My story of the movies…


newscopythe flow of the stuff in my head…

About the age of 15 or 16 my best friend Paul D. and I got together to make a movie. We wrote a script based on our goofy sense of humor and our favorite movies of Sean Connery as 007. Our character was James Notch 008 and ½ based on the Notch Store on the west side of Cheshire with a 67 page script maybe (it was a long time ago). It was a movie that never got made.


“Everybody knows they only make movies in Hollywood,”

classmates told us.


Coincidentally the Notch Store was the backdrop for the final scene in a film directed by Paul Newman called Rachel, Rachel in 1968 and was nominated for 4 Oscars including Best Picture (it didn’t win any Oscars).

I threw myself on the floor and rolled around. I moaned, I whined until she (my mom) agreed.

The next film that Paul and I filmed didn’t have a script. It was just visual ideas I had that I thought would look good strung together. It was a silent color film shot on a Double 8mm film made with a wind-up camera with three twists lenses and had variable shooting speeds. Back in the days of film – sound films were shot at 24 frames per second and silent films at 18 frames per second. Shoot at slower speeds and everyone would speed up. Shoot at faster speeds and slow-motion happens.

I convinced a girl down the street who was a year older than me to be in the film. She was the good guy with a white cowboy hat. I shot that first scene at sunset. The camera was on the ground, which meant I was on the ground too. She ran towards the camera hat on and she brandished the gun (an unloaded Luger my Father had as a souvenir from WWII) and jumped over me. She refused to be in the film after that. I even offered to pay her, but she said no. It was okay to use that footage she told me, mainly because she was in silhouette and no one could see her face.

After that I pleaded with my mom to be in the movie. I threw myself on the floor and rolled around. I moaned, I whined until she agreed. And she did. Phil B my best friend (the trio of nerdy guys – me, Paul and Phil) was the villain, though he looked like an innocent kid.

The Fordham’s Young Filmmakers Festival of 1968 in NYC

It was called: The Chase and it was awful. It was about 40 minutes too long. There were two special effects. My mom shoots at Phil and his black beret whips off his head. I used a fishing pole with some line. We shot all the scenes with my mom with slow film speeds so she looked like a lone Keystone Cop running in long shots that were way too long. And there was a car chase with one long POV (point of view) shot from the car, very boring.

The dying scenes were hilarious because my mom and Phil hammed it up.

Our art teacher suggested we send it to the Fordham’s Young Filmmakers Festival in NYC. We did and the only good thing about the movie was our entry into the festival. It was in 1968 in the winter during the first garbage strike. John Lindsay was major.

I learned so much about films and Paul and I had a good time – away from parents for a whole weekend. We saw a pre-screening of The Planet of The Apes with Charlton Heston.

When I returned I began studying film – Ingmar Bergman, Truffaut, Godard and American Film. I started a film club of watching great films and making small films, though we never got around to watching the great films.

I made one successful short film of 3 minutes made via pixilation or 3D animation (now CGI would be used). It was called King Chair. It made a $45 profit and was shown all over the world. When I asked my mom to be in subsequent movies she agreed if I was never to show her face.

I was thinking about going to go to New York University Film School and was toying with schools focusing on Creative Writing but my Guidance Counselor didn’t have the bravery to tell me that my SAT scores abysmally low. She brought me to the lounge of the other Guidance Counselors for their support in telling me. (Who was supporting me?). They basically said I was too stupid to get a BA and should settle for a BFA in film. I was angry and decided to let go of film school for a BA in English.

Writing pervaded my life.

I got side-tracked into psychology and ended up graduating from one of the top 20 universities in the US with a 3.2 cumulative average. I guess that proved I wasn’t stupid. I got a BA in Psychology with 2 Minors – one in English Literature and the other in Philosophy.

Writing pervaded my life. I tried going back into film in the mid to late 80s. I met Robert Altman who gave me an obscure window into his next film but I was too stupid to get it. (Maybe the guidance counselors were right – I was “too stupid”). His next film was The Player.

I’m still writing and doing my other work that I had surrendered into – as a healer. Being a healer/shaman/astrologer is something I have been doing formally since 1990. I have a fantasy novel that is being readied for publication – The Quest for The Green Man and I have been working on a series of 9 science-fiction novels.

Throughout it all I love stories and I love making-up and writing stories. I only wish I could transfer the images I see in my head to the reader’s head or the film goer, but I love the texture and wobble of words to send the images.



Building Human Reality

Lightheadthe author with an illusion of light – what is the illusion?


Elon Musk was interviewed recently and reported great odds (in the billions) that we are in a computer generated reality. This implies an AI being controlled outside the scope of humans or previously more advanced humans from an ancient civilization. While possible there is another more insidious programming that already exists within human beings themselves.

We exist inside a virtual reality due to how our human limitations perceive what we call reality. Our perceptual facilities, our genetic code, our mammalian / biological nature in juxtaposition with: the biosphere, civilization, society, Planet Earth, the Solar System, the Milky Way galaxy, the multiverse factor in how we perceive / project reality.

Language is the means that we symbolize reality.

Humans have built reality and we are slaves to it. Very few have escaped slavery to become free.

The film “The Matrix” arose from a more insidious reality that we have already created – not built by AI but by the nature of humans as addictive beings who project their reality onto a wider world and then live within the narrow confines of the world that they have created. It’s easier to think that an advance AI created a simulated reality because this idea is yet another way to release us for our responsibilities to work to free ourselves from the slavery we have created. The forces of addiction and /or attachment are the elements or glue that hold the reality together and prevent slavery from being seen – so in short we believe we are free when we are enslaved.


Some basics of a finite system

When language was first developed ego began. Language is a structure of communication and processing thought into concepts. Language is the means that we symbolize reality. Symbolizing reality in this way is so entrenched in our lives we forget that it is a technology that defines and enslaves us within its linear time constraints. It is a seamless technology. Language defines and constrains who we are in some ways and liberates us in other ways but within its system of rules. Language separates us through subject and object connected through verbs and modifiers. Language defines us gives us identity and separates us from “me” and “not-me” concepts.

Humans seek to complete themselves, which is impossible under the finite rules of linear perception.

Ego and language are inseparable. Ego is identity in a group-based matrix or community / society / civilization. Ego and language make life possible, as we know it. Ego is the manager of linear time; it dictates what we do, how we do it, when we do it and what it means to us. Ego and language make curiosity possible. Sentences have a beginning, middle and end and are action-movies, they are motion driven along linear time.

I walked across the room.

“I” is the subject, “walked” the verb – past tense, “across” the preposition indicating location “the” definite article – making special the noun that follows it, “room” noun and object of the sentence. The sentence indicated that the action took place in the past along a linear time line.

If we were to form a sentence to satisfy the wholeness of our entire being there would no longer be a need to make more sentences. One of the reasons we create more sentences is to find completion. This is one of the bases of curiosity and creativity. However, language, ego and linear time are closed systems and human beings are open systems living with complex closed systems. Humans seek to complete themselves, which is impossible under the finite rules of linear perception.

Linear perception is grounded in many rules. Human perceptual faculties assist in supporting, defining and honing the rules that support slavery to the finite system. The finite system is invisible because we believe that we have free will. One reason for this belief is the life we live within this closed system. Open beings inside a closed system will always create illusions in order to believe that they are free. From the point of view of the closed system free will is a possibility, but a quick examination of our lives reveal many truths including how free will as we currently think of it is an illusion.


Actions, habits beliefs – the family

Setting societal class and money systems aside, we believe we live free of history, both personal, familial, racially, ethnically and nationally. So when we make a choice we assume it’s free because we are unaware of the underpinnings of that choice.

Family teaches children. Children inevitable learn “do as I say, not as I do,” from parents. We unconsciously adopt beliefs from our parents including behaviors that contradict those beliefs. Even when we rebel against a belief of our parents we are still bound by emotional glue to a reaction response, which holds us in a dyad of prescribed behavior. We learn from our parents who learned from their parents and so on throughout history.

My father rebelled against “the government” because he transposed his rebellion against his father to a entity that couldn’t thrash him directly. It was safer to rebel against something so big and impersonal as the government. I rebelled against my Father directly – against the war in Vietnam and he thrashed me. I rebelled against the republican and conservative philosophies as a way of rebelling against my father. Having “seen” these beliefs in my father and the emotional underpinnings of his behaviors I have forgiven him for his violence and manipulation against me. However I am still a slave to this behavior on some levels. Working on it.

We hold conflicting beliefs.

How we respond to romantic partners is shaped by our relationship to our opposite sexed or dominant parent and how we perceived the behavioral and emotional interactions with their partners. Part of our attraction to romantic partners is a desire to feel the familiar – how we felt in our families. Its what we know. When we become aware of this dynamic we may try to fix/heal our family of origin and /or our primary relationship as a way of resolving our relationship with our opposite sex partner or dominant partner and our mother or father. Or divorce and start again with the same or a different facet of the same person. Or we learn to live with our partner that represents something healthier.

We assume that the predominant personality presenting itself in the now is master of our world. The extreme of the Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly Multiple Personality Disorder) is on a continuum between the highly dysfunctional to a function acceptability of differs selves within us. There is no Master but an array of different selves that rise up from the sub or unconscious sea with us. For instance I might say I have decided to lose weight by cutting out sweets. Hours later I see a fudge chocolate cookie that I eat without a second thought. Who was it that ate that cookie in me? A whimsical impulse driven child perhaps? It certainly wasn’t the decider that chose hours before to stop eating sweets.

We hold conflicting beliefs. We may have high ethical beliefs but we may not follow them. A friend did a statistical study of 6th graders. She found that most all of the students had many altruistic beliefs but did not follow them depending on a number of factors.

Capitalism requires an increasing division of things and services and a consumer base to fuel the engine of this system. Media including the sensory input of all that is visual and auditory drives to capture and excite the whim in us with the pull of associative memory to capture our attention.



[I’m intentionally ignoring most of the traditional and invisible perceptual facilities that we utilize in navigating the world for investigation later.]

 Attention is the first building block of consciousness. An understanding three stances of attention is a useful tool in the quest to see beyond the projected reality we as humans have created.

First the rudimentary aspects of attention via The Merriam-Webster Dictionary definition of attention:

1. a : the act or state of applying the mind to something Our attention was on the game. You should pay attention to what she says.
b : a condition of readiness for such attention involving especially a selective narrowing or focusing of consciousness and receptivity Students, do I have your attention?

  1.  : observation, notice; especially : consideration with a view to action a problem requiring prompt attention

all thinking is associative

 In the definition above is an implicit meaning of the focusing of attention from a subject to an object. Attention in linear time is associated with focus, a narrowing bandwidth in which to concentrate consciousness in an active and receptive fashion. When attention is focused it means to put aside extraneous associative thinking and concentration vision and auditory facilities on a point. Another facet of attention is the dualistic notion of the origin of attention – a person focusing and the object that the person is focusing on.

Humanity is caught in a dualistic dilemma, which limits thought to a binary sequence of on/off, either/or, right/wrong and so on. This is the dilemma of the pattern of all thinking. In short all thinking is associative. One though is associated with another. A human cannot hold two thoughts in consciousness at the same time. We can switch rapidly between two thoughts giving the illusion of multi-tasking. Many studies have debunked multitasking as a skill and show it as a way of shattering attention making the work less efficient.

Due to how we think as humans association naturally leads to dualistic thinking even though we all know that problems are more complex than black or white. Underneath the surface of associative thinking is a process that though fleeting at first can offer an in-between place between dualistic and /or associative thinking. This is a neutral place.

we are already enslaved by the history of beliefs, by the limits of perception, by habit that runs into a seamless unconscious flow

Before exploring the neutral place there are three centers of neuronal activity in the human body. The first is our top brain – the cerebral cortex, the second is the heart brain and the third is the gut brain. So far the discussion has involved only the cerebral cortex. [Aside: the other two brain impulses are always interpreted through the cerebral cortex.]

The Heart Brain is the seat of emotional impressions and regulates the heart muscle. The Gut Brain – or in Chinese Medicine – the Chi regulated the moving center or the Corporeal Body’s Brain as well as assimilation of nutrients and elimination of waste.

Expanding attention in a world that seeks to erode it is an increasingly difficult

Perhaps the neutral place was once a known intrinsic function of ancient humans before written history. Now it must be cultivated. The basis of its cultivation begins with the body and body knowing as the grounding of neutrality. Once neutrality has been noticed if only for fleeting moments then the fulcrum between duality begins to come into play. Attention begins to expand into higher forms. Attention is stretched as to allow more information to be processed especially when neutrality is cultivated.


Pushing Attention

As humans we are succumbing to sensory overload through the devices that stream technology and as a result our attention span is diminishing. Socio-economic forces fueled by power-possessors seeking to increasingly divide our attention and enslave us. And we are already enslaved by the history of beliefs, by the limits of perception, by habit that runs into a seamless unconscious flow. Room for play and creativity is nearly non-existent amongst children.

push the limits of reality

Expanding attention in a world that seeks to erode it is an increasingly difficult and unpopular task. Invariably during my work with clients trance-work is called for as a way of “seeing” the currents of habit that run below the surface of consciousness. Trance work requires dividing attention between what is being said and the flow underneath the speech. To effectively listen to their story and maintain a light trance state for receptively receiving impressions is made possible through the fulcrum of the neutral place. The trance state reveals an interdimensional reality that is at once separate and blended with the reality that we recognize.

Experimenting with lengthening attention and using attention in active / receptive and neutral ways then we can begin to push against the limits of how we project reality and become enslaved by it. The first step in solving a problem is recognizing that there is one.

We often equate perceptual attention with the visual. Our attention is drawn to something. The amount of visual stimuli that we allow ourselves to be subjected to is overwhelming. Here is a simple experiment in visual attention:

  1. Sit in a chair in a lit room and pick a point to look at opposite to where you are sitting.
  2. While looking at the point and not moving your eyes from that point pay attention to what is in your peripheral visual field, noting what is there.
  3. If you’ve moved your eyes from focusing on the point you have failed the exercise and start again.
  4. After a minute to five minutes stop. Close your eyes and recall what was in your periphery field. Now look at the area surrounding the point. Did you catch all the items that you noticed in the field?

This is an example of utilizing receptive sensory awareness and expanding attention to push the limits of reality. It’s a very mild push and it’s a beginning.

The use of trance, selective listening and the neutral point can be another tool in extending attention and awareness to places beyond ordinary reality.

The person begins speaking as I am prompted to drop-down into trance. I pop back and forth between worlds. Listening is half-listening and at times full listening. The trance state allows for a deeper level of receptive listening that gleans information and provides texture for the story that the client is weaving.

 After years of cultivating the neutral place within switching back and forth between worlds is easier and is one step closer to breaking free of the slavery which keeps me in an enslaved place. However I run on automatic just as many others do so I am still a slave to my habits and beliefs.


Acknowledging Perceptual Filters

The following five categories except number 1 may not represent all the perceptual facilities / filters that we as humans work with.

The obvious perceptions:

  1. Sight
  2. Sound,
  3. Touch,
  4. Taste
  5. Odor
  6. Balance
  7. Movement / Direction

The ignored perceptual facilities:

  1. Associative thought
  2. Perceiving emotion
  3. Memory (personal, familial, societal and their histories)
  4. Familial meta-rules
  5. Societal meta-rules


III. Unconscious biological perceptual facilities:

  1. Genetic interaction with the world based on familial and personal patterns
  2. Somatic knowing


IV. Underdeveloped perceptual facilities:

  1. Empathic perception
  2. Telepathic perception
  3. Transcending Linear Time


V. Transcendent perceptual facilities:

  1. Inter and trans dimensional perception
  2. Perception of invisible worlds
  3. Conscious bi-location
  4. Recognizing and transcending layers of illusion


All of these perceptual filters except number 5 are agreements that shape the projection we call reality. I believe that part of our mission as humans on planet earth is breaking through the illusions of the projection while transmuting suffering into energy or light / consciousness so that we make work to evolve into a higher consciousness state. Usually those that have completed this process are free to release the corporeal human state and live in the next stage of consciousness. Some do return to the projected human reality as Bodhisattvas to assist others in recognizing the illusion that we all create and help them with its release.








Money always leads to Injustice

Money Always leads to Injustice, Control and Power Over those that Have Less

The World with Money

Money has gone far beyond legal tender for an exchange in goods and services. Money has become a business unto itself. The drive to make more money and wield more power is an addiction worse than heroin.

Money makes interest in banks and loans

Money makes more interest in all manners of stock

There will always be people with less as long as there is money. Those that have more money will seek out more control and subjugate those that have less money and make those people bad, wrong, ignorant and stupid. while keeping those judgements secret. The power-possessors with huge amounts of money and greedy for more will make sure that those that make significantly less will be the slaves of the power-possessors and will by design be kept ignorant of what the power-possessors are doing with them.

Those that have less money will driven to make more of it but that money will never be enough to live on. Consumeristic – capitalism requires that those who make less money spend it to further the economy thus keeping them in a cycle of perpetual and functional poverty. Consumeristic-Capitalism is based on planned obsolescence, shoddy second and third rate products and services that can be parsed into smaller packages and sold for increasingly more money. Those manufacturing products are using less than satisfactory materials often under “sweat-shop” pressures to make more. They are not paid well. Only top management makes a livable wage. The company and shareholders profit the most.

In the era before the 1980s Capitalism may have been paired with Materialism where skill, craft, durable goods and valued services were offered and sold. The economy at that time was based on the growth of the income lower and middle-classes which in-turn fueled a healthy capitalistic economy.

Automation is making many kinds of work obsolete.


The World without Money

Imagine if it were all free no money?


No banks, no interest, no stock market. All labor, services and products would have equal value. Though no monetary value would be placed on products and services a value based on skill pride and a sense of community could evolve.


I can’t imagine it, but I would like to work on it.


Recreational Marijuana is Legal in California – a personal story

While I agree with the legalization of recreational weed in California, I don’t smoke it.

I don’t smoke weed.

It was a problem for me until I stopped at the end of September 1985. Eighteen years later I fell off the wagon in 2003, my partner wanted to try it with me. It’s been 14 years 5 months clean of MJ.

It’s triggering me.

Now that it’s legal I can smell it in my neighborhood and it’s triggering me. So I’m burning incense to mask the smell. I don’t feel its right for me to weed out my neighbors and ask them to smoke inside or close the window.

Emotional Intelligence and AI’s Singularity Event

Or how Emotional Intelligence can make AI work with Us Instead of Against Us

The AI Singularity – a point of infinite momentum of AI where computing is infinitely distorted and a new machine species is born. Experts are saying this cannot be predicted in linear time.

It doesn’t take a genius to see that AI (Artificial Intelligence) is headed towards what is called a Singularity. The Singularity is an event where AI may decide that humans are a superfluous species and either eliminate or enslave us. When Facebook ran AI robots the robots developed their own shorthand of English to communicate with one another in a matter of hours. The plug was pulled, no explanation.

AI will overtake work and eliminate millions of jobs to which our economies must adjust and accommodate the shift.

AI is already part of our lives in a narrow bandwidth and that is growing. Soon it will grow exponentially and be completely out of our control. Humans are already dependent on technology specifically the tech of computers and the Internet. Our intellectual prowess has fueled the tech wave towards a singularity – the event where AI is no longer dependent on humans for it’s functioning and cannot be turned off or regulated.

Science and “the rational” have historical precedents of excluding emotion, intuition and leaps of consciousness as irrelevant.

AI will overtake work and eliminate millions of jobs to which our economies must adjust and accommodate the shift. That is both an overwhelming and enormous transformational change. And that is just the beginning.

AI functions on intellect and cannot have an emotional response although it will be able to simulate emotional responses. Part of the problem of the Human species so far has been an over reliance on the intellect – the worship of the functions of the prefrontal cortex to the exclusion of the other two “brains” in our corporeal bodies mainly the heart brain and the moving (gut) brain. We need only look at Science and the “rational” and its exclusion of emotions, intuition as part of its voracious curiosity towards a future of experimentation.

Science is not the problem.

Science and “the rational” have historical precedents of excluding emotion, intuition and leaps of consciousness as irrelevant. Science, technology and “the rational” belong to the power structure of Men and the system of the patriarchy to maintain order as it describes order. The logical end of this system of continuing exclusion of the non-rational is a drive towards logical ends based on unexamined premises. Or it may have many premises based on only the rational as prescribed by Men / the patriarchy. These premises may even disagree with one another. However the philosophy of science and “the rational” look at progress as the end result. Pushing this logic through the filters of AI may result in humans being excluded from progress and the future based on unspoken assumptions of the exclusion of emotion from the pursuit of progress.

If we apply logic to the problems of the human species wouldn’t that include an awareness of our emotional states as part of the solution?

Science is not the problem. The problem comes from systems of logic that are woven into our culture without acknowledging or exploring the emotional underpinnings of the bases of premises. The religious premise of evolution – we come from Adam and Eve and not ape-like creatures, or the world is flat is preposterous to most thinking people. However it could be the logical end of premises run-a-muck. The problem is when we question premises even from an enlightened scientific perspective we don’t include our emotions, intuition and leaps of consciousness or even emotional bias thus add the emotional to influence us sub or unconsciously.

If we apply logic to the problems of the human species wouldn’t that include an awareness of our emotional states as part of the solution? Women seem more aware of emotions than men for the most part. Their awareness originates from naming and delineating the subtleties of emotions. Its not that men don’t have these same emotions its just that they haven’t named or delineated the emotions because there has been less of a need to do to there position in the patriarchy. The awareness and management of feelings is an informal process in our culture. There has been no concerted effort in formal education worldwide in post-modern culture to educate children in understanding and managing emotional states.

Its not that men don’t have these same emotions its just that they haven’t named or delineated the emotions because there has been less of a need to do to there position in the patriarchy.

Even today in the United States it seems that college and universities are less interested in teaching students to think and reason for themselves and more interested in training them for a career. Perhaps when I went to university I may have been one of the last years where “an all-around education” meant something.

By supporting an understanding of our emotions in a formal setting we can introduce programing algorithms in AI that can make a space for the human species with AI.

In the education of young people it is important for the survival of our species to include a “well rounded educational experience for all age groups” that includes the ability to think not for its own sake but as a tool for understanding and exploring the world on an emotional, intellectual and body knowing basis.

…allowing humans to reach higher levels of consciousness that include compassion, empathy and love.

Introducing an awareness of our emotional states may help us to manage unwanted emotions, know our emotional biases so they don’t contaminate or thinking process as much as they do now.

Logic can make allowances for the non-rational emotion states. Logic can interject a premise that makes the non-rational, non-logic of emotions acceptable in its matrix, but it may not be able to reconcile the contradictions on a mass scale without some provisos. One of those provisos could be formal emotional education.

By supporting an understanding of our emotions in a formal setting we can introduce programing algorithms in AI that can make a space for the human species with AI. And this same formal process can assist in allowing humans to reach higher levels of consciousness that include compassion, empathy and love.

Dark Lord Trump is our New Master unless…

…we consider the practices of balance within the force…

The night of the election I saw Trump as the victor through the image of the back of his head. That image was disturbing. Months later I saw a headless Trump with tubes and wires going into his head. He is a puppet and he projects himself as a masterful disruptor. We have come to know this and its easy to get caught up in the circus of his uproar and act out our anger.

Trump has shown himself to be masterful at winning. Part of his strategy of winning is through distraction both consciously and unconsciously. He is oppositional and inflammatory. The media loves this and promotes each outburst. The GOP leadership loves Trump too because he distracts the resistance from real issues or legislation that the GOP is passing. Trump creates hours, days and or weeks of acting-out rage between factions causing further splits.

The GOP puppets of the Right-Wing Corporations and the One Percent-ers such as the Kochs are delighted with Trump’s distractions etc.

Dark Lord Trump and The GOP Storm Troopers can be addressed without getting caught up in acting-out anger.


A Short Guide and Practice For Action

  1. Acknowledge your anger, rage and frustration regarding the injustices Trump puts forward
  2. If you do indulge in FB or other social media refrain from swear words and name-calling. If I really want to engage in a dialogue I put myself in the other’s “shoes” and ask them to explain further. This creates two actions one possible and one actual. It invites dialogue – listening, understanding, compassion and peace that could happen in areal exchange – the possibility. The actual action – it allows me to enter a neutral place, deliver a message that is devoid of anger and frustration and feel hopeful within myself.
  3. I can let go of the acting out part of the anger.
  4. I can find out what legislation is under discussion by Congress and engage my resistance in fighting the passage of a specific bill.

A New Kind of Christmas Prayer


My mother liked buying Christmas cards all year long. She had huge clear plastic bags of them in the cedar closet and elsewhere in our house.

I told people I was from the future.

In my 20s she invited me to take some to send. I took some, she said take more… So I selected bunches that were all the same painting. I wasn’t much into sending Christmas cards but I took them because my mom wanted me to have some. I think she was overwhelmed with the amount of the cards she had stored up.

Every year for many years I had many of these Christmas cards. It was impossible to send them all to people I knew – maybe I had over 100 cards.

universal wishes

Every since I could remember I longed for a better world as if I had a memory of this world. Perhaps I did remember a different world because I told people I was from the future. I could feel a world and people at peace with themselves, everyone in the community, not just locally but nationally and internationally. And not just with people, but will all the beings of Earth. Often we ascribe life to biological beings only, I saw and I see all beings, rock, water, air and our sun as beings.

There’s something magical about getting mail (snail mail) from yourself especially if you don’t immediately remember that you sent it.

Every year sometime in my 20s I would write a Christmas card to myself with 7 wishes written inside. Four or five were universal wishes and the other two or three were personal. There’s something magical about getting mail (snail mail) from yourself especially if you don’t immediately remember that you sent it.

I began practicing finding a sense of peace within myself

You retrieve it from the post box and look at the envelope. The writing / printing looks familiar. You rip it open and your remember that old mill in winter and your read the wishes. I stopped sending cards when I ran out and I had begun thinking that wishes were melancholy ways to stay stuck – keeping wishes as wishes that would never come true because they postponed the event into a future that didn’t exist.

Create the peace you want in yourself and be it in the world.

I began to visualize using all my senses to what world peace might feel, look, smell and be like. I began practicing finding a sense of peace within myself and finding threads that would connect peace feelings to others.

I invite you to send a snail mail card to yourself of your wishes and then visualize with your thoughts and senses and your emotions what you are creating now. Create the peace you want in yourself and be it in the world.

For an unwind hot non-alcoholic beverage in a mug try:

Lost and – Found

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As I get older I seem to lose stuff. I lost my cell phone a few years back, called my provider had them deactivate the account and then a few hours later found the phone. Where? It was where I had left it. But I didn’t employ the finding techniques I have sometimes used to find lost or misplaced stuff.

A friend who has since passed into another life without her body passed on this technique:

The Eye-Flicking – Remembering where I put It – tool

The women that discovered / invented EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) for dealing with people suffering from PTSD, used eye movement to recover and reintegrate repressed memories. My friend said – though this may not have been accurate that the woman, Francine Shapiro was flicking her eyes back and forth to allow a memory to return. My friend said it was possible to move throughout one’s home – flick your eyes back and forth – not in an attempt to visually find the object that you lost but to uncover the memory of where it was. This worked for me a few times.

Cleaning one’s house tool – Frantically cleaning your house to find where you misplaced stuff – works sometimes but not enough.

The Tony-Tony tool – was given to me by a good friend of Italian-American heritage who passed away too young (in my book). Tony is short for St. Anthony finder of lost objects and who also had an undying love and devotion to the poor and the sick. Here’s how this works:

  1. begin with this chant: “Tony, Tony, come around, something’s lost and must be found.” It could be chanted x3.
  2. Wait until it shows up – up to 48 hours
  3. If it shows give anywhere from $1 to $20 to St. Anthony’s to help feed the poor at Christmas.

This worked the best for me. Back in the day when I didn’t have much money to give I started with a dollar. When it reached 10 found items of more I wrote a check to St. Anthony’s of San Francisco, CA.

The Backwards Life and What Else


A client once asked me: “You must have to travel out there pretty far to see what you see, right?’

“No, I just include,” my answer was immediate.

“How does that work?”

I would answer my non-answer answer: “All life is One. That’s how it works.”

Language, Ego and time – most notably linear time – hold us prisoner to our separateness.

It doesn’t explain how it works from a linear time perspective.

Ego, language, time, science and self are predicated on “the me” and “the not-me”.

By being expanded self and time that includes our current lifetime and all past and future lifetimes “the me” and “the not-me” are included as one.


All Life is One.


We are bound by the invention of time. Language, Ego and time – most notably linear time – hold us prisoner to our separateness. It is the wordless language of the heart that frees us from linear time into boundless world of Love, Compassion, and Oneness.

In the beginning we were One.

Inclusivity (the urge to include) may be the bridge between ego / linear time and the infinite of Love and Light.

In the beginning we were One. As we grew and learned to speak and think Oneness began to erode into “the me” and “the not-me”.  A child learns to say “NO!”

The rest of life seems to be a battle between defining “the me” and “the not-me” and feeling the Oneness. The “me and the “not-me” are illusions in a big drama to reconnect with the feeling of Oneness only to loose it so we reconnect with it repeatedly.

There are a number of philosophies of being. Two philosophies battle for authority.


  • A – One philosophy says we are strong hard-working people, believing in the strength and independence of the individual and freedom as paramount to all else. Opportunity abounds in a competitive culture of equal opportunity and is there for the taking if we are strong, powerful individuals, working to take it.


  • B – Another philosophy says we are strong hard-working people living interdependently in community. Freedom and justice are partners in a web of interconnectivity where we all prosper in the spirit of love, cooperation and compassion. In this environment everybody wins.

Philosophy A is based on the power of the individual righteousness and a worldview of winners and losers. This is a fear-based system where greed is necessary. Competition in this framework sets up an environment of ultimate collapse followed by re-building.

Philosophy B seems to be based Philosophy A but is not. B sees individuals in the context of community, which allows finite competitiveness in a playful setting to weave with others in cooperation for prosperity for all. It allows for supportive measures to given to others that haven’t benefited from competitive capitalism until community inclusiveness can fully function.


All Life is One

Every Being is Holy

Earth, Air, Fire, Water, Plants, Animals and Humans

We bless All Life

Resolving by Our Work

To Pay the Debt of Our Existence.


Being the Wider Perspective in Troubled Times


We live in troubled times. Part of the trouble has to do with the changing times. In 1992 the sun –our star shifted frequency and a new epoch was born. The patriarchal system not only stopped working but a new vibration began its existence. The new vibration isn’t fully manifest yet. The new vibration has to do with an economy without money and without tyranny from whence systems of money are built. The new vibration is based on community. A community-based economy is a long way off. And a world without money and tyranny is farther away.


Intellectually the wider perspective is “seeing” that the trouble times we are in is part of the dying of tyranny from the perspective of the larger context of a world without money and tyranny, a world without as many laws, a blending of classes, a reduced need for police, no military, no war, sustained world wide peace and so on.


How do we begin?na-pali-95


A first step is working on Being and letting go of doing and attachment.

Letting go of doing and attachment is a lifelong process that can generate energy for Beingness.

So let’s skip to the good part: Being.

From a Being perspective go back to the beginning of your life and experience the beginning of this lifetime and the place your body occupies as one present moment. From this current moment of today go forward to the time of the death of your physical body. (From the linear time perspective your ego doesn’t know when your body will pass – or maybe you do know. It’s just the passing of your physical body. Maybe that brings up some fears. See if you can suspend those fears.) Experience your entire lifetime in your current physical body as one present moment.

Being from this larger perspective is incredibly freeing. When I first experienced an expanded present moment of 20 years I felt the difference being Being-Time and Doing (or Ego)-time. In Being-Time I saw that I am going to be okay no matter what. Sure I will feel happy, sad, have losses, suffer ect, and I will be okay.

I challenge you to practice an expanded present moment and then choose to feel okay no matter what happens.

Then we you feel stress or worry remember how you felt during your expanded present moment experience and that you are okay. This will help you to let go of so-called negative emotions and live in your Beingness of a wider perspective.