A Search through Dreams

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In late September of 1990 I called out to the Spirit World to guide me to a new place to live. I worked through my network while searching for a new place to live. The house I was sharing with two housemates had become intolerable due to addiction issues with one housemate and the co-dependence of the other.

We found a peace school

I asked for a dream to guide me:

I dreamt that I was traveling with a friend from the Sonoma Valley to Napa Valley on a secret road that paralleled Trinity Road and Dry Creek Road into Napa County. We found a peace school and a few others secret places where I felt drawn to on a heart level.

Iris at a church service recommended Jim Hallock who as it turned out at purchased her old house on Trinity Road in Glen Ellen about 1,000 feet above the valley. He had an unlisted phone number. Iris gave me the address and I wrote him a letter.

He called me. I went and looked at the small apartment beneath his house. I brought deposit cash with me. He told me that just before he picked up the mail his tenant gave notice that he was moving out. Jim was delighted with the synchronicity. I offered him deposit dollars and he said:

“No, I take you at your word.”

I moved in on November 1, 1990. A few months Jim told me he was lowering my rent because he liked me.

We became good friends and we played Ping-Pong often.

In 1998 Jim sold the house to Klaus. He moved to Colorado with his wife Nora and began building houses with an adobe brick making machine.* Klaus gave me 6 months notice because he liked me and wanted to remain friends with Jim

In July of 2000 when Klaus gave me notice ( 6 months) I asked for a dream and I did a vision quest for a new place.

I moved out 10 years and 1 month later in December of 2000.

*Jim was invited by the State Department to go to Mexico to help rebuild after a major earthquake. He started a second business of building adobe homes in Mexico. After dealing with wealthy people in the US and Mexico with whom didn’t pay their debts he started a non-profit and one of his projects was building a clinic somewhere in Africa to treat children with HIV.

 

My next dream finding place was a house with a tall tree at the front of the house. The owner was a tall lanky man that bore a resemblance to Sam Shepard, the playwright and actor. I took the dream to a vision quest.

had forgotten about my dream

In the waking vision I saw a house surrounded by nature. The house itself may have been built in the 1930s or 40s. The kitchen was on the left side towards the back with a screened in porch on the right overlooking a field. There may have been a detached garage.

In the living room there was a fireplace or maybe one that was sealed up. The place had one or two bedrooms.

The Redwood in the front yard became my teacher.

A friend suggested an ad in the paper and she wrote the ad for me.

When I looked at the place I had forgotten about my dream. It was within the city limits of Sonoma and was on a half-acre of land, a big field with a few tall trees. I walked through the backyard and saw that the TV antenna had fallen over since my arrival. That triggered me to remember the dream. The lawyer – landlord did resemble an older Sam Shepard. The layout of the house was dyslexic and there was no screened-in porch in the back.

I took the place.

 

The Redwood in the front yard of about 65 feet tall became a teacher.

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2015/12/17/journey-with-a-spirit-guide-the-redwood-tree/

 

Composite Beings – Part Two

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The higher vibrational being (HVB) who enters may remain as an observer for a time before it produces a noticeable event in the child’s or adolescent’s life. Fractured or alternative personalities already exist within the host due to traumatic events that are often on going. A DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) is a coping strategy that some individuals use to deal with extremely impactful traumatic wounds. HVBs are attracted to those suffering from DIDs and look for ways to mesh with the wounded individuals that provide a modicum of strength, protection and may be utilized for aspects of integration in a therapeutic healing process.

Self-acceptance is very important in the healing process.

Just as traumatic events produce fractured wounds and decimate the individual into separate personalities to manage aspects of the trauma the Higher Vibrational Being seeks to augment managing personality parts with positive past, current and parallel realities and lives to support the individual in a wider context. Once the individual begins to incorporate the HVB neuronal patterns, and experiential fragments of the wider context then a cognitive frame can be created with the original organizing self for more effective administration of the wounded personalities for healing.

the HVB may produce synchronistic events that appear “magical” or have extrasensory phenomena

The HVB and the various fragmented parts can come together more quickly and can either be reintegrated into a healing self or co-exist cooperatively with one another. Self-acceptance is very important in the healing process. Finding a therapist and /or a shaman-interdimensional healer who works towards unconditional acceptance of the DID / HVB synergy is extremely important for healing and for future work. [NOTE: not all DID individuals have a HVB entree]. The shaman and/or interdimensional healer can offer a community for the wounded individual with a HVB to be accepted into gracefully.

It’s also possible and likely that the wounded individual will not notice the HVB until the individual has worked towards reintegration and /or a peace cooperation or coexistence between the alternate personalities. When recognition occurs there has been enough work to raise the vibration of the individual as well as integration between the HVB and at least one of the conscious core selves.

Awareness of a high vibration being is a tricky affair.

 Until the time of recognition the HVB may produce synchronistic events that appear “magical” or have extrasensory phenomena associated with an incident or incidents. The presence of an HVB within a person with a dissociative identity disorder or fractured selves does not necessarily guarantee automatic healing. Therapeutic work on a psychological level must occur as well as somatic treatments and inner work as in a spiritual practice or some semblance thereof.

Awareness of a high vibration being is a tricky affair. If the HVB reveals itself before a context has been established and the ego of the host is not strong enough to handle the impact the individual may be prematurely diagnosed with additional psychiatric disorders such as schizophrenia. Medication could destroy the host’s identity as well as extremely hinder the effectiveness of the HVB to carry out its mission.

[NOTE: Amalgamated Beings are several HVBs fused together that take human form bypassing indigenous humans in the reincarnation process.]

Overcoming Advertising

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Underlying –Whims, Goals and Aims ———–An Introduction to Higher Consciousness Part One

Since we have egos we are awash in a sea of whims (sounds like little mythic creatures, doesn’t it?). Whims are the driving force behind advertising, capitalism, money and inequality. There are no escaping whims. The only hope is recognizing whims as they arise and being at choice.

Whims then are much like the pursuit of happiness.

Whims arise from curiosity and can come from a creative urge within us. The arising of whims within us may not come from ego but when we pursue a whim then trouble may ensue because ego is most often the pursuant. Whims then are much like the pursuit of happiness or just the pursuit of most anything.

The formula of ego, whims, most monetary systems and inequality is a finite formula in a zero sum game resulting in diminishing returns.

When we engage in pursuit we assume a lack within. We separate ourselves from our innate happiness or our curiosity in order to find it. This seems counter intuitive. This is the way of ego and a linear space-time reality. Our language and ego – intertwined reflects a separation of the self from a desire for something. Ego, whims, capitalism and money produces gaps between a beginning coming from nothing – initiating a step,  a middle – an action and an end achieving something. The formula of ego, whims, most monetary systems and inequality is a finite formula in a zero sum game resulting in diminishing returns. [In mathematical theory a zero-sum game is always competitive and results in winners and losers – see https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zero-sum_game] This kind of finite system is a breeding ground for greed, possessiveness, fear / paranoia, oppression, isolationism and ultimately an apocalyptic ending of humanity.

leads to the ultimate ending – the apocalypse.

The a priori supposition of this finite zero-sum game base does not allow for the sacredness of being. All the finite players become obsessed with having more and as a result of the diminishing return emotions based on an infinite non-zero sum game such as love, empathy, compassion are removed so the focus on more grows more intense. Addictive behaviors to satisfy the charge in winning ultimately fail due to diminishing returns. The people driven by this model cease to recognize being, treat others and themselves as things including the bounty of Earth and Earth as being. Using people and resources in this manner leads to the ultimate ending – the apocalypse.

On the other end of the spectrum aims arise from the infinite and are couched in systems of cooperation and interdependence.

An infinite non-zero sum game is about the win/win and is based on interdependence with regard to increasingly complex societal systems. Survival of the human species on Earth is an infinite non-zero sum game because humans and all biological and non-biological beings are sacred and must cooperate in order to survive. Put in another way this is a system of Love connecting and including all beings in a sacred manner.

Returning to whims in the context of capitalism we can see that the variety of instruments of this money making system are in the business of generating conditions for whims to foment in buying frenzies. Advertising under psychographics or strategies to target consumers based on data mining for lifestyle, personality, attitudes, beliefs etc.

Aims belong to the infinite.

On the other end of the spectrum aims arise from the infinite and are couched in systems of cooperation and interdependence. An aim has no beginning and no end. Aims belong to the infinite. An aim that continually renews me and helps align me to the path of the divine that flows within me is: to relieve suffering. I could work towards this aim for the rest of my life and never be finished.

Being is that which is. Being transcends space and time.

Aims arise from being. What is being? Philosophers and mystics have grappled with defining and/or describing being. Being is that which is. Being transcends space and time. Words, because they arise from a linear time-space reality systems cannot describe the depth, breath and the divinity of being. Once we attempt to solve a mystery we bring it out of the realm of the unknowable and destroy its essence. Being is analogous to mystery.

surrendering into the divine

Discovering being is about surrendering into the divine, releasing ego if only for a moment and embracing a wider higher consciousness. There are no pat formulas or teachings that can assist the student in discovering being.

Goals are the bridges between aims and whims. Goals have beginnings, middles and ends. They can arise from the infinite or the finite. Aims can be expressed in goals, but goals cannot be adequately expressed in aims. Whims tickle the edges of goals.

Part of the problem with whims and advertising is the appeal to the ego in a finite mindset. A well-developed being sees advertising as a finite whim based game. Being can assist us in noticing whim as a momentary desire of ego for a temporary drug-high of fleeting happiness and remind ego of the lasting happiness within.

The real work of letting go of attachment to the temporary or fleeting desires of ego begins. Oppositional thinking and action with regard to advertising produced whims can help us resist corporations that use psychographics to sell stuff to us. For instance if you see an ad on the internet that sparks your interest in the moment – ignore it. Most likely we forget about the spark. Advertising repeats the tease in an effort to get you to click on the link. Again, ignore it and wait. Does the tease persist?

If the tease persists ask yourself:

  • How does following this whim support my aim? If it does not leave it behind – release the attachment.
  • Is the whim a distraction that detracts from my long-term or immediate purpose? If so, release it.
  • Where does the whim exist on my list of priorities? Low, middle or high? If its high, use a pen or pencil to write it down. Don’t pursue it immediately. Decide on a time to look or investigate the product, service or experience. If its middle or low let it go and move on.

 

If you don’t know what your purpose is then meditation could assist you in uncovering it within yourself and this takes time. If meditation is not your thing, explore a book, schedule a session with an astrologer, a metaphysical advisor or a shaman to assist you in finding your purpose. Or if that’s not appealing look into your past, your childhood and see what inspired you as a child, as an adolescent etc.

If you know your purpose you can choose to surrender to it or allow other interests to direct you. Or let whim tickle you down the road. Whim could be wasting your time, but maybe you will decide that’s okay.

discovering my purpose and surrendering into it.

Just know that when you impulsively click on some thing or other the data miners come along and start developing a profile on you to sell you stuff. Most browsers collect data – Chrome being notorious for it. Apple announced it would not be data mining on its last major re-boot of its Safari browser.

I’m not anywhere close to an expert on this subject. Check out Wired Magazine for more info on this subject and possible Mozilla Foundation whose makes the Firefox browser.

When I was younger I was on fire to find “the Truth” and this evolved into finding “my truth” which lead to discovering my purpose and surrendering into it. I worked hard and surrendered into spaces of grace where I was blessed by the divine.

When people write about the divine or God or the Creator they separate this force or urge from themselves. My experience of the divine is a force that transcends ego and yet is inseparable from me, from my being. But as soon as I try to claim it – the “I”   – my ego destroys that lightness of being that connects me from the higher expression of myself.


My most favorite non-fiction book of all time – about creativity, play and boundless possibilities transcending small minded greediness is James Carse’s Finite and Infinite Games.

Here in PDF:

http://wtf.tw/ref/carse.pdf

Nine Life Shaping Events and…

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One:

My early life as a child and later as a teenager was punctuated by extraordinary events that helped shape all subsequent experiences.

Before I attended kindergarten I was eager to learn spelling, which included writing out my name. In the mid 1950s my parents did not send me to nursery school. Between birth and five years old my parents and younger sister and I lived in a second floor apartment that had once been part of an attic in one big house.

At age four I was lying in bed one night watching the floaters in the film of my eyes dart across the night-light lit ceiling of my bedroom. I believed the floaters were stars and I was trying to catch one of them. As soon as I thought I had one it would dart away. It was a futile activity and I don’t know how long I spent doing it. Perhaps I was awakening.

I asked Jesus to protect me. Then I felt Jesus put the heel of his hand near my groin while his fingertips just reached my throat. Even though my body was small, Jesus’s hand must have been extraordinarily big. And I felt safe, grateful and joyous. I saw a piece of glass on the floor.

I took the piece of glass and I carved Jesus’s name in the top drawer of my bureau. The “J” was backwards and the writing was wonky. I threw the piece of glass in the wastebasket and went back to sleep.

In the morning I thought it had all been a dream until I saw Jesus’s name carved in the top drawer of my bureau. I knew that I was going to be in trouble with my parents for defacing the furniture. They said nothing and seemed to pretend that it didn’t exist.

Years later through flashbacks I uncovered a memory of sexual abuse that my father had perpetrated and my mother had covered up. It put the Jesus memory in a context that made sense. I chose to remember my contiguous memory of Jesus’s protection even though I had acknowledged the abuse and its cover-up.

 

Two:

At eleven or twelve years of age my mother drove us to the mall in the adjacent town. “How do these cars not hit each other?” I was wondering in my mind. They are in this dance of cooperation. The dance was fascinating especially when I extrapolated this dance around the world.

Three:

At age twelve I had been wandering in the library and found two books. One book reflected my depressive self and the other my expansive self. The first book reflecting the depressive in me was “Notes from Underground” by Dostoyevsky. The second book – “The Future of Man” by Teilhard de Chardin reflected my expansive higher consciousness self. That evening I asked to talk with my father about not using fear to shape his children.

Four:

In the summer of 1967 at age fifteen while I was on vacation with my family on Cape Cod I hiked up the beach from Eastham by Nauset Light to Truro about twelve miles – north of the Marconi Station. I had a heart-based experience that love untied the world. It filled ne with bliss and ecstasy. Words pale. The experience was ineffable.

Five:

In the summer of 1968 at age sixteen while I was on vacation with my family on Cape Cod I went out onto the mudflats at low tide in Wellfleet. The sun was beginning to set. I leapt into the air and I felt “the world as one”. And in a vision I saw every being connected by beams of light, one heart to another. From space the entire planet was consumed by light.

 

Six:

In 1984 I was in a leadership-training course. I was 32 years old. Our group was team building on a Ropes Course near Woodland, California. One of our teammates was up in the trees preparing to jump onto a wobbly platform, supported in a safety harness by two burly fellows on the ground and two support people in the trees. Our support consisted of us yelling like rabid cheerleaders at her. It made no sense to me so I projected the supportiveness of my heart energy into the trees and towards her.

Something happened that I hadn’t expected.

I saw light coursing through the trunks and branches of the trees. Looking at the light streaming so quickly through the trees was intense.

I looked down. I looked at the ground and then at the bare skin on my left arm.

I saw inside my arm. Where blood was pumping through the arteries and veins I saw light pulsing.  Light from a near by leafy bush (the leaves were tender and sweet to look at) extended a cloudy plasmic field of light around my arm as if to comfort me.

At that time it was too intense for me to process it and I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy.  When I opened by eyes moments later I saw what I had expected to see – all was normal and reassuring.

Seven:

The Calling – https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/the-calling/

 

Eight, Nine and more – explore this blog.

Its all backwards or

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Remembering that there is no window

What is the purpose of the human experience?

Where is the meaning?

On February 1, 1973 I attempted suicide, my stomach was pumped and I was in a coma for 3 and a half days. A priest was called to perform last rites. Apparently I woke from the coma and told the priest “Go fuck yourself.” I went back into the coma for another day and a half. I didn’t remember what I had said to the priest. My girlfriend told me. I woke from the coma around 3 pm on February 4th it was a Sunday, though I barely registered it.

Seventeen years later the calendar and the dates of the 1973 experience were synchronized, On Monday February 5th just before going to sleep I asked:

God, what am I suppose to do with my life?

 In the morning I woke and there had been no dream that answered my question. It was a question I did not expect an answer. Lying in bed and feeling groggy I had a strange experience:

A presence entered through my groin and curled up into a ball in my abdomen. A name came to me. It was someone I had met..

I didn’t expect to find the woman’s name in the phone book. If her name hadn’t been there I’d be off-the hook. It was there. I called her, apologized and reported the crazy experience I had had.

She reported that she had been curled up into the fetal position and had been thinking about killing herself. I made a verbal contract with her and an agreement to talk a couple of days from that Tuesday morning 2/6/90.

Two days later she related what had happened to her over the holidays and when I offered her the names of therapists to see she said:

The universe put you out there to hear my call and that all I needed.

Surrendering to the experience opened by inner world to “seeing” which had always been there and letting me facilitate healing for others.

It took me many years to connect the two experiences together and parse the meaning. The most obvious was erasing the karma of attempting to annihilate myself. And there was something else there. It was as if it had been written and I was being allowed a glimpse into a larger pattern of my life.

 

Many years later between 2000 and 2001 I had a television but it was not connected to broadcast TV or cable. So when the planes hit the World Trade Center on 9/11 thankfully I didn’t see these images until many years later. In November I was visiting a friend who had a Quantum Xeroid Machine. She asked me if I wanted to “do past lives”?

“Sure,” I said.

I expected that I might experience “a past life”.

She pressed a button and I “flew over ten thousand past lives I had had on Planet Earth”. I joined a partner being and was with 11 other partnered beings watch the physical Planet Earth form and anchoring “free will” to the planet. I was part of a being that was and is the spiritual guardian of Earth and all her beings. I traveled “further back” and was an alien on a rogue planet with its own light/heat source. I experimented in going all the way forward in my life and wound up at the beginning.

Then. I heard my friend repeating a word. After a long time I realized the word was my name in the current reality.

When I walked home it was night and foggy. I felt as if my ego had been stripped down and was inconsequential. That Americans were inconsequential, and that humans were also inconsequential. Consciousness is the only being that endures survives and evolves all the rest is superfluous.

The next day my ego returned and was full of myself as usual.

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Our experience is backwards. We identify with this puny existence of our current lifetime. We don’t experience or remember that we are One-Unified-Consciousness experiencing a variety of lifetimes each has the potential to raise our consciousness allow us to evolve to increasingly higher levels until it is no longer necessary to return to the Earth Plain.

Of course there are the Bodhisattvas* such as the Dali Lama that chooses to return remembering previous lifetimes, serving as an example to assist us to remember that we are a Consciousness that transcends ego.

Our purpose here is to let go of the illusion of suffering and transmute the energy of pain and anguish into light, which is Love.

Our lives are analogous to looking out of a window of a building. As humans we have parameters. The building and the window are like the parameters of a human life. The window and the building define who and where we are. When we pass and shed the skin of the human body the building and the window have no meaning and fall away. They disappear.

 

The First Incarnation

We separate ourselves from our self and forget or repress our larger self. We strip away the largess of our Great Consciousness and become an individual who then incarnates within a family or a unit on Planet Earth.

Here there is more forgetting of what went before. We are experiencing life and sensuality for the hedonism of life for the first time. Addiction becomes rampant. The choices seem narrow and we push put against them greedy for more.

This is characteristic of a young soul or lightbody inhabiting a corporeal form – a physical body.

 

Subsequent Incarnations

As the lightbody matures the individual begins to care as much about themselves as they do for others. Choice is more varied. Addiction and attachment abound. They are only beginning to catch glimpses of the divinity of self.

Old souls or the eldest of lightbodies often reach enlightenment. This is a seeing beyond the current lifetime. There are many choices yet these beings choose love. They are able to see addition and attachment and they work to release. They work tirelessly to release and transmute suffering into light and love.

Many of these old souls never return to a human corporeal existence having completed coating their light being and completed their soul work ready to return to the next stage in an evolving Higher Consciousness. Or as stated earlier they return as Bodhisattvas* to help others reach a higher evolutionary path.

 

 

* Bodhisattva (in Mahayana Buddhism) a person who is able to reach nirvana but delays doing so out of compassion in order to save suffering beings.

 

Building Human Reality

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Introduction

Elon Musk was interviewed recently and reported great odds (in the billions) that we are in a computer generated reality. This implies an AI being controlled outside the scope of humans or previously more advanced humans from an ancient civilization. While possible there is another more insidious programming that already exists within human beings themselves.

We exist inside a virtual reality due to how our human limitations perceive what we call reality. Our perceptual facilities, our genetic code, our mammalian / biological nature in juxtaposition with: the biosphere, civilization, society, Planet Earth, the Solar System, the Milky Way galaxy, the multiverse factor in how we perceive / project reality.

Language is the means that we symbolize reality.

Humans have built reality and we are slaves to it. Very few have escaped slavery to become free.

The film “The Matrix” arose from a more insidious reality that we have already created – not built by AI but by the nature of humans as addictive beings who project their reality onto a wider world and then live within the narrow confines of the world that they have created. It’s easier to think that an advance AI created a simulated reality because this idea is yet another way to release us for our responsibilities to work to free ourselves from the slavery we have created. The forces of addiction and /or attachment are the elements or glue that hold the reality together and prevent slavery from being seen – so in short we believe we are free when we are enslaved.

 

Some basics of a finite system

When language was first developed ego began. Language is a structure of communication and processing thought into concepts. Language is the means that we symbolize reality. Symbolizing reality in this way is so entrenched in our lives we forget that it is a technology that defines and enslaves us within its linear time constraints. It is a seamless technology. Language defines and constrains who we are in some ways and liberates us in other ways but within its system of rules. Language separates us through subject and object connected through verbs and modifiers. Language defines us gives us identity and separates us from “me” and “not-me” concepts.

Humans seek to complete themselves, which is impossible under the finite rules of linear perception.

Ego and language are inseparable. Ego is identity in a group-based matrix or community / society / civilization. Ego and language make life possible, as we know it. Ego is the manager of linear time; it dictates what we do, how we do it, when we do it and what it means to us. Ego and language make curiosity possible. Sentences have a beginning, middle and end and are action-movies, they are motion driven along linear time.

I walked across the room.

“I” is the subject, “walked” the verb – past tense, “across” the preposition indicating location “the” definite article – making special the noun that follows it, “room” noun and object of the sentence. The sentence indicated that the action took place in the past along a linear time line.

If we were to form a sentence to satisfy the wholeness of our entire being there would no longer be a need to make more sentences. One of the reasons we create more sentences is to find completion. This is one of the bases of curiosity and creativity. However, language, ego and linear time are closed systems and human beings are open systems living with complex closed systems. Humans seek to complete themselves, which is impossible under the finite rules of linear perception.

Linear perception is grounded in many rules. Human perceptual faculties assist in supporting, defining and honing the rules that support slavery to the finite system. The finite system is invisible because we believe that we have free will. One reason for this belief is the life we live within this closed system. Open beings inside a closed system will always create illusions in order to believe that they are free. From the point of view of the closed system free will is a possibility, but a quick examination of our lives reveal many truths including how free will as we currently think of it is an illusion.

 

Actions, habits beliefs – the family

Setting societal class and money systems aside, we believe we live free of history, both personal, familial, racially, ethnically and nationally. So when we make a choice we assume it’s free because we are unaware of the underpinnings of that choice.

Family teaches children. Children inevitable learn “do as I say, not as I do,” from parents. We unconsciously adopt beliefs from our parents including behaviors that contradict those beliefs. Even when we rebel against a belief of our parents we are still bound by emotional glue to a reaction response, which holds us in a dyad of prescribed behavior. We learn from our parents who learned from their parents and so on throughout history.

My father rebelled against “the government” because he transposed his rebellion against his father to a entity that couldn’t thrash him directly. It was safer to rebel against something so big and impersonal as the government. I rebelled against my Father directly – against the war in Vietnam and he thrashed me. I rebelled against the republican and conservative philosophies as a way of rebelling against my father. Having “seen” these beliefs in my father and the emotional underpinnings of his behaviors I have forgiven him for his violence and manipulation against me. However I am still a slave to this behavior on some levels. Working on it.

We hold conflicting beliefs.

How we respond to romantic partners is shaped by our relationship to our opposite sexed or dominant parent and how we perceived the behavioral and emotional interactions with their partners. Part of our attraction to romantic partners is a desire to feel the familiar – how we felt in our families. Its what we know. When we become aware of this dynamic we may try to fix/heal our family of origin and /or our primary relationship as a way of resolving our relationship with our opposite sex partner or dominant partner and our mother or father. Or divorce and start again with the same or a different facet of the same person. Or we learn to live with our partner that represents something healthier.

We assume that the predominant personality presenting itself in the now is master of our world. The extreme of the Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly Multiple Personality Disorder) is on a continuum between the highly dysfunctional to a function acceptability of differs selves within us. There is no Master but an array of different selves that rise up from the sub or unconscious sea with us. For instance I might say I have decided to lose weight by cutting out sweets. Hours later I see a fudge chocolate cookie that I eat without a second thought. Who was it that ate that cookie in me? A whimsical impulse driven child perhaps? It certainly wasn’t the decider that chose hours before to stop eating sweets.

We hold conflicting beliefs. We may have high ethical beliefs but we may not follow them. A friend did a statistical study of 6th graders. She found that most all of the students had many altruistic beliefs but did not follow them depending on a number of factors.

Capitalism requires an increasing division of things and services and a consumer base to fuel the engine of this system. Media including the sensory input of all that is visual and auditory drives to capture and excite the whim in us with the pull of associative memory to capture our attention.

 

Attention

[I’m intentionally ignoring most of the traditional and invisible perceptual facilities that we utilize in navigating the world for investigation later.]

 Attention is the first building block of consciousness. An understanding three stances of attention is a useful tool in the quest to see beyond the projected reality we as humans have created.

First the rudimentary aspects of attention via The Merriam-Webster Dictionary definition of attention:

1. a : the act or state of applying the mind to something Our attention was on the game. You should pay attention to what she says.
b : a condition of readiness for such attention involving especially a selective narrowing or focusing of consciousness and receptivity Students, do I have your attention?

  1.  : observation, notice; especially : consideration with a view to action a problem requiring prompt attention

all thinking is associative

 In the definition above is an implicit meaning of the focusing of attention from a subject to an object. Attention in linear time is associated with focus, a narrowing bandwidth in which to concentrate consciousness in an active and receptive fashion. When attention is focused it means to put aside extraneous associative thinking and concentration vision and auditory facilities on a point. Another facet of attention is the dualistic notion of the origin of attention – a person focusing and the object that the person is focusing on.

Humanity is caught in a dualistic dilemma, which limits thought to a binary sequence of on/off, either/or, right/wrong and so on. This is the dilemma of the pattern of all thinking. In short all thinking is associative. One though is associated with another. A human cannot hold two thoughts in consciousness at the same time. We can switch rapidly between two thoughts giving the illusion of multi-tasking. Many studies have debunked multitasking as a skill and show it as a way of shattering attention making the work less efficient.

Due to how we think as humans association naturally leads to dualistic thinking even though we all know that problems are more complex than black or white. Underneath the surface of associative thinking is a process that though fleeting at first can offer an in-between place between dualistic and /or associative thinking. This is a neutral place.

we are already enslaved by the history of beliefs, by the limits of perception, by habit that runs into a seamless unconscious flow

Before exploring the neutral place there are three centers of neuronal activity in the human body. The first is our top brain – the cerebral cortex, the second is the heart brain and the third is the gut brain. So far the discussion has involved only the cerebral cortex. [Aside: the other two brain impulses are always interpreted through the cerebral cortex.]

The Heart Brain is the seat of emotional impressions and regulates the heart muscle. The Gut Brain – or in Chinese Medicine – the Chi regulated the moving center or the Corporeal Body’s Brain as well as assimilation of nutrients and elimination of waste.

Expanding attention in a world that seeks to erode it is an increasingly difficult

Perhaps the neutral place was once a known intrinsic function of ancient humans before written history. Now it must be cultivated. The basis of its cultivation begins with the body and body knowing as the grounding of neutrality. Once neutrality has been noticed if only for fleeting moments then the fulcrum between duality begins to come into play. Attention begins to expand into higher forms. Attention is stretched as to allow more information to be processed especially when neutrality is cultivated.

 

Pushing Attention

As humans we are succumbing to sensory overload through the devices that stream technology and as a result our attention span is diminishing. Socio-economic forces fueled by power-possessors seeking to increasingly divide our attention and enslave us. And we are already enslaved by the history of beliefs, by the limits of perception, by habit that runs into a seamless unconscious flow. Room for play and creativity is nearly non-existent amongst children.

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Expanding attention in a world that seeks to erode it is an increasingly difficult and unpopular task. Invariably during my work with clients trance-work is called for as a way of “seeing” the currents of habit that run below the surface of consciousness. Trance work requires dividing attention between what is being said and the flow underneath the speech. To effectively listen to their story and maintain a light trance state for receptively receiving impressions is made possible through the fulcrum of the neutral place. The trance state reveals an interdimensional reality that is at once separate and blended with the reality that we recognize.

Experimenting with lengthening attention and using attention in active / receptive and neutral ways then we can begin to push against the limits of how we project reality and become enslaved by it. The first step in solving a problem is recognizing that there is one.

We often equate perceptual attention with the visual. Our attention is drawn to something. The amount of visual stimuli that we allow ourselves to be subjected to is overwhelming. Here is a simple experiment in visual attention:

  1. Sit in a chair in a lit room and pick a point to look at opposite to where you are sitting.
  2. While looking at the point and not moving your eyes from that point pay attention to what is in your peripheral visual field, noting what is there.
  3. If you’ve moved your eyes from focusing on the point you have failed the exercise and start again.
  4. After a minute to five minutes stop. Close your eyes and recall what was in your periphery field. Now look at the area surrounding the point. Did you catch all the items that you noticed in the field?

This is an example of utilizing receptive sensory awareness and expanding attention to push the limits of reality. It’s a very mild push and it’s a beginning.

The use of trance, selective listening and the neutral point can be another tool in extending attention and awareness to places beyond ordinary reality.

The person begins speaking as I am prompted to drop-down into trance. I pop back and forth between worlds. Listening is half-listening and at times full listening. The trance state allows for a deeper level of receptive listening that gleans information and provides texture for the story that the client is weaving.

 After years of cultivating the neutral place within switching back and forth between worlds is easier and is one step closer to breaking free of the slavery which keeps me in an enslaved place. However I run on automatic just as many others do so I am still a slave to my habits and beliefs.

 

Acknowledging Perceptual Filters

The following five categories except number 1 may not represent all the perceptual facilities / filters that we as humans work with.

The obvious perceptions:

  1. Sight
  2. Sound,
  3. Touch,
  4. Taste
  5. Odor
  6. Balance
  7. Movement / Direction

The ignored perceptual facilities:

  1. Associative thought
  2. Perceiving emotion
  3. Memory (personal, familial, societal and their histories)
  4. Familial meta-rules
  5. Societal meta-rules

 

III. Unconscious biological perceptual facilities:

  1. Genetic interaction with the world based on familial and personal patterns
  2. Somatic knowing

 

IV. Underdeveloped perceptual facilities:

  1. Empathic perception
  2. Telepathic perception
  3. Transcending Linear Time

 

V. Transcendent perceptual facilities:

  1. Inter and trans dimensional perception
  2. Perception of invisible worlds
  3. Conscious bi-location
  4. Recognizing and transcending layers of illusion

 

All of these perceptual filters except number 5 are agreements that shape the projection we call reality. I believe that part of our mission as humans on planet earth is breaking through the illusions of the projection while transmuting suffering into energy or light / consciousness so that we make work to evolve into a higher consciousness state. Usually those that have completed this process are free to release the corporeal human state and live in the next stage of consciousness. Some do return to the projected human reality as Bodhisattvas to assist others in recognizing the illusion that we all create and help them with its release.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A New Kind of Christmas Prayer

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My mother liked buying Christmas cards all year long. She had huge clear plastic bags of them in the cedar closet and elsewhere in our house.

I told people I was from the future.

In my 20s she invited me to take some to send. I took some, she said take more… So I selected bunches that were all the same painting. I wasn’t much into sending Christmas cards but I took them because my mom wanted me to have some. I think she was overwhelmed with the amount of the cards she had stored up.

Every year for many years I had many of these Christmas cards. It was impossible to send them all to people I knew – maybe I had over 100 cards.

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Every since I could remember I longed for a better world as if I had a memory of this world. Perhaps I did remember a different world because I told people I was from the future. I could feel a world and people at peace with themselves, everyone in the community, not just locally but nationally and internationally. And not just with people, but will all the beings of Earth. Often we ascribe life to biological beings only, I saw and I see all beings, rock, water, air and our sun as beings.

There’s something magical about getting mail (snail mail) from yourself especially if you don’t immediately remember that you sent it.

Every year sometime in my 20s I would write a Christmas card to myself with 7 wishes written inside. Four or five were universal wishes and the other two or three were personal. There’s something magical about getting mail (snail mail) from yourself especially if you don’t immediately remember that you sent it.

I began practicing finding a sense of peace within myself

You retrieve it from the post box and look at the envelope. The writing / printing looks familiar. You rip it open and your remember that old mill in winter and your read the wishes. I stopped sending cards when I ran out and I had begun thinking that wishes were melancholy ways to stay stuck – keeping wishes as wishes that would never come true because they postponed the event into a future that didn’t exist.

Create the peace you want in yourself and be it in the world.

I began to visualize using all my senses to what world peace might feel, look, smell and be like. I began practicing finding a sense of peace within myself and finding threads that would connect peace feelings to others.

I invite you to send a snail mail card to yourself of your wishes and then visualize with your thoughts and senses and your emotions what you are creating now. Create the peace you want in yourself and be it in the world.

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Lost and – Found

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As I get older I seem to lose stuff. I lost my cell phone a few years back, called my provider had them deactivate the account and then a few hours later found the phone. Where? It was where I had left it. But I didn’t employ the finding techniques I have sometimes used to find lost or misplaced stuff.

A friend who has since passed into another life without her body passed on this technique:

The Eye-Flicking – Remembering where I put It – tool

The women that discovered / invented EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) for dealing with people suffering from PTSD, used eye movement to recover and reintegrate repressed memories. My friend said – though this may not have been accurate that the woman, Francine Shapiro was flicking her eyes back and forth to allow a memory to return. My friend said it was possible to move throughout one’s home – flick your eyes back and forth – not in an attempt to visually find the object that you lost but to uncover the memory of where it was. This worked for me a few times.

Cleaning one’s house tool – Frantically cleaning your house to find where you misplaced stuff – works sometimes but not enough.

The Tony-Tony tool – was given to me by a good friend of Italian-American heritage who passed away too young (in my book). Tony is short for St. Anthony finder of lost objects and who also had an undying love and devotion to the poor and the sick. Here’s how this works:

  1. begin with this chant: “Tony, Tony, come around, something’s lost and must be found.” It could be chanted x3.
  2. Wait until it shows up – up to 48 hours
  3. If it shows give anywhere from $1 to $20 to St. Anthony’s to help feed the poor at Christmas.

This worked the best for me. Back in the day when I didn’t have much money to give I started with a dollar. When it reached 10 found items of more I wrote a check to St. Anthony’s of San Francisco, CA.

A Code of Conduct for Men with Women, Children and Other Men

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Or Equality Hugging

Preface

Men are in a position of power in this culture because of their gender and that has been invisible for the most part to them. Women have known about the abuses of men’s power positions for as long as the patriarch is old. It’s becoming more visible now, thankfully and has a long way to go. Men have set many precedents to treat women and others as objects to be subjugated and this has remained acceptable and even hailed as “good” amongst men and some women.

Men who have been victims of sexual crimes such as rape, sexual assault, violations, incest and ritualized sexual abuse as children and feel to be victims / survivors are keenly aware of men’s power than those men acting as perpetrators.

A Possible Code of Conduct

When I was recovering from memories of having been raped as a child I began to create boundaries. Many people men and women make a tacit assumption – it is okay to hug. Amongst my friends and acquaintances I had to stop people from hugging me. I asked them to ask me if was okay to hug me.

Some men employ the bear-hug. This is a clamping down on the hugee to a point where the hugee is crushed by the hugger. Most hugs are unequal. There is a hugger and a hugee. The hugger gives a hug or is the aggressive hugger – even if gentle. The receiver of the hug does just that – receives without choice in the matter. Most hugs are not shared they are given and received. An aggressive hugger can “get-off” sexually on the hug without any seeming impropriety. The best a receiver of a hug may be able to do is the A-Frame Hug. They lean into the giver’s hug with their head and shoulders. Only the very top of their chests may be in contact with the other.

 

The Code of Conduct is Simple

Step One:

“May I give you a hug?”

“Yes.”     Or      “No.”

 

Step Two:

Or you could re-frame the experience:

“May I give you a hug?” Could be met with:

“No, but I will share a hug with you.”

“Same difference,” the hug perpetrator could say.

Response – Walk away

Or they could say: “What does that mean?”

If its said sarcastically its probably best to refuse all together and walk away.

 

In sharing a hug –

Each hugger gives and receives the hug equally.

Explanation and practice required.

 

Am I splitting hairs? Maybe, but I don’t think so…