To explain a mystery take the mystery out of mystery. Flirting with mystery is getting close but never exploring it.
So the previous piece – Flirting with Mystery could be serious or humorous or frustrating or a combination.
To explain a mystery take the mystery out of mystery. Flirting with mystery is getting close but never exploring it.
So the previous piece – Flirting with Mystery could be serious or humorous or frustrating or a combination.
The Unhealthy World
Anxiety arises from fear and it protects us from danger.
Anxiety has become a complex problem due to many factors.
There are two types of anxieties. One is exogenous and one endogenous. Exogenous means something that is produced outside of us. In and in the way I am using this word is directing the cause of anxiety to an event in our immediate present or near future. Endogenous means causes by something within us and I surmise that this type of anxiety began in the outside world in one or many traumatic events so that it appears to become internally produced or triggered. In this case there is no identifiable cause of feeling anxious and this becomes an existential condition.
Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management.
Exogenous anxiety is a cause and effect relationship. I’m anxious about my day in court. The day comes – it wasn’t as bad as I thought, I feel relived and anxiety is reduced significantly. However if I have experienced clustered exogenous anxiety producing events as a child then these can easily translate into an endogenous anxiety condition.
The two basic systemic problems of coping / dealing with anxiety are as follows:
Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management. It is the perfect emotion to target with a product because our attitude towards the emotion (to be gotten rid of) and a world that is a nest for increasing anxieties and thus provides continuing and increasing profits. And it is not that simple either.
The use of street or illicit drugs at a young age for self-medication (dealing with depression and anxiety) and the concurrent addiction issues along with marketed pharmaceuticals on television has engendered a culture that looks to legal drugs to squash emotional problems of anxiety and depression amongst others. And while this may be effective it reduces our ability as a culture for self-reliant behaviors and creative problem solving.
Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience.
What happens when a younger person uses street drugs or prescribed medications to diminish anxiety, the anxiety goes away. Emotional growth stops at the age when street drugs and/or prescription drugs are used and often abused. A drug abusing person enters into a drug-culture. Later in life when a person wants to genuinely deal with emotional and psychologically difficulties their emotional responses may be childlike or childish because of legal or illegal drug use. Cognitively they may act like adults but when beset by anxiety they become stuck children. The frustration is overwhelming and dependence on drugs legal or illegal provides instantaneous relief.
Beginning to Deal with Anxiety
There are two basic strategies in dealing with anxiety:
In order to be able to tolerate anxiety one has to have had a history with it. Embedded in your history are the methods used to cope with anxiety until it goes away or disappears into the subconscious. Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience. Even part of tolerating anxiety becomes a part of dealing directly or indirectly with it.
Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies.
In dealing indirectly with anxiety comes the use of distractions. Some of the distractions may be healthy and some unhealthy. If you are depressed and you begin using methamphetamines to lift your mood, you will get an instantaneous lift from depression along with feelings of grandiosity and anxiety / excitement and this will be temporary. If you use marijuana to reduce anxiety you may become insular, depressed and /or paranoid if used to excess. Watching television to excess can make a healthy distraction unhealthy serve to isolate the individual etc.
Some distractions can also be a direct strategy in lowering anxiety. Taking a walk in nature or a run is one way to burn and / create energy to lower anxiety. It distracts the mind from the feeling and allows the body to detox anxiety on a cellular level.
Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies. In most modern cultures citizens don’t live in the body, we live in our minds (this also cold be called a preoccupation with thoughts to the exclusion of emotions and the sensory phenomena of the body). We know we have a physical body but we may be unaware of the body in a sensorial manner. Only un-mechanized agrarian cultures may remain in their bodies.
Immediate anxiety is an emotion that serves us when we are afraid and that fear is immediate. Anxiety serves to heighten awareness in this instance of immediacy. If a person is anxious about crossing the street because drivers are going through crosswalks illegally, anxiety and fear protect us from being hit by careless motorists. This is anxiety is exogenous.
Endogenous anxiety may be a feeling of dread upon awakening that develops into a full-blown anxiety attack. When that happens medications may or may not help. Practicing being aware of our body and our breath prior to a panic attack or increased unmanageable anxiety can assist in helping to lower anxious states if one remembers to employ the techniques. Dealing directly with anxiety can take on a number of strategies including:
Besides using pharmaceutical anti-anxieties there are a number of natural alternatives. The supplement GABA or Gamma-Aminobutyric Acid is a neurotransmitter that has a number of benefits including lowering anxiety and … http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-and-supplements/gaba-uses-and-risks
And Acontium Napellus 30 c – a homeopathic formula for anxiety
Premise: Part of the problems of healthcare may be an increase in chronically ill individuals due to age and environment per capital. Due to an increase in population in a context of an increasingly toxic environment health problems have significantly increased. Using the reductive methods of the scientific method without common sense the effect of the environment as a major contribution to chronic disease can always be debated. Common sense follows that ignorant and non-ignorant corporate greed has created a general environment where toxicity has increased directly and indirectly. If we accept that corporations have wittingly or unwittingly contributed to a toxic world over the past 50 to 60 years then we can conclude that they are directly or indirectly accountable for support the health of the citizens.
Actions: The EPA has been the policing agents for corporate polluters. However corporations have not been held accountable for contributing to an environment whose toxicity has created significant health detriments to people, animals Eco-systems and Earth.
Two actions are required. Stop contributing toxins to the environment and pay for healthcare for those that cannot afford health care.
A healthcare tax on corporations could fund Medicaid and Medicare and provide an incentive for ceasing actions that contribute to making a toxic environment.
London, Washington, DC, San Francisco, CA
Revolution and unpredictability blended with warlike / warrior energy fueled by an intense authoritarian backdrop with an eye towards a bold and perhaps narcissistic future.
Combine this with disembodied emotions in service to a grandiose indecisive expansiveness and connected to trying to hold everything together by doing the impossible.
Planets and Aspects:
Uranus and Eris TRINE Saturn (in retrograde) on one side and TRINE North Node on the other (Saturn in retrograde and North Node TRINE)
Sun TRINE Moon TRINE Jupiter TRINE Sun
Two inverted Grand Trines one in Air and one in Fire – not quite a Star of David but close.
Originally published May 21, 2015 and updated June 3, 2017
Most children are empaths. Many people are empaths and sometimes this is a matter of degree. If we begin to think as the empathic ability as a continuum then sometimes people are highly empathic – highly sensitive and sometimes less empathic perhaps due to circumstance and/or better boundaries. However in every social group there may be one or more empaths that may function as checks for both conscious and unconscious emotional patterns within a particular group.
A client who was an empath asked me how she could keep out “bad energy” or “negative feelings”. How could she protect herself? This is a good question. No one who is an empath stays in a feeling place all the time. We go into our intellect as a way of protecting ourselves from the suffering of the world and from our own suffering.
Emotion is analogous to flowing water.
No one can stay in the heart one hundred percent of the time without breaking down. The best parts of ego allow us to balance emotions with the intellect. It is possible for an empath, stuck in fear for example, to begin to rationalize judge and exclude others shifting themselves from the heart into the mind and using the intellect as a fortress against emotions. A person overwhelmed with emotion could be fearful, defensive and react in anger if they are unaware of the empathic abilities. Other empaths may seem to attract nothing but negative energy from others (see Shadowcatchers below) and this may originate from being scapegoated as a child and accepting the role as an adult. Balancing mind and emotions requires attention and the use of thinking to identify emotions in others and our selves. Once we engage the mind to identify emotions we can develop a plan of action to help us cope with others’ feelings (see example below).
Most people who are empathic sponges would like to keep bad stuff out and let only the good stuff in, that’s only natural.
The best defense for empaths is flow.
Let it flow through you. A metaphor for flow of emotions is a fast flowing stream, waterfall or river. Emotion is the empaths currency. Emotion appears, we sometimes process it and then it goes. Empaths ability to feel others’ emotions and identify these emotions can be developed into a skill and can trigger responses in empaths that remind us of woundings from the past. As soon as you realize you are triggered remind yourself that you wouldn’t be able to recognize the trigger unless you were ready to deal with it.
If the empath can answer these questions when feeling others’ emotions then protection becomes simplified somewhat:
Many times the four-question method above may not be possible. When we encounter others’ emotions we may be overwhelmed with their emotions. Their emotions may trigger similar emotions in us. Part of our abilities as empaths is recognizing the common threads of emotion that bond humans together. Two common emotions that humans feel are grief and love. Feeling love in another or in others feels good. Feeling grief can be problematic. Part of the problem is that grief can spawn feelings such as sadness, anger / rage and these can turn into depression sometimes. Recognizing when you are triggered and dealing with the trigger is a first step at diffusing overwhelming emotions.
There can be two kinds of empaths for the purposes of this piece. If you are reading this and feel you are an empath then you are on the path of a Conscious Empath. However there are unconscious empaths. These people become overwhelmed without knowing the reasons and sometimes blame others or become depressed. Their childhood traumas may be so complicated and their self-images so solid with walls instead of boundaries that their empathic abilities overwhelm them and prevent them from seeing triggers. They cannot process the overwhelming emotional onslaught without help. Usually some of these people feel they don’t need help.
You may also be a Shadowcatcher.
You may be a magnet for others shadows. Shadowcatchers may be absorbers of others unconscious projections. Essentially a shadowcatcher feels the shadow of another or shadows from groups. I noticed this when I was a participant in a healing circle. The facilitator asked for loving and healing energies from the group through coming forward – for a laying-on of hands or from our spot in the circle. Immediately I felt a surge of resentment and anger that was overwhelming. It happened many times until I realized what I was feelings was not coming from me. And as soon as I grounded it out I felt the love and was able to participate in the healing circle.
Sensitive people always attract less sensitive people to them especially if one or both parties are not conscious of their sensitivities. In psychology this is called Projective Identification. Our culture often brands sensitive people as “weak” when in fact the opposite is true. I grew up in a stiff upper-lip Yankee family where tears were rarely shed. My Mother would shame me for my tearful behaviors by saying – “You’re too sensitive.” Often it was she who was projecting feelings onto me that I could express and then she would shame me for having done so because she did not want to acknowledge the feelings in herself. When sensitive people become aware of their sensitivities and can name their feelings and take responsibility for them with “I feel” statements then merely on the psychological basis feelings can be owned and the blame/shame game can be reduced.
If you are an empath that becomes infected with the shadows of others and these shadows blend with your emotions, then problems can become severely compounded. As a child and survivor of ritual sexual abuse that had been repressed I was severely depressed and passively suicidal for all of my teen years. When the memories of abuse began surfacing in my 40s I was able to begin to deal with the feelings and slowly work through the most arduous territories of the abuse. Every person on the planet has grown-up in a dysfunctional family to one degree or another. If you played the role of an empath in your family and that particular family was highly dysfunctional and negative then its likely that you may be carrying your family shadow and are acting out what had been passed on to you. There are three paths of approach that may help with your healing:
I have been engaged in a daily spiritual practice for over 40 years and more intensely during the flashbacks of the abuse.
 The range of empathic abilities: https://lonerwolf.com/what-type-of-empath-are-you/
 Shadowcatchers in psychological terms: http://drs-oleary.com/Projective_Identification.htm
Psychoanalysis uncovers the genesis of a problem or problems rooted in the unconscious and when understood by the conscious mind there is an occurrence of healing. This is a vast oversimplification and it belongs to a world of mechanistic cause and effect relationships with an assumption that the mind unlocks healing.
This myth is perpetuated into logical thought and the some of shortcomings of the scientific method. In other words psychoanalysis has perpetuated an assumption that thought and the will can overcome unconscious traumas of childhood. That would be true if everyone lived in a cause and effect world.
Fears and anxieties based on an expectation of a negative outcome is an urge some people to begin to try and think how to escape the negative outcome. This in-turn encourages more thinking to solve the problem. This is the cycle of worry or obsessive thinking. The pattern of this kind of thinking may soothe the thinker for a nanosecond but then initiates the obsessive pattern again. The worrier doesn’t use fear to attract the negative outcome to themselves but allows them to find situations were the negative pattern manifests. [People come to me and ask about romantic relationships they inevitably say they feel in-love for the person because it feels “right” and “familiar”. The root word of “familiar” is family. After a few dates I suggest some questions. If the person asking me is a woman talking about a man, I ask the woman about her relationship with her father. I suggest that the woman ask the man about his relationship with his mother. You get the idea.] The family we were raised in represented a particular world. Some offspring leave the world of the dysfunction – often cause and effect relationships for a world in the present and they may slip back into the cause and effect world when encountering a parent or two or siblings. The function of expectation for a negative outcome is key and this is often an unconscious process.
Our brains are hardwired for fear and possible negative outcomes. This took place over a long period of time probably tens of thousand of years and was based in survival against real danger, such as being attacked and eaten by predators. Eventually the patterns that helped our ancestors cope with dangers were substituted with fears based on anxieties about our negative expectations of a future based on a causal world.
When we humans feel joy and happiness expectation falls away. These are emotions that expand and uplift and belong to a different reality than the expectations of negative outcomes and how to solve them. Expectations of negative outcomes and its solution – obsessional thinking curl us into self-protective loops that create conditions for suffering and breakdowns. Joy and happiness belong to a separate reality divorced from expectation and in the world of the present.
I had a friend that would ask me “Why?” to whatever subject she was grappling with at the time. I would answer that “Why?” questions assume that if one knew the reason for this or that problem then there would be a self-evident solution. “Why” questions belong to the cause and effect world of psychoanalysis. Cause and effect worlds are less complex and predictable. The Higher Worlds predicated in the present are more complex because the emotions of joy, happiness and love open us and make “Why” questions superfluous. The intellect and rational thought is not the answer to everything.
Overcoming worry and causal realities takes time and effort. Awareness is the first step. Awareness must be free of judgment. The spin of worry / obsessional thinking must be observed without judgment. This takes a compassionate neutral place within our Being. This place requires cultivation. Once the force of a witness is sufficiently cultivated we become aware when we are obsessing and have an expectation for a negative outcome.
A conscious breath may be enough to interrupt the pattern for a second. The use of distraction, moving out pattern of thinking to feelings of hope and joy may help us shift out of the pattern. Repeated efforts along these lines are necessary throughout our lives because of the hard-wiring of our brain explained above. For a better habit to replace a bad habit- especially one that is hardwired into our brains must be continually practiced.
I have noticed that breakthroughs into other worlds and even into a “place” beyond time are possible.
In 1984 I experienced a number of transformative experiences that by ordinary criteria were very odd.
In my dreams over the course of a week and a half I had had experiences of lying down and becoming the surface of the earth. The first was from my home in Northern California to New Orleans, the second to off the east coast of Florida. The third was at the eastern shores of Africa, the fourth was the Arabian Sea near Kenya and the fifth was the Indian Ocean. On the sixth night my head was in Sonoma and my feet off the east coast of Australia near New Zealand. My body was Earth – at least the surface anyway.
Next I felt my feet and ankles in Uranium mines in Utah, New Mexico and Arizona. When my feet and ankles were in Arizona a council of four to seven Navajo Elders appeared to me [at the time of the dream I recognized them as Indigenous peoples of the aforementioned states above]. For three nights of dreams they regarded me without speaking. I didn’t speak either. On the fourth night the asked me if I would help heal the earth where the Uranium mines was – mostly in Arizona. I agreed.
Seven years later the 1984 dreams seem related to one of a number of skin conditions.
Initially I pursued Allopathic Medicine (the AMA) for a solution. I tried homeopathic next and it ultimately worked. On the distal side of my right ankle there was a mound about 3.5 inches long and 1.5 inches wide and .5 inches high that resembled Ayers Rock / Uluru in Australia. It wept and itched constantly. At night I’d put band-aides over my fingernails to refrain from scratching. It occurred to me that this might have been a metaphorical result of having my ankles in Uranium mines in the dreamtime of 1984.
I don’t even know how to write about this that makes any sense. First I opened myself to remember an experience I had had in November of 2001 see: https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2017/02/24/remembering-the-future/ “Traveling” to a future to the beginning of the formation of the planet and further “back”.
Presently catalysts have begun to appear to trigger more details of a future I feel is coming into being. Many people are hungry for a future that feels secure – a future based on the security of a known present, events, relationships and experiences transplanted into a utopian reality that is easily recognized as familiar experiences with cool tech. That kind of future is based on what is already knowable and belongs to a finite linear reality that is hard-wired into our prefrontal cortex and limbic systems. It belongs to ego and language. It has a “me” and a “not me”. It has beginnings, middles and ends and is a finite closed loop that our ego finds safe. The future I feel within is vastly different and unrecognizable by our present standards.
Being is not so easy to describe without losing it’s meaning in the linear based reality of language and ego, but it’s a starting place. The way of Being is a way of understanding future while eliminating “future events” and the need for any future at all. Being time is now where the past are memories of pasts existing in our present. Futures are unfulfilled memories (based on content), expectations, probabilities, possibilities, anticipations and the like that are projections that exist in the present. Everything is happening right now.
Being is a state of consciousness that has no attachment to relationships, events, possessions and the like. Being is consciousness.
Eventually the state of Being gets interpreted by ego which in-turn analyzes associations based on emotion and conjectures something in a linear based future. I believe that taking political actions from a progressive base is a way of co-creating the future with others and that this action has instigated an organic spiritual being of the future to join with my corporeal body to support this future.
We have come to regard the past – beyond written history as primitive because of an assumption based on technology and the threads of human evolution. We live powerlessly in wild hopes or dismal fears of a future due to assumptions we make about “the past” and “the future” instead of learning to grow in our Being in an all encompassing Present. Consciousness when anchored to time evolves through history as a spiral returning to its starting point. Go far enough into the past or the future and arrive at your starting place in the present.
Its not quite the starting place in the present if Being has evolved. Being exists both in the world of time and outside of time. When I work on growing Being in myself time begins to pop-out and Being connects with the Cosmic Consciousness that exists beyond time. The spiral of time enters a higher octave due to an expansion of consciousness.
Impressions of this future (not necessarily based in a linear time-space continuum and could emerge all at once):
~ The seed of oneness returns and as a result the connective tissue being all beings is uncovered and deeply experienced as a positive regard or love between all beings.
~ People think in complete thoughtforms.
~ All work is based on community exchange where money does not exist. [This seems like a nice fantasy but difficult to imagine – no banks, no stock exchange, no cash in my wallet or purse, no credit cards, etc. ] 
~ What I do for or to another I do for or to myself with immediate consequences that are reflected positively, neutrally, or negatively. This happens now but not on a global scale not with all communities everywhere. [This makes oppression impossible. Fears diminish significantly.]
~ Work is done for pleasure and the desire to learn and enrich others and our selves.
As technology evolves the future of work as we know it is diminishing. Climate Change requires that we work together in community to resolve a problem that is an imminent threat for the survival of the human species.
This Being of the Future within me is growing and evolving. When I am connected with this Being forces of her/his energy get pumped out through my limbs to the world at large. This is a work in progress with updates to chronicle the Being within me that helps me and us all to embody the future.
(NOTE: Some of the material was previously posted from December 2016 see link below)
In the summer of 1968 I was with my family on Cape Cod near the Nauset Lighthouse. One day I walked five miles up the coast to sand dunes. It was there I had a peak experience of everyone on the planet connected by love and light.
I was “seeing” Earth from space where all was connected by light (and love). I felt oneness with all ~ ecstasy!
In 1984 I was in a leadership training course. Our group was team building on a Ropes Course near Woodland, California. One of our teammates was up in the trees preparing to jump onto a wobbly platform, supported in a safety harness by two burly fellows on the ground and two support people in the trees. Our support consisted of us yelling like rabid cheerleaders at her. It made no sense to me so I projected the supportiveness of my heart energy into the trees and towards her.
Something happened that I hadn’t expected.
I saw light coursing through the trunks and branches of the trees. Looking at the light streaming so quickly through the trees was intense.
I looked down. I looked at the ground and then at the bare skin on my left arm.
I saw inside my arm. Where blood was pumping through the arteries and veins I saw light pulsing. Light from a near by leafy bush (the leaves were tender and sweet to look at) extended a cloudy plasmic field of light around my arm as if to comfort me.
At that time it was too intense for me to process it and I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy. When I opened by eyes moments later I saw what I had expected to see – all was normal and reassuring.
Occasionally I think about the arc of my life as a rainbow of possibilities replete with connections, connections of the heart to friends, relatives and lovers… Tonight I feel filled with love, blessed to live in community. I feel incredibly wealthy and blessed. Thank-you.
The community in Sonoma and in the world for all that I have touched and whose hearts have touched mine. The connections through the WordPress blogs, Facebook and Medium to name a few are also heartfelt. I am deeply grateful and honored.When I dip into the breath and down into meditation the web and weave of a greater consciousness seems to open. In that opening I have glimpsed destiny based on synchronicities, karma, perception and the oneness of the heart. It is as if my life has been written as I surrender into a higher consciousness letting go of ego for those briefest of moments.
In 1990 when I asked the question – “God what should I do with my life?” and the subsequent “answer” that led to a place of choice. I could have continued to pursue what “I” (ego) wanted to do – make video, write unsuccessful screenplays and continue to work as a Crisis Counselor or…
I could surrender to a life as a “seer” and healer. So I surrendered. However that initial act of surrender wasn’t the only one. My rebellious and bratty ego keeps making himself known and this requires continual acts of surrender to the path.
I wish I could adequately describe the feelings of sweetness connected to the act of surrender. However the 1990 act of surrender wasn’t my first. My ego remembers all the seemingly magical acts of surrender, and there were many that were failed or seemed not to produce any obvious results.
To arrive at a place in ourselves where surrender is possible other avenues of work are required to generate the energy of beingness necessary for the sacrifice in the surrender process.
Avenues of work on oneself:
Struggle: Most people have an onerous association to struggle and avoid it. Most of our struggles are successful and easy. Getting out of bed in the morning, or driving to work etc. Paying taxes may be a task we put off – so that may be an odious struggle.
Struggle is the battle between “Yes” and “No”. The cultivation of the Witness observer self helps in two ways: it allows non-attachment to develop and the observer / witness can create energy from the friction of the struggle.
Help: Most people ask for help much as a child would ask an adult for help in the same way people ask for help from God, the Divine, the Universe etc. Many people expect help will arrive because they asked and that the help will arrive in a clearly recognizable way. Help can come when we make space for it and are attentive to the ways in which it can arrive and how we respond to it.
Learning: Learning can come from books. Deeper learning comes from direct contact with a Master and /or teacher.
Surrender or Sacrifice: This can only happen in the present moment. It involves a surrender of thought, feeling and motion (somatic knowing). It involves letting go of expectation and fears. When ego is released the Witness or Observer self may be present.
In 1982 will participating with 50 or so individuals in a practice of a Gurdjieff Sacred Dance – The Great Prayer, during the last twenty minutes I experienced a divine presence “doing” the movement while my Witness Self observed. This was an ineffable experience where to use words to describe it would denigrate it.