“Why Traps” – an Affirming Present or a Future Expectation of Negative Outcomes

brain_f2 Psychoanalysis uncovers the genesis of a problem or problems rooted in the unconscious and when understood by the conscious mind there is an occurrence of healing. This is a vast oversimplification and it belongs to a world of mechanistic cause and effect relationships with an assumption that the mind unlocks healing.

Our brains are hardwired for fear and possible negative outcomes.

This myth is perpetuated into logical thought and the some of shortcomings of the scientific method. In other words psychoanalysis has perpetuated an assumption that thought and the will can overcome unconscious traumas of childhood. That would be true if everyone lived in a cause and effect world.

Fears and anxieties based on an expectation of a negative outcome is an urge some people to begin to try and think how to escape the negative outcome. This in-turn encourages more thinking to solve the problem. This is the cycle of worry or obsessive thinking. The pattern of this kind of thinking may soothe the thinker for a nanosecond but then initiates the obsessive pattern again. The worrier doesn’t use fear to attract the negative outcome to themselves but allows them to find situations were the negative pattern manifests. [People come to me and ask about romantic relationships they inevitably say they feel in-love for the person because it feels “right” and “familiar”. The root word of “familiar” is family. After a few dates I suggest some questions. If the person asking me is a woman talking about a man, I ask the woman about her relationship with her father. I suggest that the woman ask the man about his relationship with his mother. You get the idea.] The family we were raised in represented a particular world. Some offspring leave the world of the dysfunction – often cause and effect relationships for a world in the present and they may slip back into the cause and effect world when encountering a parent or two or siblings. The function of expectation for a negative outcome is key and this is often an unconscious process.

When we humans feel joy and happiness expectation falls away.

Our brains are hardwired for fear and possible negative outcomes. This took place over a long period of time probably tens of thousand of years and was based in survival against real danger, such as being attacked and eaten by predators. Eventually the patterns that helped our ancestors cope with dangers were substituted with fears based on anxieties about our negative expectations of a future based on a causal world.

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When we humans feel joy and happiness expectation falls away. These are emotions that expand and uplift and belong to a different reality than the expectations of negative outcomes and how to solve them. Expectations of negative outcomes and its solution – obsessional thinking curl us into self-protective loops that create conditions for suffering and breakdowns. Joy and happiness belong to a separate reality divorced from expectation and in the world of the present.

This takes a compassionate neutral place within our Being.

I had a friend that would ask me “Why?” to whatever subject she was grappling with at the time. I would answer that “Why?” questions assume that if one knew the reason for this or that problem then there would be a self-evident solution. “Why” questions belong to the cause and effect world of psychoanalysis. Cause and effect worlds are less complex and predictable. The Higher Worlds predicated in the present are more complex because the emotions of joy, happiness and love open us and make “Why” questions superfluous. The intellect and rational thought is not the answer to everything.

Overcoming worry and causal realities takes time and effort. Awareness is the first step. Awareness must be free of judgment. The spin of worry / obsessional thinking must be observed without judgment. This takes a compassionate neutral place within our Being. This place requires cultivation. Once the force of a witness is sufficiently cultivated we become aware when we are obsessing and have an expectation for a negative outcome.

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A conscious breath may be enough to interrupt the pattern for a second. The use of distraction, moving out pattern of thinking to feelings of hope and joy may help us shift out of the pattern. Repeated efforts along these lines are necessary throughout our lives because of the hard-wiring of our brain explained above. For a better habit to replace a bad habit- especially one that is hardwired into our brains must be continually practiced.

I have noticed that breakthroughs into other worlds and even into a “place” beyond time are possible.

 

Light in Blood – The Light imbues – All

(NOTE: Some of the material was previously posted from December 2016 see link below)

In the summer of 1968 I was with my family on Cape Cod near the Nauset Lighthouse.  One day I walked five miles up the coast to sand dunes.  It was there I had a peak experience of everyone on the planet connected by love and light.

I was “seeing” Earth from space where all was connected by light (and love). I felt oneness with all ~ ecstasy!

In 1984 I was in a leadership training course. Our group was team building on a Ropes Course near Woodland, California. One of our teammates was up in the trees preparing to jump onto a wobbly platform, supported in a safety harness by two burly fellows on the ground and two support people in the trees. Our support consisted of us yelling like rabid cheerleaders at her. It made no sense to me so I projected the supportiveness of my heart energy into the trees and towards her.

Something happened that I hadn’t expected.

I saw light coursing through the trunks and branches of the trees. Looking at the light streaming so quickly through the trees was intense.

I looked down. I looked at the ground and then at the bare skin on my left arm.

I saw inside my arm. Where blood was pumping through the arteries and veins I saw light pulsing.  Light from a near by leafy bush (the leaves were tender and sweet to look at) extended a cloudy plasmic field of light around my arm as if to comfort me.

At that time it was too intense for me to process it and I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy.  When I opened by eyes moments later I saw what I had expected to see – all was normal and reassuring.

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2016/12/11/we-are-the-matrix-and-the-wider-consciousness/

Surrender

Occasionally I think about the arc of my life as a rainbow of possibilities replete with connections, connections of the heart to friends, relatives and lovers… Tonight I feel filled with love, blessed to live in community. I feel incredibly wealthy and blessed. Thank-you.

The community in Sonoma and in the world for all that I have touched and whose hearts have touched mine. The connections through the WordPress blogs, Facebook and Medium to name a few are also heartfelt. I am deeply grateful and honored.When I dip into the breath and down into meditation the web and weave of a greater consciousness seems to open. In that opening I have glimpsed destiny based on synchronicities, karma, perception and the oneness of the heart. It is as if my life has been written as I surrender into a higher consciousness letting go of ego for those briefest of moments.
In 1990 when I asked the question – “God what should I do with my life?” and the subsequent “answer” that led to a place of choice. I could have continued to pursue what “I” (ego) wanted to do – make video, write unsuccessful screenplays and continue to work as a Crisis Counselor or…

I could surrender to a life as a “seer” and healer. So I surrendered. However that initial act of surrender wasn’t the only one. My rebellious and bratty ego keeps making himself known and this requires continual acts of surrender to the path.

I wish I could adequately describe the feelings of sweetness connected to the act of surrender. However the 1990 act of surrender wasn’t my first. My ego remembers all the seemingly magical acts of surrender, and there were many that were failed or seemed not to produce any obvious results.
To arrive at a place in ourselves where surrender is possible other avenues of work are required to generate the energy of beingness necessary for the sacrifice in the surrender process.
Avenues of work on oneself:
Struggle: Most people have an onerous association to struggle and avoid it. Most of our struggles are successful and easy. Getting out of bed in the morning, or driving to work etc. Paying taxes may be a task we put off – so that may be an odious struggle.

Struggle is the battle between “Yes” and “No”. The cultivation of the Witness observer self helps in two ways: it allows non-attachment to develop and the observer / witness can create energy from the friction of the struggle.
Help: Most people ask for help much as a child would ask an adult for help in the same way people ask for help from God, the Divine, the Universe etc. Many people expect help will arrive because they asked and that the help will arrive in a clearly recognizable way. Help can come when we make space for it and are attentive to the ways in which it can arrive and how we respond to it.
Learning: Learning can come from books. Deeper learning comes from direct contact with a Master and /or teacher.
Surrender or Sacrifice: This can only happen in the present moment. It involves a surrender of thought, feeling and motion (somatic knowing). It involves letting go of expectation and fears. When ego is released the Witness or Observer self may be present.
In 1982 will participating with 50 or so individuals in a practice of a Gurdjieff Sacred Dance – The Great Prayer, during the last twenty minutes I experienced a divine presence “doing” the movement while my Witness Self observed. This was an ineffable experience where to use words to describe it would denigrate it.

Life beyond Death

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From all my encounters of death, stories of near-death and following others passage to death and beyond here is a composite:

When the physical body ceases the core or essence of light that passes from the crown to the root chakra is released and unites with our light body, the first frequency of energy in our Electromagnetic field and creates the tunnel of light.  When that tunnel ceases sometimes we see our previously passed relatives and friends their to greet us (this is not always the case).  We are still within the outer reaches of our auric field so we may be encountering our living memories of them recreated to help us pass. Or they may be co-created by us and them to welcome us into a new realm of consciousness.

Then we are in a line in an enormous building like a train station.  We meet a committee that asks us two basic questions:

Did you love?

Were you loved by others?

There are no wrong answers to these questions. Then you move away from the line and await you teacher.  But since there is no time or space what may often occur is a period where the person relives a favorite part of their lives or a fantasy of what they may have wanted but didn’t get and they do so in a their favorite time with a healthy body. This is also a time where they “visit” loved ones on the earth plain in the form of dreams and visions or a feeling of that person.

After that they meet with their teacher and review their lives from the library known as the Akashic Records – a holographic interactive record of what you have done and what would have happened if you had made a different choice.

The soul’s body is not complete. When our physical bodies die light from our light bodies is deposited into the soul’s body. When the soul’s body is completely coated with light it is no longer necessary to return to the earth plain. The individual may return as a Bodhisattva -great old soul of transcendental enlightenment love and compassion, or become a teacher for others.  Those that choose to return do so out of love and may be the only ones that choose their parents.

When all the work is done the hunger to make more light (love) is paramount.  The individual is pulled into conception at a certain time and anchored to a cell at the point of conception.

This is conception trauma worse than birth trauma because consciousness was free to be everywhere without attachment and at conception attachment begins.  From Freedom to attachment…

 

[NOTE – since there is no time the order of most what happens may not be necessarily accurate.]

Remembering Bhante

 

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I came to California – arriving on Memorial Day Weekend 1982 – to study with Bhante or the Dharmawara Mathahera. In some ways I was ready to work with him – but in most ways I rebelled. A year later I moved out. Bhante gave me his shakti (spiritual energy from the guru) upon leaving and I used this to develop myself on my own spiritual path. Bhante and I remained friends. The photograph you see here was take when he was 93.  I saw him shortly after his 100th birthday (a second photo not shown here) and then again at 101 when he was living in Merced by the Merced River. I last saw Bhante when he turned 109 about a year before his death when he spoke in both English and lapsing into Cambodian in mid-sentence with a Monk to interpret.

About six months after his death I had this dream – one of those very real dream-time dreams –

I was at a small hut / temple in monsoon season in the midst of a rice paddy. It was night. The temple was on stilts to avoid being flooded. The Dali Lama was there.  I was bowing – and then on my knees kissing the hem of his garment.

“Get up, Frank,” The Dali Lama said laughing. “You’re one of us.”

I stood dazed and slightly disoriented:

“I am?”

“Oh yes.  Besides I am here as a bridge to open a way for this man…”

The Dali Lama pulled back a heavy drape.  There was smiling face with bright orange light all around. It was Bhante.

“How come you haven’t come to visit me before now?”

“Well, Bhante, I hate to tell you this, but you’re dead.”

“Do I look dead to you?”

“Oops…”

The dead are the death of bodies. Spirit lives on.

Bhante is with me and helps me in my work on an on-going basis.

Metaphors for Healing – a primer

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I had the good fortune to work as a “seer” or (psychic reader) at The New Leaf Bookstore in Larkspur, California from 1995 to 1999 on Saturdays. It was good training for the next step. I began my day around 11 am and closed at 7 pm with a break for lunch.

Many people came for readings after having gone to the movies at the theatre next door. I often “saw” images of those movies in their persona and it gave me an inner laugh.

I guided people through a visualization and looked at the content of each of the seven chakras. Images appeared to me. I never asked what these images meant to the people that had “seen” them in.

One time while looking at a guy’s heart chakra I encountered an unusual image. A man was driving a sports car with the top down up a mountainside along a twisting road. A plume of smoke curled out of the exhaust. I was baffled.

I asked the image – what is your meaning. Spelled out in the white billowing exhaust was the word: “SMOKESCREEN”. What will it take for me to see beyond this distraction? The sense that washed over me was – be humbled. “Let go of your abilities and the pride you possess in “seeing””. I let go and in an instant I was let into a small part of his heart that was tender and vulnerable.

“You don’t let many people see how tender, sensitive and vulnerable you are. You give people distractions and stories so they can’t see your tenderness,” I said.

“Oh my God,” he said nearly falling off his chair. “How did you know that? Its so true. I’m blown away.”

Later as my readership expanded into healing, the visual metaphors have come quickly accompanied by emotional messages, voices – some of them from the divine, intuitive “hits” and so on. In the beginning when an image appeared I’d ask to see it from a variety of angles including from the inside-out. Occasionally I’ve been directed to share the image with my client with astonishing results and peels of laughter..

When permission is given by phone, email or text, it doesn’t matter how distant the person is from me their inner world by virtue of their consent is there for me to view and ascertain. Images, intent, emotional factors are quickly revealed. Sometimes there is an intent to hide and I must enter to tease the situation apart so it can be seen and dealt with.

In many instants the healing occurs very quickly because I am allied with the inherent holism of their natural healing predilections. What sometimes happens are the habits and beliefs of the client based on their fears (some conscious and some unconscious) resets the problem. Re-programming thought and belief are difficult to work with and they can be done.

Transcend Space-Time, Be in the Light

GatewayWe think of time and space as separate but only because we think of them that way.

In many of my blog entrees I have written that time is an invention as a convenient way to organize our lives. Space is also an invention described by the organs of our perceptions: sight, balance, sound, direction and so on. The perception of space originates from our consciousness within our corporeal bodies and as such is limited and prescribed in subject-object relationships. Our perception of time is inexorably bound with our perception of space. One cannot exist without the other.
Light is a constant and it can be “observed” as waves or particles. Light can be absorbed by matter and matter can emit light (or energy). Matter cannot exist without energy or light. Matter is energy (light) moving at a slower frequency so matter can be thought of the lower ends of light. If that is the case then the basic substance (light of different frequencies) that binds everything together is light. Light permeates mass and is in everything and is everything every being and the space between beings.
Encoded within photons are replicating patterns of photons mirrored everywhere. When I work to facilitate healing everything is included “right in front of me”. A person once asked me about “traveling ‘out-there’ to ‘see and heal'”. I answered that I don’t travel at all – I include. Light or photons are the binding agents or glue that includes everything of higher and lower vibrations of light or energy. Access one photon and all photons are available everywhere forever in the greater now of time and space. (as above, so below).
The only reason for time-space to exist is to define consciousness within a corporeal form – or “self” within our physical body. Consciousness that transcends the corporeal transcends time-space and experiences Light, Love and Oneness that binds all together in short – enlightenment.
When you rise up from your bed in the morning, get up out of chair, walk across a room, drive your car, ride a bus or a train, sit down in a meeting your ego makes you believe you are separate and you can also know that you an living within a sea of light and love. Let go of that which separates you from this feeling and allow your heart to feel and be this Oneness. When you “return” to your ego bring the feeling of Oneness and Love with you, knowing that you are connected to everyone, every being, the planets, the sun, stars, the solar system. From this knowing of connection with all others and with your self in a new way respond in a community of compassion with all others. This is the work.

Science confirms what most of us already know:
http://www.lifecoachcode.com/2017/02/26/emotion-shapes-reality/

Reality and Nine Dimensions

…notes / musings from a shaman’s perspective

  1. We don’t see our own reality – we only experience a representation of the reality via our senses and the technologies we use to describe them
  2. This representation of reality when broken-through may be experienced with the nine dimensions. (there are many more than 9 dimensions, but only 9 are needed to support a reality of our type of existence).
  3. It may be impossible to experience all 9 dimensions simultaneously. The more one experiences the greater the possibility in the loss of self.
  4. One reason why manifestation may not be so easy – the changing 9 dimensions and our alignment to our right path.

 

[Aside: I mentioned going to the Void to someone once. She said “I go there all the time.” “What do you experience there?” I asked. “God,” she said. Unless she experienced God as nothing then she was not going to the void. The void is a non-place where everything including the self is taken away and nothing is left. When I go I don’t even remember having been there because there is no “there” to remember. It is the ultimate in cleansing. And it is dangerous to go “there” because one could return catatonic. It is paradoxes like this one that is replete in the nine dimensions that surround and support us in this reality.]

 

  1. Its interesting that about the time physicists began proposing the 9 dimensions two new chakras opened as significant centers in the 7 chakra system. The two new chakras – 1 is a few inches above the naval and it is “the birth chakra” the 2nd is about 3 to 4 inches below the base of the throat – “the thymic” chakra having to do with will and divine will

 

More to come…

 

 

Alchemical Magic – Part Two

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In 1995 I had taken my healing/seeing practice full time mode.  I was conducting a channeling group called Tender Spirit Evening – it was a once a month group. I had two places to conduct my groups, one in Napa and one in Santa Rosa.  I had been looking for a place in Sonoma.

About a week after my return from Kauai (Hawaii) I had a dream:

I was in the waiting room of an office suite. The front of the office was near the beach in Kapaa – Hawaii. The back of the office was in Sonoma.  The office was being set up so there were a number of desks and other pieces of furniture in the room including an old-fashioned school desk. Lawyer and doctors were taking the bigger desks out of the waiting room.  A person entered.

“Hi,” I greeted her. “Are you here as a friend or a client?”

“Both,” she said and grinned. She sat down on the old fashioned school desk chair and told me that she was ready.

I woke from the dream.

In 1995 I lived on a mountain in Glen Ellen. Once a week I traveled into Sonoma along Highway 12, which was also West Napa Street.  I saw a sign from a realty agency of an office suite for rent or lease.  Each time I passed the sign I felt drawn to the property, which could not be seen from the street.  I called the realtor and made an appointment to look at it.  The place had the feel of the dream, a feel of Hawaii in Sonoma.  There were three or four offices and a large waiting room. He wanted nearly $4,000 a month for it.  Clearly that was not going to happen, I wasn’t ready for that kind of commitment.

Though I let it go, it lingered.

I was visiting my friend Bob who was excited about the first art show of the Sonoma Collage Collective in his backyard on the corner of Patton and 3rd Street East.

“Come with me to the dump, I’ve got to pick-up some doors for the show,” He smiled bouncing with humor and enthusiasm.

We arrived at the dump where Recycle-town was located. While he negotiated for twenty interior doors from the foreman of the area I pursued the inventory and was drawn to twelve school desks.

“Hey Bob, get a load of these desks!”  I laughed.

“I want them for my Calligraphy classes.”  He bought them and we took them back to his house.  They wouldn’t all fit into his garage.

“Why not put two or three of them out in the yard? People could sit down and write an impromptu poem at your art salon.”

“Good idea.”  So we positioned a few around the backyard.

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On the day of the art show I happened to be standing by one of the desks near the garage when a friend, Donna was breezing through.

She stopped at the desk and said it was exactly what she was seeking for her new office space.  I asked if she wanted to hear my dream and the rest of the story.  She said yes – and I relayed it to her.

“What do you suppose it means?”

“You’re supposed to teach classes in my waiting room.”

She went on to tell me that when she found out from my friend Michael about my dream (with whom I had told about the dream). She had to act fast to rent the office before I did.

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I had a space for my Tender Spirit Evenings on one Friday each month. On the 12th meeting there the group of Guides known as The Twelve did trance channeling through me and established me as a bridge between worlds for the benefit of all.

Alchemical Magic – Part One

Bridges to Kauai

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Its in the journey…

Many years ago – inspired by a graduate student in social geography I came up with the Quest-ions Project. The project was for travelers who had both imagination and an ability to write descriptively. I based the questions on their destinations asking them to answer a question on the top of an 8 1/2 by 11 inch sheet of paper after opening the business sized envelope at the proper time (there were instructions on when to open it).  Some of the questions were generic such as describe how a sunset makes you feel. However most of the questions were designed to the person’s relationship to place – mainly the destinations of their travels. The first person hitchhiked across the USA through the badlands. Another person was a waitress who reported that the questions supported her through her loneliness in relocating from Sonoma, CA to Spokane, WA and back again. A friend who went to Morocco and the Azores wrote fantastically descriptive prose that transported to a mystical forest there. The most interesting Questions project began with a friend and her Mother who took a cruise to Hawaii.

When she returned she dropped two of the three unopened Kauai questions on my kitchen table and said: “These questions are for you.” She explained that the cruise ship did not have docking privileges, so they anchored off shore. The plan had been to take skiffs ashore but the seas were too rough from a recent storm. The ship sat offshore for three days and they just looked at the island.

I had always wanted to go to Hawaii but put it off for years. So within three weeks I had plane reservations and a plan: backpacking – camping for four days, and staying at a motel and a Youth Hostel a day each and a Bed & Breakfast for a day. I was bumped into seat number three in first class on the way there.

I had to wait several hours for my backpack to catch-up with me at the airport before hitching into a motel for the first night. It was June of 1995. The air outside of baggage claim was hot, humid and immersed in the perfume of tropical flowers. The breezes off the ocean created a profound peace of being held by the goddess mother. So easy to smile, so sweet…

A woman who worked for one of the big hotels in Poipu with her husband picked me up. They had lived in a neighboring county – Marin before relocating to Kauai. I smiled and laughed. She asked me about my plan. I told her that I had planned to go to Polihale State Park. She advised against it, very hot there humid over 100 degrees. She advised going north to Hanalei. I thanked her as she dropped me off at Motor Court outside Lihue, which probably no longer exists.

The woman at the front desk checked me in. She looked at me as if I was insane when I answered her question about my rental car – “I don’t have one.”

That night I opened the first question:

Make contact with the Menehune and ask them for permission to contact the Lemurian world on Kauai.  I meditated for a while and decided to go to sleep. The day’s travel had been arduous.

I awoke to a raucous running and giggling in the room. I was about to turn on the light, when a strong impression of a voice came to me commanding me to stop and be still. The voice said:

You have it!

He meant permission to contact the Lemurians. In the morning the rocking chair was on its side where the Menehune had knocked it over the night before. I checked out the next morning and walked to the county seat where I bought a permit for camping at the Hanea Beach Park.

I hitched up the coast to the Youth Hostel in Kapaa for companionship and to gather supplies for my camping trip. We shared the cost for a veggie chili meal. I ate with the group played some fierce Ping-Pong and met a sweet young French woman.

I hitched north and had two good long rides. One was a guy with an open jeep. I was rained on – the downpour soaked me but it was refreshing. He was a pot smoker who had wanted to sell me some weed, but I didn’t smoke. The next ride was an Asian woman and her young teenage daughter who was in Catholic School and was busy playing and winning golf tournaments.  I later saw her on the TV show 60 minutes as a 17 year old golf pro. They took me as far as Princeville. I got another ride to Hanalei and walked to the campground.

The first day was great. Then local Hawaiians came in – enforce for a luau. It was nonstop noise 24 hours a day – I stuck it out for three days. I went snorkeling at Ke’e Beach. I mediated by waterfalls.

In a trance I was taken back in time to the early Lemurian times and saw a prince and princess blend their spirits in love. It was a blessing.

 The luau was loud and sleep at the campground was impossible. I left one day early hitched back and spent another night at the Kapaa Youth Hostel before getting a ride to the Bed & Breakfast in the jungles west of Kapaa.  It was a geodesic dome on top, a small building housing the rooms for the B&B with a lanai and two canvas yurts on wooden platforms 30 feet in diameter.

After a beautiful night under a canopy of stars and a sweet romantic kiss there was a sweet breakfast of strawberry papaya.

I received two homemade leis at the airport one from Angel manager of the B&B and now friend , one from the young French woman Lavigne.  Both leis were homemade by Lavigne. Taking the leis home was taking the slower life of Kauai back to California.