and doesn’t want government to support public health for all
  • All government programs devoted to public welfare as entitlements to be (Social Security, Medicare etc.)
  • To have peace in the world unless monitored by a strong US military presence in order to have a foothold on remaining limited resources

The Koch brothers (see end note) could be considered the most identifiable humans belonging to the A Group while Libertarians, Conservatives and some Republicans are also A Group members. A notable Z-Group member is George Soros and his organization (see end notes).

FDR President Roosevelt created social nets to assist the US to move out of the Great Depression, but the final impetus that extricated the US from the depression and accelerated growth was the entrée into and winning WWII. Prior to the mid to late 1980s the premise of wars were to stop the spread of Communism as represented by the now former Soviet Union and China while expand US interests. Now wars seem to be oriented towards oil resources.

Earth’s nutrients are the raw materials for corporate products. Some of Earth’s nutrients are renewable – as in agricultural fruits and vegetables, farm animals etc. Some farming techniques although provide greater crop yield may deplete the soil in such a way to make it non-sustainable over the longer term. Other of earth’s resources such as elements – metals and oil are non-renewable and finite.

Capitalism especially in its latest consumeristic reshaping does not consider the resources from the Earth in its cost effect analysis in part to the patriarchal mind-set and in-part to shortsightedness – quarterly profits.

The consumeristic-capitalism has been marked by US Political struggles of almost a constant state of war. Since 1776 to 2015 the US has been involved in wars 93% of the time (see end note). The only period the US was not involved in a war was 1935 to 1940 during an isolationist period during the Great Depression.

The current Trump administration is a characterization of all that elitists members of the GOP and conservatives represent as well as a longing for the good old days before the income tax and in support of isolationist ideals. It represents patriarchal self-interest that contributes to increasing isolationism, mergers, and maximizing profits for the wealthy elite, disregarding any community-based profits based on sustainability, protecting natural resources – environmental protections while marginalizing, discounting and enslaving those that have less by:

  • keeping their wages fixed and/or lowered
  • keeping them out of labor unions and making “labor unions” a dirty word
  • dividing them into factions that war against each other
  • gutting public education and dumbing down citizen’s ability to reason
  • providing entertainment that discourages reasoning
  • providing entertainment that displays the hopeless world that they live and will live in the future (only much worse) and that one common person can be the hero or savior
  • promotes the “myth of the American Dream”
  • encourages disempowered citizens to fear so that a limited number of avenues are open to them:
  • The American Dream
  • Fundamentalist Religion
  • Blaming or scapegoating a group of people based on race or ideology
  • Providing simple solutions to complex problems often based on “the American Dream mythology”

 

NOTES:

  1. Koch Family https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Koch_family#Family_members
  2. George Soros https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Soros
  3. US Wars https://www.globalresearch.ca/america-has-been-at-war-93-of-the-time-222-out-of-239-years-since-1776/5565946

 

The Luckiest of Days: Friday the 13th

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Sacred Day: Friday April 13, 2018 at 13:13:13 GMT

History

The patriarch authority in the form of Christian monks demonized all Goddess worship in order to suppress and replace pagan rituals.

Friday or the Goddess Freya was called unlucky by the Christian authority because it was a day of the sacred female divinity. Friday the 13th was made to be unlucky because it was associated with the 13th month of the year in the Menstrual Calendar. [1]

In many religions Friday was (is) considered the 7th day of the week and is the most sacred day.

Fish was eaten on Fridays as a fertility right, which was later absorbed into a Christian ritual. [1]

The Church in Europe used the Julian calendar. Peasants used the Menstrual or Goddess-Given calendar. The Lunar calendar was 13 months of 28 days each, each week being 7 days. (13×28=364 plus 1) – was the Menstrual Calendar that conformed to the cycles or phases of the moon namely:

  • New
  • Waxing
  • Full
  • Waning

The Moon cycles correspond with a woman’s menstrual cycle thus the Menstrual Calendar. [2]

Chinese women established a lunar calendar about 3,000 years ago dividing the stellar sky into 28 “mansions” that the moon transversed. The Great Mayan calendar had first been based on “her menstrual cycles”. The word “mensis” is Latin for month, Greek, Middle English and High German – moon. [2]

No one knows – as in a documented sense where this suppression and demonization of woman / the Goddess arises. Astrologer Jeffery Wolf Green writes about the end of the matriarchy and beginnings of the patriarchy in his astrology books. The male rebellion against the Goddess appeared to contain the seeds of the hatred and repudiation of the feminine within a patriarchal dominated culture.

Green states (am I am summarizing and paraphrasing) that women believed that spirit – the divine worked through men to delivery the seed for children to come into the womb of women. Men were superfluous vessels for the seed to be carried. The seed or sperm did not originate with men it originated in the divine feminine and men were hollow vessels in service to the Goddess. The matriarchy raised children in a group setting, there was no family with a man as the leader. All property was held communally. There was no need for weapons of war, no armies, no defense against invaders because everyone lived this way for a few thousand years. [3]

Green states that men became increasingly angry over time and began to over throw female leadership in a violent acting-out manner of raping, pillaging and murder on a massive scale. [3]

What evolved out of that was the family. The man was the leader and the owner of woman and children. I would be remiss if I didn’t write about the legacy of anger that each man holds over women, other men and children as well as dominion over “the earth”.

Some men continue to act-out this anger in the context of the patriarchal system without any self-awareness. Other men have or are continuing to struggle to examine the legacy of anger and the anger within themselves to find a cause for it and work on resolving it responsibly as it arises.

Until more men can and do step forward individually and as a group to own the accountability and responsibility for crimes against the other outside their gender then the legacy of anger will continue. This hard-wiring of anger is oppositional to all the principles of the matriarchy and the divine-feminine.

  • The matriarchy held all life as sacred with horizontal leadership
  • The matriarchy held all property communally.
  • The matriarchy treats property with equal rights and equal access.
  • The matriarchy held earth as a sacred being of the divine

 

  • The patriarchy holds the yang principle as supreme with hierarchical leadership.
  • The patriarchy holds only the elite or upper class as property owners.
  • The patriarchy is entitled to subjugate and enslave lower classes as property
  • The patriarchy in its rebellion against the matriarchy treats earth as an object to be used and consumed in a hierarchical matrix

 

 

Friday 4/13/18 at 13:13:13 Universal Time (1:13 pm GMT London, England)

The Divine Feminine Numbers:

Friday as the 7th day of the week represents constant rapid change

Four represent a foundation to be built upon

13 – the 13 months of the lunar year or menstrual calendar

2018 – 2 + 0 + 1 + 8 = 11

11 is Justice and/or a master number for building the new.

 

The Tarot Numbers:

 

month – 4

date – 13

hour (in military time) – 13

minutes – 13

seconds – 13

last two digits of the year – 18

equals – 74

add – (20 – the beginning two numbers of 2018) 2 + 0 + 7+ 4

equals – 13

add 1 + 3 = 4

 

Major Arcana:

13 is Death or Transformation (the Divine Feminine Principle)

4 is The Emperor – a principle of growth through a foundation of conflict seeking resolution

 

 

Astrology:

[All degrees in the chart (see illustration) are rounded up one degree if the number – not in bold is 1 minute or greater.]

13-13

Patriarchal Authority is highlighted and exhaled in authoritarianism. It is poised for a yang-based transformation triggered by a revolution of self. Patriarchal authority continues to go through a cycles of death and rebirth and this same authority is transforming the divine feminine. Goddess energies are making spiritual and emotional connections to the world community. Goddess energies are most likely to reveal an abundance of secrets set to transform the world of authority aka the patriarch. Communications and thinking are likely to be intense and in conflict seeking resolution with authority.

1. The Woman’s Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets,  Barbara Walker “Friday” pg 325-326

2. The Woman’s Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets,  Barbara Walker “Menstrual Calendar” pg 645-648

3. Pluto: The Evolutionary Journey of the Soul, Volume 1, Jeffery Wolf Green

breaking the Rules

Every family makes rules. Some of these rules are well stated, some are not and both represent good values and living for the most part.

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For as many stated rules and values there are many more meta-rules (unspoken rules) that often contradict each other and are passed on generationally. Some of the inter-generational rules may blend with regional rules.

be invisible

When I was 21 years old my Aunt passed away. She was in her 40s. I went to my bedroom in my childhood home and cried for twenty minutes. When I emerged to be with my stone-faced parents watching television they treated me like a weirdo (all unspoken).

For more on the New England mindset: https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2017/03/07/exploring-perception-a-new-england-mindset/

In 1990 I changed part of my name to rid myself of a suffix – junior. I had considered the change for ten years but had decided against it because I knew my father’s feeling would be hurt and discounted my feelings. When I put myself in the equation I broke a big rule.

My father’s influence in my life was both positive and negative mixed together. Sometimes it was possible to disconnect one from the other and sometimes not. In retrospect I see how my fears of punishment from my father were transferred onto the authority of the county courts and to a lesser degree the DMV.

It was my own fear of my father’s (wrath) authority

In November of 2017 I broke another family meta-rule, which states roughly: work hard, don’t draw attention to your self and be invisible in the world at large. I ordered a “specialty license plate” or more commonly known as a vanity plate – the 1960 Legacy plate with dark brown background and yellow lettering. It took nearly ten months to decide to order one. Feelings began to arise that I was doing something wrong, that I would be punished for drawing attention to myself.

It was my own fear of my father’s (wrath) authority – even though he passed on my 55th birthday in 2006 that helped create the following events:

On the DMV website they wrote that it would be a maximum of 12 weeks before a Vanity plate could be in my possession. When those 12 weeks passed I called the DMV and found it was a 3 to 4 month wait.

I received a notice that the plate had arrived at the designated DMV office so I made an appointment on-line. A few days later I received a summons to jury duty. Jury duty fell in the same week as my appointment. Would I have to reschedule my DMV appointment, would there be enough time? The info I received from the DMV indicated that I would have to pick-up my plate within 30 days or I would not get it. A good friend reminded me that I was complaining and that I could stand in line like everybody else.

I regressed into a super anxious sixteen year old rebelling…

I had to inform my clients with appointments for the week of March 12th through the 16th that I had to be on-call for jury duty. Except for one emergency appointment all other appointments were cancelled or re-scheduled.

I was directed to call the info line each evening after 5 pm to find out whether I would be called in for jury duty on the following day. I called Sunday evening for Monday – no jury duty. I called Monday evening for Tuesday – no jury duty. I spoke to a person Tuesday afternoon who said that my number was high and it was likely I wouldn’t be called – so I would be off the hook by Thursday evening. I called Tuesday evening for Wednesday – no jury duty.

…I became my father and went into authority – lording it over another.

Wednesday I kept my DMV appointment and I did stand in-line until I saw a sign that read: “appointments this line only” and went into a different line – a shorter line – got a number – waited more and was able to finish my DMV business in an hour and get my plates.

I had lessons to be learned. I learned them the hard way.

I called Wednesday evening for Thursday. – no jury duty. I called Thursday evening for Friday – and was told to call back on Friday between 11:15 am and noon for “reporting instructions”. I felt my chain was being yanked at that point. I called Friday during the appointed time – and I was finally freed from jury duty. It wasn’t just the waiting it was the anxiety of dealing with two government agencies (authority figures aka my arbitrary father) that triggered crazy emotions in me. I regressed into a super anxious sixteen year old rebelling against authority and not winning. I feel sad for that sixteen year-old kid.

Being visible is a strange feeling

It didn’t stop there. The following week I became my father and went into authority – lording it over another. That incident ended in tragedy to which I bear my part in the interaction. And I had brought it on myself. I had lessons to be learned. I learned them the hard way.

As a automobile driver I am fairly responsible, either driving responsibly or going with the flow. Its difficult and dangerous being around drivers who are behaving irresponsibly with their cars and I usually move into a defensive posture with high awareness. Driving with the new plate I picked up on others judgments and also emotions of curiosity too. I checked myself for becoming arrogant while driving because I was “entitled” with my vanity plate and let go. Being visible is a strange feeling.

I am still working with my emotions around being visible with the new plate. It’s a process

My story of the movies…

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newscopythe flow of the stuff in my head…

About the age of 15 or 16 my best friend Paul D. and I got together to make a movie. We wrote a script based on our goofy sense of humor and our favorite movies of Sean Connery as 007. Our character was James Notch 008 and ½ based on the Notch Store on the west side of Cheshire with a 67 page script maybe (it was a long time ago). It was a movie that never got made.

 

“Everybody knows they only make movies in Hollywood,”

classmates told us.

 

Coincidentally the Notch Store was the backdrop for the final scene in a film directed by Paul Newman called Rachel, Rachel in 1968 and was nominated for 4 Oscars including Best Picture (it didn’t win any Oscars).

I threw myself on the floor and rolled around. I moaned, I whined until she (my mom) agreed.

The next film that Paul and I filmed didn’t have a script. It was just visual ideas I had that I thought would look good strung together. It was a silent color film shot on a Double 8mm film made with a wind-up camera with three twists lenses and had variable shooting speeds. Back in the days of film – sound films were shot at 24 frames per second and silent films at 18 frames per second. Shoot at slower speeds and everyone would speed up. Shoot at faster speeds and slow-motion happens.

I convinced a girl down the street who was a year older than me to be in the film. She was the good guy with a white cowboy hat. I shot that first scene at sunset. The camera was on the ground, which meant I was on the ground too. She ran towards the camera hat on and she brandished the gun (an unloaded Luger my Father had as a souvenir from WWII) and jumped over me. She refused to be in the film after that. I even offered to pay her, but she said no. It was okay to use that footage she told me, mainly because she was in silhouette and no one could see her face.

After that I pleaded with my mom to be in the movie. I threw myself on the floor and rolled around. I moaned, I whined until she agreed. And she did. Phil B my best friend (the trio of nerdy guys – me, Paul and Phil) was the villain, though he looked like an innocent kid.

The Fordham’s Young Filmmakers Festival of 1968 in NYC

It was called: The Chase and it was awful. It was about 40 minutes too long. There were two special effects. My mom shoots at Phil and his black beret whips off his head. I used a fishing pole with some line. We shot all the scenes with my mom with slow film speeds so she looked like a lone Keystone Cop running in long shots that were way too long. And there was a car chase with one long POV (point of view) shot from the car, very boring.

The dying scenes were hilarious because my mom and Phil hammed it up.

Our art teacher suggested we send it to the Fordham’s Young Filmmakers Festival in NYC. We did and the only good thing about the movie was our entry into the festival. It was in 1968 in the winter during the first garbage strike. John Lindsay was major.

I learned so much about films and Paul and I had a good time – away from parents for a whole weekend. We saw a pre-screening of The Planet of The Apes with Charlton Heston.

When I returned I began studying film – Ingmar Bergman, Truffaut, Godard and American Film. I started a film club of watching great films and making small films, though we never got around to watching the great films.

I made one successful short film of 3 minutes made via pixilation or 3D animation (now CGI would be used). It was called King Chair. It made a $45 profit and was shown all over the world. When I asked my mom to be in subsequent movies she agreed if I was never to show her face.

I was thinking about going to go to New York University Film School and was toying with schools focusing on Creative Writing but my Guidance Counselor didn’t have the bravery to tell me that my SAT scores abysmally low. She brought me to the lounge of the other Guidance Counselors for their support in telling me. (Who was supporting me?). They basically said I was too stupid to get a BA and should settle for a BFA in film. I was angry and decided to let go of film school for a BA in English.

Writing pervaded my life.

I got side-tracked into psychology and ended up graduating from one of the top 20 universities in the US with a 3.2 cumulative average. I guess that proved I wasn’t stupid. I got a BA in Psychology with 2 Minors – one in English Literature and the other in Philosophy.

Writing pervaded my life. I tried going back into film in the mid to late 80s. I met Robert Altman who gave me an obscure window into his next film but I was too stupid to get it. (Maybe the guidance counselors were right – I was “too stupid”). His next film was The Player.

I’m still writing and doing my other work that I had surrendered into – as a healer. Being a healer/shaman/astrologer is something I have been doing formally since 1990. I have a fantasy novel that is being readied for publication – The Green Man of Destiny and I have been working on a series of 9 science-fiction novels.

Throughout it all I love stories and I love making-up and writing stories. I only wish I could transfer the images I see in my head to the reader’s head or the film goer, but I love the texture and wobble of words to send the images.

 

Building Human Reality

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Introduction

Elon Musk was interviewed recently and reported great odds (in the billions) that we are in a computer generated reality. This implies an AI being controlled outside the scope of humans or previously more advanced humans from an ancient civilization. While possible there is another more insidious programming that already exists within human beings themselves.

We exist inside a virtual reality due to how our human limitations perceive what we call reality. Our perceptual facilities, our genetic code, our mammalian / biological nature in juxtaposition with: the biosphere, civilization, society, Planet Earth, the Solar System, the Milky Way galaxy, the multiverse factor in how we perceive / project reality.

Language is the means that we symbolize reality.

Humans have built reality and we are slaves to it. Very few have escaped slavery to become free.

The film “The Matrix” arose from a more insidious reality that we have already created – not built by AI but by the nature of humans as addictive beings who project their reality onto a wider world and then live within the narrow confines of the world that they have created. It’s easier to think that an advance AI created a simulated reality because this idea is yet another way to release us for our responsibilities to work to free ourselves from the slavery we have created. The forces of addiction and /or attachment are the elements or glue that hold the reality together and prevent slavery from being seen – so in short we believe we are free when we are enslaved.

 

Some basics of a finite system

When language was first developed ego began. Language is a structure of communication and processing thought into concepts. Language is the means that we symbolize reality. Symbolizing reality in this way is so entrenched in our lives we forget that it is a technology that defines and enslaves us within its linear time constraints. It is a seamless technology. Language defines and constrains who we are in some ways and liberates us in other ways but within its system of rules. Language separates us through subject and object connected through verbs and modifiers. Language defines us gives us identity and separates us from “me” and “not-me” concepts.

Humans seek to complete themselves, which is impossible under the finite rules of linear perception.

Ego and language are inseparable. Ego is identity in a group-based matrix or community / society / civilization. Ego and language make life possible, as we know it. Ego is the manager of linear time; it dictates what we do, how we do it, when we do it and what it means to us. Ego and language make curiosity possible. Sentences have a beginning, middle and end and are action-movies, they are motion driven along linear time.

I walked across the room.

“I” is the subject, “walked” the verb – past tense, “across” the preposition indicating location “the” definite article – making special the noun that follows it, “room” noun and object of the sentence. The sentence indicated that the action took place in the past along a linear time line.

If we were to form a sentence to satisfy the wholeness of our entire being there would no longer be a need to make more sentences. One of the reasons we create more sentences is to find completion. This is one of the bases of curiosity and creativity. However, language, ego and linear time are closed systems and human beings are open systems living with complex closed systems. Humans seek to complete themselves, which is impossible under the finite rules of linear perception.

Linear perception is grounded in many rules. Human perceptual faculties assist in supporting, defining and honing the rules that support slavery to the finite system. The finite system is invisible because we believe that we have free will. One reason for this belief is the life we live within this closed system. Open beings inside a closed system will always create illusions in order to believe that they are free. From the point of view of the closed system free will is a possibility, but a quick examination of our lives reveal many truths including how free will as we currently think of it is an illusion.

 

Actions, habits beliefs – the family

Setting societal class and money systems aside, we believe we live free of history, both personal, familial, racially, ethnically and nationally. So when we make a choice we assume it’s free because we are unaware of the underpinnings of that choice.

Family teaches children. Children inevitable learn “do as I say, not as I do,” from parents. We unconsciously adopt beliefs from our parents including behaviors that contradict those beliefs. Even when we rebel against a belief of our parents we are still bound by emotional glue to a reaction response, which holds us in a dyad of prescribed behavior. We learn from our parents who learned from their parents and so on throughout history.

My father rebelled against “the government” because he transposed his rebellion against his father to a entity that couldn’t thrash him directly. It was safer to rebel against something so big and impersonal as the government. I rebelled against my Father directly – against the war in Vietnam and he thrashed me. I rebelled against the republican and conservative philosophies as a way of rebelling against my father. Having “seen” these beliefs in my father and the emotional underpinnings of his behaviors I have forgiven him for his violence and manipulation against me. However I am still a slave to this behavior on some levels. Working on it.

We hold conflicting beliefs.

How we respond to romantic partners is shaped by our relationship to our opposite sexed or dominant parent and how we perceived the behavioral and emotional interactions with their partners. Part of our attraction to romantic partners is a desire to feel the familiar – how we felt in our families. Its what we know. When we become aware of this dynamic we may try to fix/heal our family of origin and /or our primary relationship as a way of resolving our relationship with our opposite sex partner or dominant partner and our mother or father. Or divorce and start again with the same or a different facet of the same person. Or we learn to live with our partner that represents something healthier.

We assume that the predominant personality presenting itself in the now is master of our world. The extreme of the Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly Multiple Personality Disorder) is on a continuum between the highly dysfunctional to a function acceptability of differs selves within us. There is no Master but an array of different selves that rise up from the sub or unconscious sea with us. For instance I might say I have decided to lose weight by cutting out sweets. Hours later I see a fudge chocolate cookie that I eat without a second thought. Who was it that ate that cookie in me? A whimsical impulse driven child perhaps? It certainly wasn’t the decider that chose hours before to stop eating sweets.

We hold conflicting beliefs. We may have high ethical beliefs but we may not follow them. A friend did a statistical study of 6th graders. She found that most all of the students had many altruistic beliefs but did not follow them depending on a number of factors.

Capitalism requires an increasing division of things and services and a consumer base to fuel the engine of this system. Media including the sensory input of all that is visual and auditory drives to capture and excite the whim in us with the pull of associative memory to capture our attention.

 

Attention

[I’m intentionally ignoring most of the traditional and invisible perceptual facilities that we utilize in navigating the world for investigation later.]

 Attention is the first building block of consciousness. An understanding three stances of attention is a useful tool in the quest to see beyond the projected reality we as humans have created.

First the rudimentary aspects of attention via The Merriam-Webster Dictionary definition of attention:

1. a : the act or state of applying the mind to something Our attention was on the game. You should pay attention to what she says.
b : a condition of readiness for such attention involving especially a selective narrowing or focusing of consciousness and receptivity Students, do I have your attention?

  1.  : observation, notice; especially : consideration with a view to action a problem requiring prompt attention

all thinking is associative

 In the definition above is an implicit meaning of the focusing of attention from a subject to an object. Attention in linear time is associated with focus, a narrowing bandwidth in which to concentrate consciousness in an active and receptive fashion. When attention is focused it means to put aside extraneous associative thinking and concentration vision and auditory facilities on a point. Another facet of attention is the dualistic notion of the origin of attention – a person focusing and the object that the person is focusing on.

Humanity is caught in a dualistic dilemma, which limits thought to a binary sequence of on/off, either/or, right/wrong and so on. This is the dilemma of the pattern of all thinking. In short all thinking is associative. One though is associated with another. A human cannot hold two thoughts in consciousness at the same time. We can switch rapidly between two thoughts giving the illusion of multi-tasking. Many studies have debunked multitasking as a skill and show it as a way of shattering attention making the work less efficient.

Due to how we think as humans association naturally leads to dualistic thinking even though we all know that problems are more complex than black or white. Underneath the surface of associative thinking is a process that though fleeting at first can offer an in-between place between dualistic and /or associative thinking. This is a neutral place.

we are already enslaved by the history of beliefs, by the limits of perception, by habit that runs into a seamless unconscious flow

Before exploring the neutral place there are three centers of neuronal activity in the human body. The first is our top brain – the cerebral cortex, the second is the heart brain and the third is the gut brain. So far the discussion has involved only the cerebral cortex. [Aside: the other two brain impulses are always interpreted through the cerebral cortex.]

The Heart Brain is the seat of emotional impressions and regulates the heart muscle. The Gut Brain – or in Chinese Medicine – the Chi regulated the moving center or the Corporeal Body’s Brain as well as assimilation of nutrients and elimination of waste.

Expanding attention in a world that seeks to erode it is an increasingly difficult

Perhaps the neutral place was once a known intrinsic function of ancient humans before written history. Now it must be cultivated. The basis of its cultivation begins with the body and body knowing as the grounding of neutrality. Once neutrality has been noticed if only for fleeting moments then the fulcrum between duality begins to come into play. Attention begins to expand into higher forms. Attention is stretched as to allow more information to be processed especially when neutrality is cultivated.

 

Pushing Attention

As humans we are succumbing to sensory overload through the devices that stream technology and as a result our attention span is diminishing. Socio-economic forces fueled by power-possessors seeking to increasingly divide our attention and enslave us. And we are already enslaved by the history of beliefs, by the limits of perception, by habit that runs into a seamless unconscious flow. Room for play and creativity is nearly non-existent amongst children.

push the limits of reality

Expanding attention in a world that seeks to erode it is an increasingly difficult and unpopular task. Invariably during my work with clients trance-work is called for as a way of “seeing” the currents of habit that run below the surface of consciousness. Trance work requires dividing attention between what is being said and the flow underneath the speech. To effectively listen to their story and maintain a light trance state for receptively receiving impressions is made possible through the fulcrum of the neutral place. The trance state reveals an interdimensional reality that is at once separate and blended with the reality that we recognize.

Experimenting with lengthening attention and using attention in active / receptive and neutral ways then we can begin to push against the limits of how we project reality and become enslaved by it. The first step in solving a problem is recognizing that there is one.

We often equate perceptual attention with the visual. Our attention is drawn to something. The amount of visual stimuli that we allow ourselves to be subjected to is overwhelming. Here is a simple experiment in visual attention:

  1. Sit in a chair in a lit room and pick a point to look at opposite to where you are sitting.
  2. While looking at the point and not moving your eyes from that point pay attention to what is in your peripheral visual field, noting what is there.
  3. If you’ve moved your eyes from focusing on the point you have failed the exercise and start again.
  4. After a minute to five minutes stop. Close your eyes and recall what was in your periphery field. Now look at the area surrounding the point. Did you catch all the items that you noticed in the field?

This is an example of utilizing receptive sensory awareness and expanding attention to push the limits of reality. It’s a very mild push and it’s a beginning.

The use of trance, selective listening and the neutral point can be another tool in extending attention and awareness to places beyond ordinary reality.

The person begins speaking as I am prompted to drop-down into trance. I pop back and forth between worlds. Listening is half-listening and at times full listening. The trance state allows for a deeper level of receptive listening that gleans information and provides texture for the story that the client is weaving.

 After years of cultivating the neutral place within switching back and forth between worlds is easier and is one step closer to breaking free of the slavery which keeps me in an enslaved place. However I run on automatic just as many others do so I am still a slave to my habits and beliefs.

 

Acknowledging Perceptual Filters

The following five categories except number 1 may not represent all the perceptual facilities / filters that we as humans work with.

The obvious perceptions:

  1. Sight
  2. Sound,
  3. Touch,
  4. Taste
  5. Odor
  6. Balance
  7. Movement / Direction

The ignored perceptual facilities:

  1. Associative thought
  2. Perceiving emotion
  3. Memory (personal, familial, societal and their histories)
  4. Familial meta-rules
  5. Societal meta-rules

 

III. Unconscious biological perceptual facilities:

  1. Genetic interaction with the world based on familial and personal patterns
  2. Somatic knowing

 

IV. Underdeveloped perceptual facilities:

  1. Empathic perception
  2. Telepathic perception
  3. Transcending Linear Time

 

V. Transcendent perceptual facilities:

  1. Inter and trans dimensional perception
  2. Perception of invisible worlds
  3. Conscious bi-location
  4. Recognizing and transcending layers of illusion

 

All of these perceptual filters except number 5 are agreements that shape the projection we call reality. I believe that part of our mission as humans on planet earth is breaking through the illusions of the projection while transmuting suffering into energy or light / consciousness so that we make work to evolve into a higher consciousness state. Usually those that have completed this process are free to release the corporeal human state and live in the next stage of consciousness. Some do return to the projected human reality as Bodhisattvas to assist others in recognizing the illusion that we all create and help them with its release.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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