Being on Time

 

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It’s rare to find people who arrive at their destination on time.

“I’m late, I’m late for a very important date.”

There are at least two definitions of being on time:

  • Arriving the minute that you intended to be there – at work, at a meeting etc.
  • Arriving five minutes early so you can “shake off” the trip and prepare for being fully present for your meeting.

 

The Illusion of Multi-Tasking

Part of the problem of being on time has been an illusory belief held by our egos that we are Masters of all situations. In the post-modern era this has been compounded by additional illusory beliefs that multi-tasking is the way to complete many tasks simultaneously. The accompanying emotion to increased multi-tasking is a frenetic frantic obsessiveness. This may be comparable to the White Rabbit in Carroll’s “Alice in Wonderland” as in “I’m late, I’m late for a very important date.”

Being on time is about being present.

We try to take the impossible and make it possible in a finite time frame. This becomes a race to finish first under impossible conditions of finite time constraints. The multi-tasking work ethic spills into everything we do. Part of the multi-tasking illusion spills into texting or hands-free texting while driving, lengthy conversations (hands free) while driving. Its no wonder we are late for many meetings.

 

Being On-Time is more than Punctuality

Being on time is about being present. When we are chronically late we miss a very important opportunity to practice being present. Our consciousness gets increasingly scattered through our attempts to do more than one thing at a time (unless you have an AADD brain). Even with Adult Attention Deficit Disorder (AADD the aim for being present is to bring chronic distractability to fruition.) The ego is a wandering lazy beast easily distracted – taken away through whim to different places. The Internet and in particular social media sites feed on an AADD model of attention.

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The work of being present is within the purview of all of the esoteric and/or spiritual wings of all religions. It is work that never ceases because as long as our egos hold sway over us (ego is invoked as soon as we say or think “I”) it leads us away from being present into fractured realities.

 

A Being Practice

Each discipline has its own practices for working on being present. The one I suggest below may be right for you or not. It may work from time to time or not.

 

If you are standing (or sitting) notice your breath moving in and out of your body. What we ordinarily do is control our breath (an ego thing) and that is okay. Eventually we may find that it’s easier to “watch” or “notice” our breath than it is to try and control it. 

Ground. Imagine/visualize an energy or grounding cord emanating from the root chakra just in front of the end of the spine going down through all layers of Earth, through magnetic core; passing through molten core and anchoring to your spot in crystalline core of Earth. There is an iron ore spherical crystal that spins in the molten core. 

Allow yourself to feel your connection to Earth – to your home – the planet.  

Continue to notice your breath.  

Feel the physical sensations in your body. Notice what your emotions are without trying to change or judge them. Notice any thoughts, especially the thoughts that take you away from the now – what is happening now. Use your will to bring your thoughts to this present moment.

 

A Report about Being On-Time

I was with most of my classmates awaiting the first class about history when the instructor asked if everyone was there. People were arriving as he spoke. He had been speaking about the dinosaurs, our use of oil/gasoline eating the future by abusing (using the resources) of the past every time we drove down the road in our automobiles.

He asked us – as a group how we had shirked our responsibility toward our classmates. He admonished those that were late as leaking energy from the room and doing a disservice to the ones here on-time.

He cancelled the course of history all together because we had not learned our responsibility of being on time – arriving before the appointed time and practicing being present.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the mountain spoke to me

the majestic Mount Diablo

When I moved to California in 1982 I began listening to the real world – trees, fields, streams, mountains and all the creatures that inhabited them. I listened with my heart and a bond was formed.

I felt the solidity peace and wisdom of this mountain

I was looking out the back window of the house that the Venerable Dharmawara Mathahera aka Bhante had rented in Lathrop, California in the Central Valley. Beyond the irrigated fields was the majestic Mount Diablo.

I felt the solidity peace and wisdom of this mountain. It looked closer than it had been in the recent past. I felt welcomed by the mountain to the space and heart of California.

 

It was the entrée point to becoming a healer.

 

The photos I had taken in the early 80s were destroyed when my garage roof leaked water into boxes where many photos were stored.

I tried to look for comparable photos and have a link to a Wikipedia page:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mount_Diablo#Cultural_history

Here is a earlier piece on Bhante:

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2017/04/13/remembering-bhante/

Composite Beings – Part Two

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The higher vibrational being (HVB) who enters may remain as an observer for a time before it produces a noticeable event in the child’s or adolescent’s life. Fractured or alternative personalities already exist within the host due to traumatic events that are often on going. A DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) is a coping strategy that some individuals use to deal with extremely impactful traumatic wounds. HVBs are attracted to those suffering from DIDs and look for ways to mesh with the wounded individuals that provide a modicum of strength, protection and may be utilized for aspects of integration in a therapeutic healing process.

Self-acceptance is very important in the healing process.

Just as traumatic events produce fractured wounds and decimate the individual into separate personalities to manage aspects of the trauma the Higher Vibrational Being seeks to augment managing personality parts with positive past, current and parallel realities and lives to support the individual in a wider context. Once the individual begins to incorporate the HVB neuronal patterns, and experiential fragments of the wider context then a cognitive frame can be created with the original organizing self for more effective administration of the wounded personalities for healing.

the HVB may produce synchronistic events that appear “magical” or have extrasensory phenomena

The HVB and the various fragmented parts can come together more quickly and can either be reintegrated into a healing self or co-exist cooperatively with one another. Self-acceptance is very important in the healing process. Finding a therapist and /or a shaman-interdimensional healer who works towards unconditional acceptance of the DID / HVB synergy is extremely important for healing and for future work. [NOTE: not all DID individuals have a HVB entree]. The shaman and/or interdimensional healer can offer a community for the wounded individual with a HVB to be accepted into gracefully.

It’s also possible and likely that the wounded individual will not notice the HVB until the individual has worked towards reintegration and /or a peace cooperation or coexistence between the alternate personalities. When recognition occurs there has been enough work to raise the vibration of the individual as well as integration between the HVB and at least one of the conscious core selves.

Awareness of a high vibration being is a tricky affair.

 Until the time of recognition the HVB may produce synchronistic events that appear “magical” or have extrasensory phenomena associated with an incident or incidents. The presence of an HVB within a person with a dissociative identity disorder or fractured selves does not necessarily guarantee automatic healing. Therapeutic work on a psychological level must occur as well as somatic treatments and inner work as in a spiritual practice or some semblance thereof.

Awareness of a high vibration being is a tricky affair. If the HVB reveals itself before a context has been established and the ego of the host is not strong enough to handle the impact the individual may be prematurely diagnosed with additional psychiatric disorders such as schizophrenia. Medication could destroy the host’s identity as well as extremely hinder the effectiveness of the HVB to carry out its mission.

[NOTE: Amalgamated Beings are several HVBs fused together that take human form bypassing indigenous humans in the reincarnation process.]

Its all backwards or

spacewave1Expressions of Consciousness- the tiny aka human experience to the Greater…

Remembering that there is no window

What is the purpose of the human experience?

Where is the meaning?

On February 1, 1973 I attempted suicide, my stomach was pumped and I was in a coma for 3 and a half days. A priest was called to perform last rites. Apparently I woke from the coma and told the priest “Go fuck yourself.” I went back into the coma for another day and a half. I didn’t remember what I had said to the priest. My girlfriend told me. I woke from the coma around 3 pm on February 4th it was a Sunday, though I barely registered it.

Seventeen years later the calendar and the dates of the 1973 experience were synchronized, On Monday February 5th just before going to sleep I asked:

God, what am I suppose to do with my life?

 In the morning I woke and there had been no dream that answered my question. It was a question I did not expect an answer. Lying in bed and feeling groggy I had a strange experience:

A presence entered through my groin and curled up into a ball in my abdomen. A name came to me. It was someone I had met..

I didn’t expect to find the woman’s name in the phone book. If her name hadn’t been there I’d be off-the hook. It was there. I called her, apologized and reported the crazy experience I had had.

She reported that she had been curled up into the fetal position and had been thinking about killing herself. I made a verbal contract with her and an agreement to talk a couple of days from that Tuesday morning 2/6/90.

Two days later she related what had happened to her over the holidays and when I offered her the names of therapists to see she said:

The universe put you out there to hear my call and that all I needed.

Surrendering to the experience opened by inner world to “seeing” which had always been there and letting me facilitate healing for others.

It took me many years to connect the two experiences together and parse the meaning. The most obvious was erasing the karma of attempting to annihilate myself. And there was something else there. It was as if it had been written and I was being allowed a glimpse into a larger pattern of my life.

 

Many years later between 2000 and 2001 I had a television but it was not connected to broadcast TV or cable. So when the planes hit the World Trade Center on 9/11 thankfully I didn’t see these images until many years later. In November I was visiting a friend who had a Quantum Xeroid Machine. She asked me if I wanted to “do past lives”?

“Sure,” I said.

I expected that I might experience “a past life”.

She pressed a button and I “flew over ten thousand past lives I had had on Planet Earth”. I joined a partner being and was with 11 other partnered beings watch the physical Planet Earth form and anchoring “free will” to the planet. I was part of a being that was and is the spiritual guardian of Earth and all her beings. I traveled “further back” and was an alien on a rogue planet with its own light/heat source. I experimented in going all the way forward in my life and wound up at the beginning.

Then. I heard my friend repeating a word. After a long time I realized the word was my name in the current reality.

When I walked home it was night and foggy. I felt as if my ego had been stripped down and was inconsequential. That Americans were inconsequential, and that humans were also inconsequential. Consciousness is the only being that endures survives and evolves all the rest is superfluous.

The next day my ego returned and was full of myself as usual.

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Our experience is backwards. We identify with this puny existence of our current lifetime. We don’t experience or remember that we are One-Unified-Consciousness experiencing a variety of lifetimes each has the potential to raise our consciousness allow us to evolve to increasingly higher levels until it is no longer necessary to return to the Earth Plain.

Of course there are the Bodhisattvas* such as the Dali Lama that chooses to return remembering previous lifetimes, serving as an example to assist us to remember that we are a Consciousness that transcends ego.

Our purpose here is to let go of the illusion of suffering and transmute the energy of pain and anguish into light, which is Love.

Our lives are analogous to looking out of a window of a building. As humans we have parameters. The building and the window are like the parameters of a human life. The window and the building define who and where we are. When we pass and shed the skin of the human body the building and the window have no meaning and fall away. They disappear.

 

The First Incarnation

We separate ourselves from our self and forget or repress our larger self. We strip away the largess of our Great Consciousness and become an individual who then incarnates within a family or a unit on Planet Earth.

Here there is more forgetting of what went before. We are experiencing life and sensuality for the hedonism of life for the first time. Addiction becomes rampant. The choices seem narrow and we push put against them greedy for more.

This is characteristic of a young soul or lightbody inhabiting a corporeal form – a physical body.

 

Subsequent Incarnations

As the lightbody matures the individual begins to care as much about themselves as they do for others. Choice is more varied. Addiction and attachment abound. They are only beginning to catch glimpses of the divinity of self.

Old souls or the eldest of lightbodies often reach enlightenment. This is a seeing beyond the current lifetime. There are many choices yet these beings choose love. They are able to see addition and attachment and they work to release. They work tirelessly to release and transmute suffering into light and love.

Many of these old souls never return to a human corporeal existence having completed coating their light being and completed their soul work ready to return to the next stage in an evolving Higher Consciousness. Or as stated earlier they return as Bodhisattvas* to help others reach a higher evolutionary path.

 

 

* Bodhisattva (in Mahayana Buddhism) a person who is able to reach nirvana but delays doing so out of compassion in order to save suffering beings.

 

Offering Love

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Bhante – my mentor and teacher who lived to 110 years old once said that for every person that loves it nullifies the hate in ten other people.

Gregg Braden in conjunction with the Heart Math Institute reports that our hearts create a field of about twelve feet and that the instruments used to measure the field can only do so up to twelve feet. So it is possible that the heart field extends much further than twelve feet.

Love loves hate until it dissolves.

 

Love is the binding emotion. If love can be quantified as photons it could be said that love is a frequency of light. In my experience I have seen a variety of frequencies of light that are love. Love is the stuff of connection in the universe and allows all other emotions to connect to it. Emotions are universal amongst all humans. Its what binds us together as a species. Love is the most binding of all the emotions.

When I send love to another and there is no permission to send it to an individual I send the love near to an individual so that the love is so irresistible it could be delightful to take the love.

When love surrounds hate without us forcing love onto another then it softens the hatred, which is fear and allows it to dissolve. Love loves hate until it dissolves.

Try it to see how sharing or offering love affects your view of yourself, your view of the peopled multiverse and your relationship to the peopled multiverse as well as the multiverse itself.

Home

4-magicThe duck pond on the Sonoma Plaza 🙂

 

On an early Sunday morning in February of 1983 my best friend Kent and I went to Sonoma and the Valley of the Moon.

I had moved to the Stockton area in 1982 to live and work with Bhante – the Dharmawara Mahathera and learn Vipassana Meditation in greater depth. However I rebelled against being a devotee – something he had wanted (not me) and moved out.

Hanging out at the Blackwater Café in Stockton I came to know Kent. We became good friends. He introduced me to the magic of Sonoma.

His introduction was replete with great wisdom and insight.

I am eternally grateful to him for opening the door to my home.

We left around 6 am in the dusk of a cold morning on that February. He drove his van with his dog and me across the delta towards Sonoma. He had a knack for introducing me to the magic of Sonoma and the Valley of the Moon with his mythic-poetic musings peppered into our conversations.

We missed Bill at perform with his guitar at the church. We met Bill and his wife Shirley at the First Congregational Church on West Spain Street in Sonoma at the tail end of the 7 am Service. Then Kent drove us to their cabin near the top of Moon Mountain Drive in Sonoma. We ate brunch and talked.

My third eye opened wide upon entry into the Sonoma Valley.

Kent and I took a short walk on the fire trail to the south of their house and he waxed on about castles in Europe appearing out of the fog – such as the fog in the valley.

Something quite unexpected had happened that day. I digress – that for the past 18 months I had been doing an inner exercise – a meditation in the morning to create light for the “soul’s body” and open the 3rd eye. My third eye opened wide upon entry into the Sonoma Valley.

I felt the town welcomed me, just as Mount Diablo “spoke” to me about becoming a healer. Of course the impressions didn’t come in English but I translated them into language for a better understanding. At first I explained the opening of my Third Eye by all the spiritual work that was done by others in the valley.

Many years after another answer came to me in a softer manner. It was the land herself, the configuration of the Valley of the Moon and the power center (the Plaza) of Sonoma Valley that has been a source of mystery and powerful transformation. I believe the way in which Kent introduced me to Sonoma and the Valley was replete with great wisdom and insight. I am eternally grateful to him for opening the door to my home.

Towards the end of this Field of Dreams film clip Burt Lancaster’s character Doc Graham makes a powerful statement about “home”. This is how it is for me in Sonoma.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VCNp_jl5m6c

PS I give workshops/individual sessions in some of the magical places in Sonoma http://the-kai.com

 

Learning for The Sake of Learning

 

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Neptune- dreams and visions made

A tribute to one of my earliest mentors and good friend John White.

When we entered his classroom he wrote “Learn for the sake of learning” on the blackboard and he fostered an insatiable quest for life-=long learning that is on going.

He was hired at Cheshire High School in 1965 and fired when I was a senior in 1969. He was my sophomore and junior English Teacher and he recommended me for an honors fiction class – Themes in Modern Fiction. He was fired when I was a senior. He counseled classmates who were taking acid trips and refused to turn them over to the principle. In turn the principle was planning to turn the names over to the police so arrests could be made.

After I graduated John and I became friends. He helped me through some very rough times in the early seventies.

John published an anthology called: The Highest State of Consciousness. We talked at length about consciousness and about using drugs like LSD for spiritual awakenings. We discussed meditation and altered states. He listened as I relayed two experiences I had had about feeling Earth as One and all beings as beings of light. John spent time in Palo Alto California helping Astronaut Edgar Mitchell organize the Institute for Noetic Sciences. When I was a senior in college representing the Psychology Honors Fraternity I put together a three-day symposium entitled Higher States of Consciousness. John was instrumental in connecting me with the key players like: Robert Ornstein, Charles Tart and other consciousness researchers for a three day symposium on Higher Consciousness hosted at Clark University where I was a student and faculty and students were invited from Holy Cross and Assumption College.

While in California he was an agent for a non-fiction book that never sold. He retired from being an agent just as I was about to put a new book out to market. He advised self-publication through Amazon or a similar venue.

for more on John W. White:

http://prabook.com/web/person-view.html?profileId=358582#