Sunday – The Gateway 7-28-19

 

The inconjunct or quincunx is a 150 degree angle. When two inconjunct angles focus on a planet or asteroid approaching from opposite directions and joined by a sextile angle of 60 degrees. This is called a Yod. When multiple Yods are configured in a chart in a certain manner a Star of David can manifest. This is an uncommon event. Below is a Star of David absent one sextile of a 5 basic triangular yods (duplicated x1 to make 6 yods).

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Figure 1 almost a “Star of David”

 

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Mars / Juno and Moon inconjunct Saturn

Social/Political – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power, could represent a power struggle of an explosive nature that is both passionate and stubborn with breakthrough elements of heart-oriented action

Personal – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power could represent a breakthrough in a power struggle at work or in your personal life. Get in-touch with your emotions utilizing passion and balanced emotions to confront authority.

 

Neptune and Saturn inconjunct Mars / Juno 

Social/Political – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power, when the power is balanced great advances can be made, when a controlling obsessive-compulsive is present then the destiny element of this ‘finger of god” may be blocked deception may be used to seize power illicitly. On the higher plain high ideals and authority/accomplishment can motivate actions that combine with partnership energies to breakthrough illusions of deceptions to bring darker or shadowy elements to justice.

Personal – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power. Today avoid using mind-altering drugs or alcohol as they may help cement illusions and delusions and allow you to feel deceived by anyone you have ceded power to or are in a struggle with, this could happen between friends or in a close intimate relationship creating strife and conflict on the lower vibrational end. On a higher plane when the energies are balanced then the powers of crisp spiritual mysteries and an ownership of your own story can allow you a feeling of divine safety in actions especially those related to cooperative partnerships.

 

Neptune and Vesta inconjunct Pallas Athena 

Social/Political – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power. On the higher vibrational side this could indicate a spiritual base service coupled with a driving commitment to champion the oppressed and/or vulnerable. On the lower side this could portend use of dark energies with the use of drugs or powerful illusions to punish the oppressed and/or vulnerable peoples in the world.

Personal – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power. This a good day to avoid the use of mind altering drugs or alcohol. Practice mindfulness – remember yourself and your breath as you ground and work on being of service to the vulnerable aspects of yourself and others. By applying this sensitivity you can act as an example bringing inspiration to being of service to your higher self. By not doing reality checks – practicing good communication skills you could fall prey to wanting to control indulging in righteous fashion.

 

Jupiter and Pallas Athena inconjunct Vesta 

Social/Political – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power. International beneficent forces and the power of the oppressed unite today to give birth to a new energy of service that could work on multi-levels: 1. Open new financial markets and opportunities for investments; 2. Allow yin and/or feminine service energies to accept help from the international community and create a birth of new powerful movement of empowerment for the oppressed and vulnerable; and 3. Create a new world-wide movement to free expression. The reverse could also be true on a lower vibrational scale – utilizing a power and money to suppress movements towards freedom.

Personal – Yod or a “finger of god” fated aspect of great power. By allowing for inspiration to occur without excessive grandiosity there can be a rebirth in friendships and intimate relationships. On the lower side – identifying and becoming attached to the need to be right, indecisive and rigid is a way to stop communication and put up walls. If you find this happening, go within and find the core of your innocent, remind yourself of what inspires you and how that inspiration is connected to others.

Tam Junction and The Mountain

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Not Mount Tamalpais

In the 1990s a client living in a part of Mill Valley known as Tam Junction told me this story and asked me what it meant:

They were awakened in the wee hours of the morning by a thundering sound and all the dogs in the neighborhood barking fiercely. They said it sounded like tanks grinding up the street. The whole house was shaking and rattling. They went outside to see what was happening.

They said:

“An object – flat on the bottom about the size of three football fields glided above the house and ‘went through trees’ as if they didn’t exist.”

“Why didn’t anyone else wake up?” (clearly they were more sensitive than the others)

“Well what do you suppose it means?”

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I “looked”. In their auric field I saw that the object was a giant space craft whose dimensional cloaking device was intermittently malfunctioning. The beings I saw in the space craft were three humans and two aliens. The craft was not totally in our dimension and so appeared to “pass-through” trees.  It’s faster than light drive was partially damaged. It flew around Mt Tam over the Pacific Ocean several miles turned and using the powers of the crystalline mountain Mount Tamalpais opened a portal.

It jumped through the portal which bent light and time over Mill Valley, and dumped waste material over Belvedere and Tiburon before completely disappearing.

Coincidentally the county weekly newspaper The Pacific Sun reported that the incidence of breast cancer was higher than any place in the nation in the Belvedere and Tiburon areas about a year later.

Learning and Transformation: Sacrifice Part 3 of 4

Review of parts 1 and 2 – Learning and Struggle 

Both learning and struggle as discussed in the previous two parts belong to the mundane world in as much as everyone learns and struggles. Most mundane learning and struggling is fruitless because the state of humans are more interested in comfort than truth, although any healthy ego might say “I want both.”

person performing fire dance at nightLearning and struggling when applied with the aim of truth for expanded consciousness, for example involve years of hard work.

Sacrifice and Help 

The second two of the four sources belong to the principles of mystery and the divine. Mystery is unfathomable and cannot be explained. Attempts to explain mystery destroys it. In our current epoch the divine is thought of in a parental manner where God bestows grace and divinity upon us as children. The notion of receiving the grace of the divine as children means that we feel we owe no payment in return. Out of this attitude notions of getting something for nothing out of entitlement arises. Nothing need be done to sacrifice or ask for help from the divine without payment. The divine aspects of sacrifice and help will become more evident in this piece and in part four.

 

Sacrifice 

Part of the mindset of much modern spiritual nomenclature rejects the word and idea of sacrifice as too harsh and “old world”. It would rather replace the word with “surrender” which implies a process of gracefulness, softness so that it eschews the edges of sacrifice and thereby misses the point.

Sacrifice in most ways is the opposite of struggle. In struggle separation occurs first followed by choice. In other words: I am confronted by something I don’t like doing, I do it and the friction of choosing to do it creates energy. Sacrifice is an act of will or choice from which separation comes and one relinquishes control in the moment regardless of consequences. Sacrifice is a payment without a transaction. A transaction is a payment for goods or services. A sacrifice is payment without expectation for goods, services or anything. A sacrifice once completed is not talked, written or broadcast in any way.

A Partial Example of Sacrifice

The following would have been a sacrifice were it not foolishly reported here:

I was fairly new to California and systems of parking. I lived in an apartment building, that did not have off street parking. I would park as close to the car in-front of me, lock and walk away.

A man started yelling at me from across the street:

“You’re parking wrong.” I told him I was not.

“You’re supposed to park in-between the lines.”

“What lines?” He pointed vigorously at the street:

“Those lines.”

“Other cars aren’t that way,” I pointed out starting to get more entitled.

“Can you even see the lines?” his face was turning red.

I looked at the lines and saw that he was right and I said:

“You’re right. I’ll move my car.” I moved my car to between the lines.

After that he wanted to be my best friend – he couldn’t stop talking, invited me to Golds’ Gym (underneath the apartment building). I thanked him and politely said no and went inside never to see him again.

In the moment I chose to move my car and park it correctly between the lines on the street I sacrificed my position. I was at peace with myself, contained and present. All the force had gone out of the argument. He didn’t know what to do with the energy so he spent it talking and offering me a gift.

Sacrifices when claimed by ego are no longer sacrifices. In my example my ego was saying aren’t I just great for sacrificing my righteousness and allowing myself to look weak in front of this guy. I abdicated the sacrifice by broadcasting it and implicitly pointing to my “greatness”.

Sacrifice and Decision

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When sacrifice is carried out by choice or decision without expectation of result the most common result is freedom. With enough practice with all the four sources [learning, struggle, sacrifice and help] within the context of autogenic training the freedom experienced after most sacrifices does not have to be frittered away; it can be used for more inner work.

Most sacrifice comes as a result of choice or decision. Sacrifices by choice occur in the moment at a precise time when it feels right, when the timing is right. A sacrifice by decision comes before we are confronted with an argument. This is an act of will. The suspension of ego by decision allows will to flow through us and this is experienced as a force or a divine force.

Some sacrifice is not voluntary. This usually happens after the death of a loved one. One can rebel against the death through denial, suppression of feelings reproach and so one that keeps us stuck in the moments before or at the moment of death. If we renunciate our feelings we sacrifice the grief and sadness and begin to move on. And without expecting it we are able to maintain connection with the one that has passed as an unexpected result.

Guidelines for sacrifice: 

  1. A desire for reward destroys sacrifice.
  2. Bargaining does not enter into sacrifice.
  3. Do or do not: sacrifice is all or should not be done because it is not a true sacrifice.
  4. Sacrifice must be something you consider precious.
  5. Search yourself for attachments and ask if you can sacrifice them.
  6. Sacrifice can be made for a good reason, but never for a result.
  7. Sacrifice is never about struggle, it is decision
  8. Keep your sacrifices to yourself.

 

End Notes

  1. *Transformation by J.G Bennett p. 39-45, published by The Claymont Society for Continuous Education copyright 1978.
  1. for further reading: A Primer – Autogenic Training
  2. see also Learning and Transformation Part 2 of 4
  3. see also Learning and Transformation Part 1 of 4

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some problems with consciousness, humans and the human brain

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Inevitable Reductionistic Thinking    Trying to explain consciousness from a neurobiological and / or a quantum physics frame is one of reductionistic directionality. Each discipline looks to the brain as the origin of consciousness. A human perspective quite naturally seeks to reduce in order to explain and this is natural from the ego perspective of control.

Consciousness is everywhere and permeates everything and the spaces between everything [see end note 1]. And therein lies the rub. Consciousness is space-time. It’s impossible to grasp from an ordinary level of consciousness with ego functioning. This concept of consciousness is bigger than any concept. Even if consciousness was only a finite substance it would be impossible to jam it into something as small as a human brain.

Human Life as a Transceiver of Conscious and some Contiguous Blocks     The human brain is a transceiver of consciousness in the current form of recycled thinking and memories that make a core attachment to a self in one lifetime. Memory and habits built from memory create attachment built on illusion but thought to be “real”.

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We can’t help to pictorially reduce “a picture” of memory from a storage device,  but shared memory in the larger neural net is infinite.

When people die and leave their bodies they become a part of a larger consciousness but often do not directly perceive the larger consciousness do to their attachment to their most recent incarnate self. As they live and function within this higher consciousness state that exists outside of time and space and yet has a relationship to time and space. It’s very difficult for us as humans to perceive a level of functioning without time or space. Corporeal existence is predicated on the boundaries of time and space in a finite reality at least with immediate perceptions.

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Evidence of evolving consciousness in the finite world may be impossible to measure, but it may be known in the consciousness state after death. In space-time we eat food to survive and maintain ourselves and our bodies digest food and make energy. Where is the consciousness that is aware of the energy-making process from the digestion of food? It doesn’t ordinarily exist. The analogy here is the same of the absorption of energy into the state of “life-after-death”.

  • Conscious suffering (without attachment) creates energy
  • With work energy may be stored for a continued creation of energy
  • The energy is light.
  • Upon death energy or light is absorbed into the consciousness
  • Consciousness evolves

Almost 100 percent of suffering is unconscious and is wasted. Attachment to suffering whether noble or ignoble (positive or negative) is nearly inconsequential with regard to making energy. Some individuals through fear and/or anger use up the energy needed to “cross” to “the other side” and so remain here as ghosts. Much of the love – light – energy created can be cancelled out by negative emotions preventing passage, but if enough light-energy remains a passage may occur to “the other side” [see end note 2]. Releasing attachment to suffering doesn’t mean that the suffering will not cause pain, anguish and grief to name a few. Also, there is no automatic release of energy from a release of attachment that floats into higher consciousness. If attachment is released and the ego gets hold of the sensation then talk about it inevitably follows (a different sort of attachment) and the energy is wasted.

Humans, Memory, Consciousness and Attachment                   Attachment is the block to enlightenment and is needed for enlightenment.

Attachment to thoughts and feelings that compose the consciousness of the core self may be the definition of the human self in corporeal form. Memory plays a key role in assisting and reinforcing attachment to a core self and / or ego. Formation of memories and our attachment to them give our identity a place in space-time. Memory is the foundation of linear time as our existence. Without attachment and memory there would be no sense of self and no time, at least as we currently define it. Attachment may not exist without memory, and consciousness is also bound by memory.

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Incarnation from one life to another is often an interruption of memory of a previous life or lives and those memories that immediately preceded birth. During the “life after death” process it could be that the attachment to the previous life is released enough so that an individual consciousness can separate from the whole and be reborn. It could be that no identity or a sketchy identity exists so that when conception occurs life before is either forgotten or obliterated. Or it could be that there may be conception trauma: a formless consciousness is suddenly attached to a fertilized egg and the resulting trauma severs the connection to all that happened before and to the larger formless consciousness.

Forgetting could serve a purpose of creating a new self not entirely based on old attachments and allowing a chance for energy to be created for higher consciousness.

The separation from a possible oneness sensation in higher consciousness in order to return to it after death allows spaces for energy to be formed and stored to be “eaten” by higher consciousness.

Humans are currently attached to the idea that we are humans and there is importance in being a human. Higher Consciousness allows humans to be created repeatedly through reincarnation with a hope that an awareness will grow into a force of consciousness while in human form to feed the higher and perhaps achieve enlightenment.

The nature of being human is to be attached. This is neither bad nor good. When we begin to become aware of our attachment and work on releasing it in the moment, knowing it will come back to us when we think or know ourselves – our ego – when we think or say: “I”, “me” “mine”. When repeated actions to release attachment occur through our work a greater awareness becomes available and eventually states of, or a continuum of enlightenment may manifest.

As humans in the current vibrational cycle on the low side in the chaos pattern of transformation the common belief is that we are all separate. The world right now is straining and breaking the concept of separateness so clues of unity are emerging and becoming evident. Still there are many fearful peoples hanging tenaciously to the illusion of separateness – from the Newtonian mechanics of cause and effect. And while that is true from a limited finite mindset, the ideas of quantum mechanics are emerging from the background. One tenet of the quantum world is that consciousness creates the world around us and that matter and energy are connected. Knowing that we are not separate many save us from many existential world threats.

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Examining memory related illnesses can reveal how consciousness, memory and time are connected. Dementia and Alzheimer’s are clear examples of how persons with this disease lose their sense of self and time through savage memory losses. Dementia appears to be less savage than Alzheimer’s because a sense of self is maintained over a longer period in a variety of age regressive memories or selves. Alzheimer’s seems more aggressive because it destroys the memory of self much more quickly than dementia.

I had an opportunity to have lunch with a family where an elder male was in the middle to late stage of Alzheimer’s. At the time it didn’t feel like an opportunity but a battle for survival. His personality was confused and frantic partially because there was no place in his body while in a crowded restaurant to find home. He repeatedly attacked my body’s perimeter. I had to coax him back into his own body. When we finally left the restaurant, he returned to near his own body and was lightly tethered there like a horse outside a saloon in an old western tv show. The attack was persistent, wild, chaotic, confused and desperate but not personal. I was firm in protecting my space and not letting him in and insistent on him going back to his body with some healing to help him stay.

The opportunity came after the incident in as much as there is an electromagnetic field that supports our neural net outside the brain. It is social and identifies with the safety of friends and family. His neural net was looking for home. He could not find it in his own family because they were emotionally chaotic within themselves in the midst the chaos of the general business of the restaurant. He found it (home) in my calm demeanor as a healer and shaman.

 

Some end notes

Consciousness is everywhere.

Our brains and the perceptual facilities our brains, egos, memory and space-time affords us are the synaptic hubs where consciousness is processed through a biological human self.

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From a larger perspective we sample each life from a large and formless consciousness that is infinite that feeds the individual in a finite context. This limited context is life as we ordinarily know it. When we can release our attachments to suffering and allow the friction of approach-avoidance conflicts inherent in all suffering to be released energy can be created and stored. It can be stored for the honing of consciousness within our biological human life form to be carried with us into the afterlife.

When we have created enough energy throughout many incarnations we then have a choice whether to return to life on Earth or continue the adventure of consciousness in the largest of venues – in the infinite.


Note 1:

In reality there is no space between objects that isn’t already connected via electromagnetic energy or by some other force to something else. The “space” within our arms for example is the space in atoms which can be perceived as a particle or wave depending how one perceives it.

 

Note 2:

Humanoid Consciousness expressed itself repeatedly through many lives in an effort to release the attachment to suffering and work to create energy. If the energy created is stored then its release happens upon death into a greater consciousness.

Road-Map Eyes

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Photo by Alex Montes on Pexels.com

 

In my twenties I lived in a cooperative house, almost commune-like in some ways. I arrived home from a long road-trip and one of my housemates said of me: “the man with the Road-Map Eyes”. I didn’t think much of it has the time except that I laughed.

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In April of 2008 a student invited me to come see the Dali Lama in a five-day celebration in Seattle. We attended a few seminars and a dialog between the Dali Lama and Dave Matthews before thousands of people.

We’re lost

My student drove me around in his BMW – we were taking a short-cut through a neighborhood where all the houses and streets looked the same. I hadn’t been paying close attention to where we were. I was idling gazing at the neighborhoods.

“We’re lost,” he said frustrated. I immediately looked at his GPS read-out.

“It’s not working,” he said irritated and embarrassed. “I guess we’re going to be late,” he said resigned to it all.

Is this where you want to be?

I shifted my position in the passenger’s seat and looked at the street.

“I think I can get you to where you want to go,” I said.

“Okay,” he was hesitant.

a matter of trust and surrender

I gave him a series of directions:

right, left, drive 300 yards to the end of this street, go left and take your first hard right.

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Google Earth screenshot of Seattle, Washington neighborhood streets

As soon as we were on the “main drag” I asked:

“Is this where you want to be?”

“Yeah. How did you do that?” He was flabbergasted.

“I don’t know. I’ve always had a good sense of direction. When I was in my 20s one of my housemates said I was ‘the Man with The Road-Map Eyes’.”

“But how did you know this is where I wanted to end up?”

“I don’t know. I sensed it, I guess.”

“Amazing.”

“Not really. I’ve been doing it all my life. It’s a matter of trust and surrender into something I think we all know.”

 

I just read:

Scientists Prove That Humans Can Sense Earth’s Magnetic Field

acknowledging the sense that I have had and probably you too…

other views of time travel

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One: Consciousness Displacement in Space-Time

The best and perhaps the only way to time travel without running into paradoxes or strange causality loops is consciousness transfer (And I’m not discussing consciousness travel to occupy or usurp the body of another being as in the science fiction TV series on Netflix: Travelers.). Conscious transfer or more rudimentarily described as remote viewing.

Remote viewing is viewing through time-space at something in the distant past or future without leave the present in body/mind.

Consciousness transfer is a little more complicated. A person’s body stays in the present. The person tethers their plasma or spirit body to their physical body and travels backwards or forwards in time-space to observe.

Each of the two modes of time travel into past or future realities exist in observational mode only.

 

Two: Corporeal Bi-Location

Bi-location has been known to exist in a consciousness transfer mode where one person projects their consciousness back in time so that others of that time period see that person.

Corporeal Bi-Location is a process where a human being projects their consciousness along with mind, emotion and their physical body to a different place in space-time – past or future. Ostensibly a person could project themselves into multiple places and interact with others from each of the places they project themselves into.

 

Three: Physical Time Travel

This part is tricky due to linear thinking and the perceptions of history within a time-line.

There are several assumptions that make this kind of time travel possible. Some ideas, not necessarily in order:

  1. We live in a coarse, seemingly cause and effect finite space-time reality (call it C-1)
  2. Bundled around the coarse reality are finite and infinite potential realities that emerge in and out of quantum realities; and these in-turn interact with our coarse reality – the one in which we all seem quite familiar and appears known. Finite Potential Reality FP-1, FP-2 and so on… Infinite Potential Reality IP-1, IP-2 and so on…
  3. Finite realities exist temporarily by definition and can exist in a potential world of Newtonian Physics or in a potential world of Quantum Physics
  4. Finite realities can merge with infinite realities but continue to remain finite whereas Infinite realities can merge with finite realities and become finite realities and this always occurs in Quantum realities. These kinds of mergings happen in the coarse reality but they are either above or below the strata of our perceptual fields.
  5. There are likely an infinite number of quantum realities that surround and permeate us, but it’s likely according to some physicists that there are only nine quanta realities that are bundled around our coarse reality.
  6. Historical events seem contiguous because of the organizing principles of language, thought and reality building known as consensual history, but they are not. The intelligence of infinite and finite realities that wrap around coarse reality shape history as potentialities merging and separating from coarse reality in micro and macro modalities. Illusory elements of thought that construct reality from a narrow bandwidth of the 9 potential realities that intersect our coarse reality are remade into history so as to give the illusion of continuity.

 

We make many assumptions about “The Past” based on a consensus from a certain point of view. We believe that events in “the past” cause events throughout history to end up a certain way in our “present”. We believe that space-time is a thing or process that happens or unfolds naturally. We don’t believe that space-time is alive or has consciousness including thought and emotion as well as an electromagnetic body. To change a past event that will carry through to the present a significant amount of energy in terms of thought, emotion and physical / electromagnetic force must be present during a “past” space-time event. That force must change the coarse reality and all subsequent finite and infinite potential realities to create a new timeline. The old timeline will cease to exist. If there is not enough energy to change a past coarse reality that reality will appear the same in the present.

If John Wilkes Booth was prevented from killing President Lincoln, then Lincoln may have been assassinated by another or died in a different way. Lincoln may have become inconsequential in other events so as not to have impacted history due to the emotional, physical and intellectual presence of space-time in that timeline if a future person attempted to alter history.

Thought, emotion and an enormous physical force must be created to create a new timeline and destroy the old one. To generate the physical force one or more asteroid impacts on earth’s surface or the explosions of many thermonuclear devices coupled with emotion and thought for the timeline to be radically different and let the old one die.

Higher forms of thought are generated by humans, however other mammals such as primates, dolphins, elephants and whales have highly developed emotional-somatic-thought systems, so to exclude them from space-time travel in the bundle of 9 realities plus 1 is arrogant.

 

 

The Strength of Innocence and Vulnerablity

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Context

 It’s important to be acknowledged and validated. Through skillful uses of vulnerabilities our innocence may be revealed establishing a greater presence concurrent with strengthened sensitivities and a renewed connectivity.

The necessity of heralding the benefits of innocence and vulnerability originates from a society that buries these qualities under masks of suppression and repression to project false fronts of strength and as a result makes secrets. This breeds an unhealthy emotional life that is systemic in this hierarchical culture. Part of the old guard – example – the New England mindset was never to show weakness – shed a tear, admit making a mistake and so on. Many modern peoples believe weeping to be a weakness when sad. One of the meta-rules of modern culture is not to show vulnerable emotions such as tearfulness or weeping in any setting. The one exception may be a man shedding a tear in the presence of a woman partner.

innocence and vulnerability have been denigrated throughout systemic patriarchal culture

The human culture has been one of projecting strength while denying vulnerability particularly in men and also in woman especially as they gain leadership roles in business, as professionals and in government. Due to the suppression or repression of innocence and vulnerability secrets grow in strength and unconscious aberrations of these secrets are vented as a result.

A simple form of unconscious venting is projection. One day when my mother came into my bedroom and was about to say something I burst into tears for no apparent reason. She said – don’t cry, act like a man. The grief I had felt wasn’t my own and she then shamed me for it and I felt confused and shamed. When simple projection becomes projective identification, the person receiving repeated projections is passive and may feel the identity of the other within themselves (see note at the end of this piece).

innocence at the core of the individual emanates from the essence of the person

In short innocence and vulnerability have been denigrated throughout systemic patriarchal culture. What happens when innocence and vulnerability are taken out of the closet and are utilized in daily social interactions?

 

What is innocence?

At the core of almost every individual innocence abides throughout the corporeal existence between birth and death. Innocence belongs to the infinite and is a part of being (see diagram below).

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The loss of innocence as described in psychological theory and in literature confuses infinite innocence with innocence reframed by ego. Innocence (from Being) remains and is forgotten. It is forgotten because ego, linear space-time and language in the finite world rides roughshod over innocence that appears ephemeral and illusive because we have no language for it.

masks that give the appearance of strength, dull emotion behind the fear / avoidance of hurt

Shoshin a word from Zen Buddhism meaning “beginner’s mind” denotes an attitude of openness, a boundless thirst for exploration and a lack of preconceptions. “Beginner’s mind” is innocence that springs from an eternity in the present or a beingness.

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A shamanistic perspective of innocence at the core of the individual emanates from the essence of the person. The essence is a frequency of light that runs near the spinal column to the skull. It enters through the top of the skull and streams out of the end of the spine at the tailbone. The essence is the core of a person separate from ego that is most evident in a child before language develops and up to age seven when ego-identity is fixed. It is usually at this juncture that essence and innocence begin to fade.

Setting strong and flexible boundaries, allowing for times of vulnerability can lead to skills of navigating

Essence and innocence appear in many peoples’ lives but almost always by accident because ego appears to exercise control in the finite realm. On occasion when ego becomes lax innocence and essence appear and a sense of magic, mystery and the divine seem to enter.

A spiritual practice and daily inner work are necessary for cultivating a space to exercise essence and innocence to grow and mature.

 

What is vulnerability?

Think of innocence as a state of being and vulnerability as a kind of fluidic action that opens to innocence. Vulnerability is a kind of currency that moves from the seeming closed and acceptable state of so-called “strength” of the finite world of ego to an opening of innocence in the infinite world of essence.

Continued masks that give the appearance of strength, dull emotion behind the fear / avoidance of hurt. The muscles of emotion along with the balance of beginner’s mind atrophies reducing sensitivity and connectivity. Individuals that are maturing emotionally can begin to take risks to be vulnerable, get hurt and recover. This is about utilizing and strengthening ego on the way to mastery.

finding a safe space within oneself

Setting strong and flexible boundaries, allowing for times of vulnerability can lead to skills of navigating in an emotional landscape even amongst those who are expert at hiding any feelings behind logic and reason. Even those who wield the mask of logic and intellect have emotions that are hidden and perhaps locked away. Sometimes by skillfully allowing oneself to be vulnerable it tacitly gives permission for others in social settings to relax their guard. Sometimes vulnerability when coupled with humor whether that be a witty or self-effacing comment, the armor that others hold can be loosened. A vulnerable leader can get a sense of the emotional temperature or climate of a social space. This can be useful in either attracting someone that wishes to share or someone that craves contact.

Using mild humor, witticisms, self-effacing statements or lines where laughing is elicited is a way of managing when you may have been too vulnerable. Laughter like crying releases emotional distress. Laughter, of course is socially acceptable while crying is not. Humor and laughter cannot be planned (unless you take the ultimate leap of stand-up comedy – but no guarantees). It takes self-trust and a willingness to release something unexpected in a social context even if it is only one to one communication. Enrolling in an improvisational acting and or humor class can be helpful in accelerating uses of vulnerability in informal social settings as well as being “a ton of fun”.

In the beginning of exploring emotional landscapes one might work on finding a safe space within oneself, then expanding that space to one or two others. As a man who arose from extreme social awkwardness it took me many years to begin to access the emotional temperature of others at a party for instance. It wasn’t until my mid 40s that I began to tolerate and trust myself enough to explore my vulnerability in social situations. It took work throughout my 30s, 40s and 50s. And the work is never completed.

when ego has gained sufficient maturity can vulnerability be used skillfully

As an empath I tend to absorb the chaotic, joyful emotions and the vibrations of those drinking, smoking marijuana or using other substances though I no longer partake – am clean and sober. Now when I attend parties I arrive late usually in the middle of the evening and leave early. I contact the host or hostess to say a brief “hello” upon arrival. They’re usually busy serving and checking in with guests. I wait until I find one person of interest. Though the last time I was at a gathering the person found me. If I am at an ebullient party where wine and MJ are being imbibed, especially to excess I get a contact high off these energies (and I am nowhere nearly the smoke). If I am there from one to two hours at most then it takes me one to three hours of being alone to detox from the vibrations of the gathering.

Only when ego has gained sufficient maturity can vulnerability be used skillfully. However, the very nature of using vulnerability to open to innocence there is always a risk of emotional injury. Most people dare not expose themselves to avoid emotional injury and remain a person wearing a mask or shield. A young person in the throes of naiveté exposes themselves without regard to consequences. This is not being vulnerable – more a wild abandonment – a shot out of a cannon.

 

Some End Notes

Navigating emotions in social situations takes a modicum of self-awareness, trust in one-self, a strong ego with flexible boundaries and willing to take risks (become vulnerable). Taking risks means a willingness to be hurt emotionally and knowing you will recover and gain nuance in the skill set of vulnerability.

In the beginning it may be good to have an intention or a goal for possible vulnerability so you can get “the hang of it.” As you become more skilled with a higher functioning ego choosing when and how much to expose by being vulnerable will become easier. However, the risk will always be there.

Working with vulnerability, innocence and being is an art form that requires continued practice.

 

 

 

 

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The Karmic Full Moon in Libra

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The Moon with appear full on Thursday 4/19 and Friday 4/19

Any planet at 29 degrees of any sign is karmic because it is represents the penultimate energy of that sign about to complete itself as it moves into the next sign. Most people constrict in fear and trembling when the word karma is mentioned. Most of us associate karma with payback in a negative way. While that may be true there are positive paybacks as well.

Lunar cycles are about emotions. A new moon begins the cycle with planting seeds (when gravity’s pull down into the earth is stronger – especially true when a new moon is in an earth sign – Taurus for spring and summer crops; Virgo for fall and winter crops in the Northern Hemisphere – reversed in the Southern Hemisphere). Planting emotional seeds under a new moon can be harvested during a full moon.

The Full Moon (March 3, 2019 – 9:43 pm EDT in Washington, DC) was at zero degrees Libra and represented the peak of singular relationship with oneself borne of innocence presenting lessons to yang lead relationships, service to a higher ideal, and revolutionary power struggles. Relationships to struggling to expand the battle between yin and yang.

The New Moon occurred on Friday April 5, 2019 at 4:50 am EDT in Washington, DC. the day of planting emotional seeds. This beginning was a time of paying back karma on every level from the patriarch into the new world.

The Full Moon at 29 degrees 07 minutes Libra on Friday April 19, 2019 at 7:12 am EDT in Washington, DC is about yin energy reaching fulfillment and balance in relationships. Its the Goddess energy receiving energy from the old order while being in service to a new way of being in the world. The Goddess energies in women (and men plus all other gendered and non-gendered peoples) are receiving intensely powerful and expansive energies. Emotionally we are being transformed by completion energies and repressed secrets coming to light for a compassionate revolution to occur.  Goddess energies are being fed by receiving debt owed from held secrets made public or held in abeyance.

The transformation energies are impossible to avoid. Embrace them and let them flow through you or their manifestation may be more difficult in the future.

No fooling – The Best Career / Avocation Ever

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In the beginning…

Ever since I was very young I saw my mission to help relieve suffering in the world. I wanted to be a therapist and work to relieve suffering one person at a time. I studied Psychology in college and received a BA.

I began as a counselor.

In 1990 I received a calling, a mandate from God.

One night before retiring I asked God what I was supposed to do with my life. In the morning I had a waking experience that lead me to a woman that was thinking of killing herself. I listened with acceptance and did not offer advice. I was about to give her the names of therapists and groups to which she replied:

“The universe put you out there to hear my call and that’s all I needed.”

She chose to live and is alive today.

 

Further along…

As a counselor and later as a healer I have encountered peoples’ many personal realities. As a counselor in alternative mental health facilities for over 20 years I learned to listen deeply to others problems.

In the course of that work I began to let go of judgment.

When I felt their helpless I allowed myself to feel helpless with them without necessarily saying anything. Sometimes that appeared to have helped them.

Initiation…

All my life I have had bizarre experiences that have been “out-of-this-world”. I never spoke of them for fear of being condemned and shamed as “crazy” or “weird”.

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Gateway into Wonder

When I moved to California in 1982 I felt that the land and the mountains accepted me and that I had arrived home. The east-coast Connecticut Yankee critic in me was very harsh regarding the “foo-foo” impressions and thoughts running through my consciousness at that time. I continued to engage in inner “spiritual” work and observed this new consciousness within me.

In 1984 was a bizarre time for me. I saw light running like blood through trees. I had x-ray vision into my left arm where there was blood pumping there was light. A nearby plant extended its light over that very arm. I decided I was crazy – I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy. When I opened my eyes, everything returned to normal. For more follow the link: Connection to Nature via the Heart

A couple of months later I moved a pool skimmer that was caught-up on a wave-gutter of a backyard in-ground swimming pool without touching it – for more follow the link: Gateway into the Light

I saw a white-light come from friend’s heart to my heart about 20 feet away. I felt love and the warmth of friendship.

Not normal experiences.

Sacred privilege…

As it has always been with my work as a crisis and half-way house counselor the information shared remains confidential so it is with the many clients I have seen in my healing practice.

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Clients have come for a wide array of problems ranging from a concern over future events, physical / disease problems, opening to other worlds and many more. The intimacy I share with people is very sacred to me and I feel honored and blessed to be trusted so. I have found that there is something in me that always has transcended the Connecticut Yankee skeptic and critic inside to completely accept, honor and embrace a person’s reality with kindness and compassion. This has been a great blessing.

Each person brings the gift of their dilemma and with that a teaching for me. This completes a cycle of assisting them to solve a problem or problems while receiving a teaching. The cycle of giving and receiving is completed within each session that in-turn creates many blessings for me and the world at large.

Continually letting acceptance flow from me has taught me to embrace the shadow within, and to apply love and support to the parts of myself that I dislike and fear. The cycle of acceptance is a grace from a higher place where we all long to dwell.

When I complete a session, I feel vulnerable and in a trance of higher vibrational energies. The acceptance spills out imbued with love and compassion to include others throughout the world in a new kind of inclusiveness.

The feelings evoked are indescribably joyous.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gateway into the Light – 1984

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In the beginning I avoided the extraordinary experiences because of a respected teacher had said:

“Many psychic-type experiences will happen as you do ‘The Work’. Pay no attention to this and continue to do your inner work.” 

 spoken by Pierre Elliot Headmaster

of the Fifth Basic Course at Claymont School for Continuous Education

in August of 1981.

In 1981 I had started a house cleaning business incorporating my inner work or ‘The Work’ as within the tasks of cleaning in Connecticut.  Then I transferred the business to Stockton, California in 1982 and then to Sonoma, California in 1983.

On July 3rd of 1984 I was cleaning a summer residence. J’s household was around in the early afternoon and then would leave with the children and Grandpa to Costco in Santa Rosa. They left me alone to clean the house. The weather was odd on that summer day in Northern California, overcast, hot and humid.

I was finishing up in the back utility room by putting away supplies when I heard a commotion on the deck between the house and the garage. It was a dust devil or whirlwind. It had picked up the plastic chairs and tables about 12 to 15 feet in the air whirling around. I peered out of the window watching it when it suddenly stopped and all the furniture clattered back to the deck. I straightened it. I was tired and dirty from cleaning and I had wanted to go home when I heard an odd sound originating at their built-in swimming pool.

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The pool skimmer was caught up on the wave gutter of the pool. Wave gutters are normally for Olympic sized pools and one does not see them in backyard swimming pools very often. This pool skimmer was sputtering, a garden hose attached to its under belly.

I stood there examining the situation and finally said aloud to no one:

“I don’t feel like bending over and lifting it off.”

I felt an impression of a voice in my head say:

“You don’t have to do it that way.”

“Oh yeah,” I said feeling like an idiot for talking to myself, “What other way is there?”

No answer. A feeling or a sense swept over me.

I bent my knees slightly. I clenched my fists and bent my right elbow so that my right fist was near to my right shoulder. My left fist and left arm were extended by my left side. Using tension in both arms I reversed the positions and the skimmer moved off the lip of the wave gutter out towards the center of the pool.

“Nah,” I said aloud. The impression of the voice said: “Well, bring it back.”

I reversed my arms and it came back onto the wave gutter.

I freaked out. I ran to my car and ripped out of there thinking I was crazy.

In the summer of 1984 I experienced many odd things. I saw auras around people at times. While running, my spirit soared into the sky. I saw how light connected our hearts together and how that connected to the light of trees and plants and connected everyone with every being.