No fooling – The Best Career / Avocation Ever

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In the beginning…

Ever since I was very young I saw my mission to help relieve suffering in the world. I wanted to be a therapist and work to relieve suffering one person at a time. I studied Psychology in college and received a BA.

I began as a counselor.

In 1990 I received a calling, a mandate from God.

One night before retiring I asked God what I was supposed to do with my life. In the morning I had a waking experience that lead me to a woman that was thinking of killing herself. I listened with acceptance and did not offer advice. I was about to give her the names of therapists and groups to which she replied:

“The universe put you out there to hear my call and that’s all I needed.”

She chose to live and is alive today.

 

Further along…

As a counselor and later as a healer I have encountered peoples’ many personal realities. As a counselor in alternative mental health facilities for over 20 years I learned to listen deeply to others problems.

In the course of that work I began to let go of judgment.

When I felt their helpless I allowed myself to feel helpless with them without necessarily saying anything. Sometimes that appeared to have helped them.

Initiation…

All my life I have had bizarre experiences that have been “out-of-this-world”. I never spoke of them for fear of being condemned and shamed as “crazy” or “weird”.

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Gateway into Wonder

When I moved to California in 1982 I felt that the land and the mountains accepted me and that I had arrived home. The east-coast Connecticut Yankee critic in me was very harsh regarding the “foo-foo” impressions and thoughts running through my consciousness at that time. I continued to engage in inner “spiritual” work and observed this new consciousness within me.

In 1984 was a bizarre time for me. I saw light running like blood through trees. I had x-ray vision into my left arm where there was blood pumping there was light. A nearby plant extended its light over that very arm. I decided I was crazy – I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy. When I opened my eyes, everything returned to normal. For more follow the link: Connection to Nature via the Heart

A couple of months later I moved a pool skimmer that was caught-up on a wave-gutter of a backyard in-ground swimming pool without touching it – for more follow the link: Gateway into the Light

I saw a white-light come from friend’s heart to my heart about 20 feet away. I felt love and the warmth of friendship.

Not normal experiences.

Sacred privilege…

As it has always been with my work as a crisis and half-way house counselor the information shared remains confidential so it is with the many clients I have seen in my healing practice.

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Clients have come for a wide array of problems ranging from a concern over future events, physical / disease problems, opening to other worlds and many more. The intimacy I share with people is very sacred to me and I feel honored and blessed to be trusted so. I have found that there is something in me that always has transcended the Connecticut Yankee skeptic and critic inside to completely accept, honor and embrace a person’s reality with kindness and compassion. This has been a great blessing.

Each person brings the gift of their dilemma and with that a teaching for me. This completes a cycle of assisting them to solve a problem or problems while receiving a teaching. The cycle of giving and receiving is completed within each session that in-turn creates many blessings for me and the world at large.

Continually letting acceptance flow from me has taught me to embrace the shadow within, and to apply love and support to the parts of myself that I dislike and fear. The cycle of acceptance is a grace from a higher place where we all long to dwell.

When I complete a session, I feel vulnerable and in a trance of higher vibrational energies. The acceptance spills out imbued with love and compassion to include others throughout the world in a new kind of inclusiveness.

The feelings evoked are indescribably joyous.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gateway into the Light – 1984

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In the beginning I avoided the extraordinary experiences because of a respected teacher had said:

“Many psychic-type experiences will happen as you do ‘The Work’. Pay no attention to this and continue to do your inner work.” 

 spoken by Pierre Elliot Headmaster

of the Fifth Basic Course at Claymont School for Continuous Education

in August of 1981.

In 1981 I had started a house cleaning business incorporating my inner work or ‘The Work’ as within the tasks of cleaning in Connecticut.  Then I transferred the business to Stockton, California in 1982 and then to Sonoma, California in 1983.

On July 3rd of 1984 I was cleaning a summer residence. J’s household was around in the early afternoon and then would leave with the children and Grandpa to Costco in Santa Rosa. They left me alone to clean the house. The weather was odd on that summer day in Northern California, overcast, hot and humid.

I was finishing up in the back utility room by putting away supplies when I heard a commotion on the deck between the house and the garage. It was a dust devil or whirlwind. It had picked up the plastic chairs and tables about 12 to 15 feet in the air whirling around. I peered out of the window watching it when it suddenly stopped and all the furniture clattered back to the deck. I straightened it. I was tired and dirty from cleaning and I had wanted to go home when I heard an odd sound originating at their built-in swimming pool.

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The pool skimmer was caught up on the wave gutter of the pool. Wave gutters are normally for Olympic sized pools and one does not see them in backyard swimming pools very often. This pool skimmer was sputtering, a garden hose attached to its under belly.

I stood there examining the situation and finally said aloud to no one:

“I don’t feel like bending over and lifting it off.”

I felt an impression of a voice in my head say:

“You don’t have to do it that way.”

“Oh yeah,” I said feeling like an idiot for talking to myself, “What other way is there?”

No answer. A feeling or a sense swept over me.

I bent my knees slightly. I clenched my fists and bent my right elbow so that my right fist was near to my right shoulder. My left fist and left arm were extended by my left side. Using tension in both arms I reversed the positions and the skimmer moved off the lip of the wave gutter out towards the center of the pool.

“Nah,” I said aloud. The impression of the voice said: “Well, bring it back.”

I reversed my arms and it came back onto the wave gutter.

I freaked out. I ran to my car and ripped out of there thinking I was crazy.

In the summer of 1984 I experienced many odd things. I saw auras around people at times. While running, my spirit soared into the sky. I saw how light connected our hearts together and how that connected to the light of trees and plants and connected everyone with every being.

the spiritual purpose of ego (revised)

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Ego — the part of the mind that mediates between the conscious and the unconscious and is responsible for reality testing and a sense of personal identity. (New Oxford American Dictionary).

Ego develops as language develops. It could be assumed that ego is an invented concept (as is language and time) that floats on the surface of life. Using the metaphor of a pond: ego is the surface that is readily seen and experienced and the spiritual self or Being is all the water seen and unseen. Being is largely unknown for a variety of reasons one of which is we come to believe we are ego and get attached the content of our lives. We miss the context of our lives which belongs with Being or a kind of spiritual gestalt.

Most religious and/or spiritual precepts define our spiritual selves in a wide variety of ways. The spiritual is universal and transcends ego to include greater consciousness. Ego is relegated to describe the spiritual, which is often ineffable.

…the ego must be destroyed to let the Spirit side of us flourish. This, of course, is impossible.

The spiritual side of our nature is often left fallow and underdeveloped because our attention is outward in the world of stuff, things and the temporary desires of ego. Meditation and other spiritual practices allow us to look inward, connect with our spirit and create a ground for our Being self to grow and mature.

Many secular people think that the ego must be destroyed to let the Spirit side of us flourish. This is impossible. Ego is so intertwined with our lives with language, with linear time, with relationships that it becomes seamless and invisible unless we reflect upon it. Once ensconced by ego development and inculcated within its matrix even reflection does not supply an adequate release from its trappings. Illusion is created by ego in thinking that ego is egoism and can be eradicated. We need ego to interface with the politically social world with its rules and meta-rules, and manage the mundane of our lives.

The friction created between Spirit/Being and ego can be used to create energy.

From the point of view of a developed Spiritual Self/Being the ego provides conditions of human existence — or lessons that define the parameters/conditions of having a body and being in a human society. There will always be lessons as long as we dwell in a physical body. This is the good news.

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When we accept that the ego will always be there and we develop an ego that has integrity then the work between our Spiritual nature and ego can begin. The friction created between Spirit and ego can be used to create energy that may be expended or saved for future Being/Spiritual work. This could be called the work of consciousness and transcendence of ego while under the conditions of our physical bodies. Part of the purpose of the human experience is utilizing the energy of attachment (especially the attachments to suffering*) to release it moment by moment and transcend into a higher level of consciousness.

This higher level of consciousness (will always be claimed by ego) allows for perceiving unseen worlds that bind all spirits chained in biological and non-biological forms. This binding helps our egos to experience love and compassion which is the light that permeates all substances and is the beginning of enlightenment.

* even avoiding suffering is an attachment to suffering because it is a response to a dislike. By releasing attachments to pain, for instance, some of the pain can be released.

[originally published in August of 2016]

For more about my work visit:  Ontario’s The Kai

Being on Time

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It’s rare to find people who arrive at their destination on time.

“I’m late, I’m late for a very important date.”

There are at least two definitions of being on time:

  • Arriving the minute that you intended to be there – at work, at a meeting etc.
  • Arriving five minutes early so you can “shake off” the trip and prepare for being fully present for your meeting.

 

The Illusion of Multi-Tasking

Part of the problem of being on time has been an illusory belief held by our egos that we are Masters of all situations. In the post-modern era this has been compounded by additional illusory beliefs that multi-tasking is the way to complete many tasks simultaneously. The accompanying emotion to increased multi-tasking is a frenetic frantic obsessiveness. This may be comparable to the White Rabbit in Carroll’s “Alice in Wonderland” as in “I’m late, I’m late for a very important date.”

Being on time is about being present.

We try to take the impossible and make it possible in a finite time frame. This becomes a race to finish first under impossible conditions of finite time constraints. The multi-tasking work ethic spills into everything we do. Part of the multi-tasking illusion spills into texting or hands-free texting while driving, lengthy conversations (hands free) while driving. Its no wonder we are late for many meetings.

 

Being On-Time is more than Punctuality

Being on time is about being present. When we are chronically late we miss a very important opportunity to practice being present. Our consciousness gets increasingly scattered through our attempts to do more than one thing at a time (unless you have an AADD brain). Even with Adult Attention Deficit Disorder (AADD the aim for being present is to bring chronic distractability to fruition.) The ego is a wandering lazy beast easily distracted – taken away through whim to different places. The Internet and in particular social media sites feed on an AADD model of attention.

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The work of being present is within the purview of all of the esoteric and/or spiritual wings of all religions. It is work that never ceases because as long as our egos hold sway over us (ego is invoked as soon as we say or think “I”) it leads us away from being present into fractured realities.

 

A Being Practice

Each discipline has its own practices for working on being present. The one I suggest below may be right for you or not. It may work from time to time or not.

 

If you are standing (or sitting) notice your breath moving in and out of your body. What we ordinarily do is control our breath (an ego thing) and that is okay. Eventually we may find that it’s easier to “watch” or “notice” our breath than it is to try and control it. 

Ground. Imagine/visualize an energy or grounding cord emanating from the root chakra just in front of the end of the spine going down through all layers of Earth, through magnetic core; passing through molten core and anchoring to your spot in crystalline core of Earth. There is an iron ore spherical crystal that spins in the molten core. 

Allow yourself to feel your connection to Earth – to your home – the planet.  

Continue to notice your breath.  

Feel the physical sensations in your body. Notice what your emotions are without trying to change or judge them. Notice any thoughts, especially the thoughts that take you away from the now – what is happening now. Use your will to bring your thoughts to this present moment.

 

A Report about Being On-Time

I was with most of my classmates awaiting the first class about history when the instructor asked if everyone was there. People were arriving as he spoke. He had been speaking about the dinosaurs, our use of oil/gasoline eating the future by abusing (using the resources) of the past every time we drove down the road in our automobiles.

He asked us – as a group how we had shirked our responsibility toward our classmates. He admonished those that were late as leaking energy from the room and doing a disservice to the ones here on-time.

He cancelled the course of history all together because we had not learned our responsibility of being on time – arriving before the appointed time and practicing being present.

For more about my work: Ontario’s The Kai – website

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Time and the Processes of Time through the Enneagram

 

EnnegramTimeAtWork“The distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”

Einstein

 

To Start

An ordinary human perspective cannot separate time from space. Time cannot exist without space and space cannot exist without time. In discussing time in this piece assume that time is always bound by space unless stated otherwise.

Humans by definition are corporeal and are subject to entropy’s jaws in a sea of time. The reverse may also hold truth: Consciousness expresses itself through individual human experiences or lives. Human life in our current epoch is finite. When humans are born they grow, their biology is plastic, then growth slows, entropy promotes decay and human bodies die and consciousness moves on. However the human power of identification (similar to manifestation) is a powerful force where life is bonded with the physical. When the bond is broken biological life ceases.

Our search for meaning occurs within the boundaries of time that can be both finite and infinite. Discussing the intricacies and types of time is a good backdrop to the search for discovery of meaning of the human species and the consciousness that is associated with it.

The following discourse is meant as an introduction to Time as Process so topics that are introduced may not necessarily be explored in depth.

[see also: Memory, Time and Identity ]

 

Using the Enneagram as a process tool to map Time

Enneagram or Nine-Picture represents an on-going process of completion. In number theory nine represents completion. Ten is manifestation and belongs to a new cycle of numbers. The numbers of 1 – 9 are natural numbers. Nine is the highest one digit number in a system of numbers using base 10.

The enneagram examines the system of process that includes the law of three – a basic principle of action in this universe. The law of three contains these principles:

  • Affirming – active with a positive charge
  • Denying – receptive with a negative charge
  • Reconciling – neutral with no charge

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Figure 1

The law of three is the principle of every action and transformative urge in our universe throughout the arc of time.

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  1. Biological                                                                                  5. Relative
  2. Linear                                                                                        6. Simultaneous
  3. Being                                                                                          7. Alternate Reality
  4. Perceptual                                                                                 8. Transcending

9. Time At Work

 

Linear Progressions

ONE: Biological Time

Animals and plants are biological beings. A single cell reproduces through mitosis – divides and makes a copy of itself – in an asexual manner. This is movement through space-time.

Biological beings live in the context of an environment created by Earth that we now refer to as the ecosphere. This context is related to day and night cycles as governed by the rotation of Earth on her axis, the tilt of Earth’s axis that creates the angle of the Sun’s light striking Earth creating seasons and the orbit of the Earth around the Sun creating the yearly cycle. We are biological beings in an intricate relationship of Earth with itself, the Sun and other planets in the solar system (and beyond).

All biological beings are living in finite time: they are born, they grow, they reproduce, they begin to decay and then they die – in terms of their physical bodies. As living beings they move through space-time and as such an awareness of time is programmed into their cells, biological systems (neurons, cardiovascular, endocrine, genetics and so on).

Animals including the human animal have biological systems that interact with the environment in space-time. We may consider the circadian and diurnal rhythms of animals and plants primitive. In fact they are not primitive but the foundation for awareness of time and survival of an individual or a species.

Humans are animals separated from a greater awareness of biological time due to the technologies of civilization: language, days, seasons, agriculture, machinery, computers, neural nets and so on. As humans we dwell inside homes saturated with light pollution for example. We don’t fall asleep with the dark and rise to the light, instead we often use alarm clocks to awaken, stay awake with the assistance of electric light, television, computers, electronics – all light pollution that enables us to break from our biological time sense.

We have forgotten that we are animals and have lost our connection to biological time in part through mediated experiences. Mediation is the state in the middle, that which acts through an intervening agency or exhibiting indirect causation, connection, or relation. The buffers are mediators between us and nature. Language is a buffer or media that separates us from direct experience because words are media descriptions of reality. They are symbols of reality and may stand in the way of our direct experience of reality. Civilization and its increasing complexity serve to keep us separate from biological time.

 

TWO: Linear Time 

Linear time was invented by humans through the auspices of language, aural and written as well as increasingly complexities of civilization. Linear time belongs to a mediated experience primarily connected to the structures of language. Human languages are based on syntax that provides a subject, an action, a starting point and a destination. In other words sentences have a beginning, middle and end. The structure of language is analogous to the structure of linear time.

Time as we know it has a beginning, middle and end, connected to biological time loosely through the mediated experiences of language and via extrapolation civilization’s codes of behavior and order. Its highly unlikely that linear time would have developed in the way that it did without the platform of biological time supporting the rhythms found in our physical bodies.

Linear time is connected to Earth’s spin on its axis as well as its orbit around our Yellow Dwarf Star that we refer to as the Sun and this is part of our biology and these cycles have been measured and quantified.

Our separation from our natural selves (in biology) through the mediated experiences of language and linear time has erased our individual and collective experiences of anything beyond linear time. Linear thinking and linear time have become invisible and as such constitute the only reality that we know and accept often without question.

Time has been measured with increasing accuracy as the sophistication of civilization has increased. Pope Gregory convened a commission in the year 1582 AD to fix the calendar due to Easter moving forward in time. Leap year was created to correct the time discrepancies in the calendar: every four years one extra day was added to February – mainly the 29th of the month. Something like 3 non-weeks were observed before the new (Gregorian) calendar was re-booted. When trains began connecting communities across Europe each town had a different time, so trains weren’t on-schedule due to different times in each town. This was corrected by the creation of time zones and a universal time based on the time in Greenwich England that came to be known as Greenwich Mean Time. Now Atomic clocks are the most accurate clocks in their measure of seconds, minutes and hours.

Linear time is an agreed-upon fantasy.

 

THREE: Being or Eternal Time 

This is part of the triad and exists as an intermittent part of linear time and independently from the flow of time from biological to linear to perceptual. Being or Eternal time is rarely experienced because it exists outside language and outside biological time as perceived through linear time.

Being / Eternal Time lightly touches linear time by nullifying it abet briefly and enabling ego a wider perspective.

When Being or Eternal Time is discussed using aural or written language it loses it’s meaning because it exists outside linear time. As such there is an ineffable quality to it that transcends ego. Inevitably ego claims the experience and it is reduced in its scope to the mundane.

In a traditional relationship of master to student or apprentice Being / Eternal time may be explored or discussed only to confirm the authenticity of the experience and provide ground for future experiences. This must be engaged in with care and precision due to the delicacy of the experience and only when the student is ready.

I have experienced Being/Eternal time three times from a spontaneous arising. Other encounters with Being / Eternal time has been by cultivating a space through a variety of practices without expecting any particular results.

For more:

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2017/11/23/being-the-wider-perspective-in-troubled-times/

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2015/11/24/being-and-doing/

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2016/07/01/ego-life-versus-eternal-life/

FOUR: Perceptual Time

 

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Figure 3

 

Perceptual time is our individual subjective experiences of time that lies between biological and linear time. In the television series Star Trek: The Next Generation, Commander Riker tells Data that humans don’t have “internal chronometers” and that he should turn his off if he wants to perceive time like a human being.

The subjective nature of perceived time allows linear time to be perceived as shortened or lengthened depending on the participant. Perceptual time may be closer to our experience of biological time but because of the invisible technologies of language, ego and individual perceptual facilities we may never know definitively.

Attention and the focus of attention come into play in perceiving time. For example an hour and a half trip from Sonoma to downtown San Francisco in moderate to heavy traffic took only 60 minutes due to the focus of my attention. Normally the trip is 1 hour and 40 minutes in moderate to light traffic. I had a fever of 101 at the time and I was driving a friend/colleague to a conference. My focus was 100% on the trip, not driving too fast and being efficient. I focused on the result, our safety and arriving as soon as possible. I never drove over the speed limit.

 

Points 1 through 4 

Biological

Linear

Being

Perceptual

Points 1, 2, 3 and 4 belong both to a linear progression and an eternal process. Points 1, 2 and 4 belong to the finite world of a cause and effect progression. As you can see (figure 2 and figure 3) there is a gap between points 4 and 5. The gap is an opening for a shock to occur, something that occurs from outside – a transformation that allows the process to go from point 4 to 5.

For example in the quanta world (of quantum physics) nine dimensions are often discussed – these 9 dimensions could support this dimension by providing the energy to intersect the enneagram between points 4 and 5 to provide the jump between the mundane and the quanta world.

See also the piece Enneagram as Process – Primer https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2018/05/03/enneagram-as-process-a-primer/

In the Primer The Kitchen at Work The points 4 – Preparation of meats and vegetables – to Point 5 – Cooking. The points between 4 and 5 or the process of cooking provides a transformation that shocks the process into the second part of the octave 5 – 6 – 7 – 8

 

FIVE: Relative Time 

Einstein’s Theory of Special Relativity is the feature of point 5 with some expanded ideas:

  • The speed of light is a constant (meaning that it never changes)
  • People traveling at or close to the speed of light observing others on a planet the planetary persons would be moving slower. (This is only true for objects traveling close to or at the speed of light.)
  • Time and Space cannot be separated.
  • Objects approaching the speed of light become heavier – increase in mass while decreasing in length.
  • Mass can be transformed into energy and energy can be transformed into mass resulting in the law of “conservation of energy” or more correctly stated as the conservation of mass-energy. The conservation of energy is a System based theory where two systems are connected. E = MC2. E is energy. M is mass, C is the speed of light or velocity.

 

Expanded Ideas:

Light is Consciousness and Love (knowable as a person of knowledge “knows”.)

Light transcends time

Light, Consciousness and Love hold time

Light and Consciousness hold multiple time-space modalities

 

These expanded ideas can only be known in a way of learning that as seekers touch mastery they “know” from a place of Being.

 

SIX: Simultaneous Time

Points 1 through 5

  1. Biological
  2. Linear
  3. Being
  4. Perceptual
  5. Relative

Each of the modalities of time listed above can occur in an experience of simultaneous time. In experiencing simultaneous time – travel through time via both consciousness and linear travel become possible.

The key in the other five points of time is awareness. From our finite biological perspective it’s impossible to hold all of the five points of time in our awareness simultaneously. Humans think associatively, meaning that one idea is associated with another. Multitasking is a myth (see https://www.inc.com/scott-mautz/psychology-and-neuroscience-blow-up-the-myth-of-effective-multitasking.html and https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/creativity-without-borders/201405/the-myth-multitasking ). Multi-tasking is shifting attention from one task to another rapidly often with a loss of efficiency and a creating an illusion that many tasks can be done at once with superb attention.

An example of associative thought is – taking a walking or an automobile trip. One cannot think of the whole trip all at once. Looking at a map is not looking at the trip itself it is a mediated representation of a trip. 1. You might get in your car, back out of your driveway or pull out onto your street. 2. Drive to the end of the street by the traffic light and go right after stopping or waiting for the green light. 3. Driving down the next street towards the entrance to the interstate or freeway. One cannot hold all three steps in your head or attention at once, but you can follow each step one after the other and even access them from your memory.

There are five and possibly many more perspectives on time especially when the quanta worlds are applied. Linear is built on biological; perceptual time happens when we pay attention. Being and Relative Time occur mostly outside linear time by chance or by cultivation.

Humans can sometimes experience small moments of simultaneous time in a continuum of associated thinking supported by memory. Memory is the key to simultaneous time. Memory is an interactive process that occurs between perceptual facilities such as sight, sound, olfactory, gustatory, balance, etc. and the combinations of these perceptions create memories of the human experience. Individual memories interact with other individual memories to create a neural net of shared and /or consensual memories.

Simultaneous time makes space for theories of time travel to be constructed. Briefly memory is primed for quantum entanglement, which is the bedrock from whence time “travel” becomes possible. This will be discussed in a future article.

 

SEVEN: Alternate Reality Time

Dissociative Identity Disorder at its most extreme that include blackouts and alternate personalities that have no awareness of other personalities is the first link or clue to alternate realities in time.

Often when the notion of alternative realities is presented we go straight to a Hollywood explanation, which is mostly based in fantasy. It creates a reality peopled with people like us or with monsters (TV shows: Fringe, Timeless, Travellers, & Stranger Things). The alternate realities in the quanta world are potential realities that may exist for short periods of time as a way to support the current corporeal space-time.

We currently create temporary quanta alternate realities all the time (in the now) in a limited bandwidth of choice. These alternate realities do not have enough energy to involve others because the force of each choice is very limited. Extreme trauma in certain individuals creates dissociative identity disorder or multi-personalities and this is an example of alternative realities that exist for an individual.

Time lines can be altered if the energy is great enough. Only one corporeal or coarse physical reality can exist, so if enough energy is applied one reality can be destroyed and another created. Atomic bombs are the only known force where time-lines for entire civilizations can be altered.

An alternative reality could exist parallel to this one if there were enough people able to make free choices or decisions in harmony with one another. The choices that most humans have are extremely limited because they are NOT free choices. We are under the illusion that we make free choices all the time and this has to do with our political systems at work etc.

Choices we assume are free are based on the programming we receive as children from our parents. Whether we accept or reject what our parents have taught us we are not free. If we rebel or are opposition to a parental stance we are still caught by the rubric of our parents’ teaching because we are in reaction to it. Most of our choices are based on unconscious role modeling from our parents and this is the most pernicious.

Analyzing or using talk-therapy to explore our choices while helpful does not address the problem of choice so it’s swallowed up by slavery to habitual actions. The constant pull of the ego creates an illusion of control and the illusion of free will. Ego does not provide a permanent center in an individual. To find and cultivate the Master within takes a commitment that most are unwilling or unable to take.

We have free will under the illusion of Ego that keeps us enslaved to habits and allows for temporary alternate realities to form and fall away.

If we were to have free will and make an act based on nothing then we could create something real that could include a force powerful enough to launch an alternate reality for a brief period in time in which consciousness could dwell for the purpose of creating greater consciousness and possibly more.

 

EIGHT: Transcendent Time

Transcendent time is related to Being or Eternal Time because it allows us to have a point of reference that includes ego and higher aspects of the self.

Transcending time is made through the cultivation of spaces within our ego-existence where ego can be relinquished. This takes work along the area of the four sources [1].

  • Learning – comes from books, which are often secondary sources of knowledge. Learning also originates from a traditional process of the student – teacher relationship. Under the way of “knowing” this kind of learning being comes into play. Certain truths are recognized and other information is discarded. However some information can be put aside for later re-examination.
  • Struggle – Most struggle is considered odious. We want life to be easy without struggle. However most of our struggles are not seen as struggles, but as experiences that we easily pass through. A person excited to bound out of bed in the morning to greet the day is a struggle that is easily overcome and is not considered a struggle. Struggle reduced to its most common elements is a battle between “Yes” and “No”. Effective struggle can create energy.

Help and Sacrifice/Surrender belong to Spirit. When we open to it – the interface between the divine and mundane happens outside causal physics – in the quanta world.

  • Help – Asking for assistance /help from somebody is fairly straight forward. When many people ask for help from God, for example, they have reduced their personas to those of children. Asking for help from the divine or that which is greater than oneself is an art. Asking to win the lottery or a new car falls into the category of child-parent asking. It makes for expectation without having to do anything in return. Expectation fills the space preventing help from entering or being recognized as help. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The art of asking for help is making a request, making a space to let the wish appear and then releasing the request. Gifting from the divine is not usually answered in the spoken word. It may come in the form of clues or prompts for action. Or it could come all at once.

 

  • Sacrifice / Surrender – Modern peoples have an abhorrence to the word “sacrifice” because they see it as coming from lack or self flagellation. Surrender is a less offense word, but to sacrifice the ego is a swift action, so both may be used. Sacrificing ego and self-will allows the divine aspect ourselves to enter and act through us. The Observer watches as this happens. We don’t disappear. The divine / Higher Aspect of the Self though elusive and difficult to define is a robust force that holds ego. Ego comes in rapidly as soon as we claim the experience thinking or saying “I” did this or felt that. It’s impossible to adequately describe the sacrifice and / or surrender of the will because this is a step into transcendent time.

 

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Figure 4

 

An examination of the parallel lines assist in understanding the causal events in linear-time:

 

  1. 8-1 Eight is Transcendent Time which cannot exist without a biological platform as is in number One. These points form the structural center for completion to manifest. It is part of the inner structure and is not causally visible as are points 1, 2, [3] and 4…
  2. 7-2 Seven are Alternate Realities which cannot exist without the platform of Linear Time / number Two. Perception of alternate realities cannot be discerned without the invention of linear time, due to the intellectual parsing needed to see individual and collective alternate reality worlds.
  3. 5-4 Five is the Theory of Relativity which is an expansion of Perception – number Four and is the only two points that have a cohesive internal parallel structure and a causal one that requires a shock for transformation to occur.

 

NINE: Time At Work

Number Nine contains elements of all the other 8 points. Its impossible to think of all the points simultaneously due to our associative thought processes (associating one thought with another in binary pairs).

Time at Work represents all the preceding 8 points in one place. Approached from the law of three we add three and the result is 6 plus 3  is 9. If all human thinking is associative based on a binary system of (+) and (-) or affirming and denying; force and reception, the third force is missing, the force that is (0) or neutral. If associative /binary thought can be balanced a calmed emotional or neutral state may be the zero point. By providing a neutral point the dialectic or battle between (+) or (-) / between “yes” and “no” can be released through the neutral or reconciling “force”. The power between the binary associative thought of (+) and (-) (or “yes” and “no”) is released in a transformation of energy through the neutral or reconciling energy. The triad of energy is reproduced two more times to make the enneagram or completion process.

The triad is reflected in our human structure in our three brains:

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The three grains are:  point 3 – the 3rd eye- the higher aspects of thought; point 6 – the chi – locus of the physical body or gut brain or moving center; point 9 – The Heart / Emotion from the absolute of Love;

Nine then becomes the reconciling or neutral force in the triad of 3 and 6.

Looking at Time at Work within the enneagram structure from the perspective of the octave – the musical scale of:

  1. Do – Dominus – Lord/Absolute
  2. Re – Regina Coli – Queen of the Heavens/Moon
  3. Mi – Micro Cosmos – Small Universe/Solar System
  4. Fa – Fatima – Mother – Fate/Planets
  5. Sol – Solar – Sun/Demiurge
  6. La – Lactea – Milk/Milky Way Galaxy
  7. Si – Sider – Stars/All Galaxies
  8. Do – Dominus – Lord/Absolute

 

  1. Om – the one tone that is the completion process that includes the other eight.

 

 

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The one “place” we may realize time at work fully is a place where space and time do not exist in that “realm” after death where consciousness and love abound. Time at Work may be glimpsed here in the realm of corporeal life when we contact the divine mysteries for brief moments when ego falls away and we can touch the illusion of time.

 

NOTES

[1] The Four Sources are paraphrased from J. G. Bennett’s book: Transformation by J.G. Bennett

[2] for a comprehensive study of the Enneagram see: The Intelligent Enneagram by A.G.E. Blake

 

 

For more about my work: Ontario’s The Kai – website

 

Talking to Plants about the Weather

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I’m not talking about talking to plants about tomorrow’s weather or a week or a month from now. I mainly have talked with plants about the winter.

In the 1980s my lover had given me a pot of Chinese Chives (chives that have a hint of garlic taste in them). In 1990 I moved to a place on Trinity Road where I lived for ten years. The seeds from the potted Chinese Chives spread to the ground outside my dining room window and created a lawn there.

I began receiving impressions from them about the upcoming winter. They “told” me whether it would be a warm wet winter or a cold dry (drought based) winter. I believe that part of the reason we don’t hear plants or trees besides the obvious spoken and written language differences is we are in our heads moving too fast to notice what they are saying.

Chinese Chives are bulbs and can survive very cold – freezing temperatures and rebound in the spring (unfortunately they didn’t survive the move from the mountains to the valley). The same is true of the Canna Flower – also a bulb. When I saw them in early spring (2018) the leaves were low and one shoot went up high and a flower bloomed.

I asked about the coming winter and received impressions:

Winter of 2018 – 2019, in Sonoma, California (Northern California)

Rains can come as early as October or November, get heavy in December, January, February and March

This year the impression from my fiend the Canna: a dry cold winter through December, Rains beginning in January.; mid to late January through February moderate to heavy rains punctuated by very cold days between fronts. In March coastal fog and showers with possible heavy rains for a few days at the end of the month. In April – cool and clear.

The Principle of Creating a new kind of Prayer

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Language and time creates an artificial separation between the ever present now and a future. There is no future. It is there in our minds as something we believe to be true based on language and the trick of ego.

When we pray or ask the universe for something to happen from the future we reinforce the illusion of separateness. This keeps us from having or achieving that what we wish to create. We are separated from having or achieving due to the action of wish in relationship to time. The past and future are illusions that we invented through language to manage the world. Time is now. Even money is the currency of this illusion.

Let’s say there has been a drought or fires and rain is needed.

Go to a place in your neighborhood in nature where you feel a connection or a feeling of awe and power. Take off your shoes and socks if you wish. Stand on earth – grass or soil, twigs or leaves and feel the water beneath your feet, the mud or soaked socks and shoes (if you didn’t take them off). Smell the scents of earth after a long rich rain. Feel earth’s relief and looseness with the richness of plentiful water. Feel the wet on your skin, hair and clothing from the rains. See the drought or fire ravaged areas having been rained upon.

 

Give thanks.

The “I-Am” Exercise

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Activate your heart chakra with the ‘I-am” exercise.

This is breathing with your intention on your heart chakra – the breast bone or sternum. On the in-breath or inhalation think “I” or say “I” silently while breathing in. On the breath-out and say “am” silently or think “am” on while exhaling.

Allow a resonance of feeling to arise in your heart.

The heart is the source of emotion. Our cognitive processes (the neocortex) interpret, delineate and name emotions that we feel. Our neocortex also screens love through opinions, beliefs and judgments to box love into a context that our egos can become attached to such as romantic love or a parent’s love of a child for example.

Love is the underpinning of all emotion.

The purpose of the “I-Am” exercise is to activate and affirm our emotional presence.

“I Made a Mistake, I Apologize.”

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In April of 1983 I was living at Eden Square Apartments in midtown Stockton, California. Parking was on the street. I had moved there in November of 1983.  I had moved to the Big Valley in 1982 from the east coast where I was unfamiliar with the kind of parking described below.

I parked on East Acacia – a side street. The front entrance was on El Dorado around the corner.

A guy started shouting at me and pointing at the street. At first I paid him no heed and continued to walk away.

“Hey you, Guy! You parked wrong.” He was yelling at me.

I stopped and looked at him.

       “What?”

He jabbed his arm / finger towards my car and shouted:

“You parked wrong.”

“Its how I always park,” and started to walk away.

“You see those lines painted on the street?”

“What?”

He pointed to the lines painted on the street. I looked.

“They’re there for a reason, buddy,” he was boiling mad.

The lines on the street were like a grid.

Duh, I got it.

 

 “Sorry, didn’t see it. Didn’t think to look. I’m sorry. I’ll move my car.” I got in and moved the car to in-between the lines.

 

            This guy was suddenly my best friend. Immediately his mouth dropped. He invited me to join him at Gold’s Gym- below my apartment building. I respectfully declined.

            He shook my hand and thanked me.

 

 

 

Negative Emotions – part one of two

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What is the function of negative emotions? Why do we have them?

The seven deadly sins not withstanding negative emotions originate from our earliest beginnings and are built for our biological survival from immediate danger.

The seven deadly sins – put forth by the theology of the Roman Catholic Church are immersed in judgment and morality, but worth a look:

  • Pride (pride is a good emotion when not excessively indulged in creating hubris) Hubris is excessive pride where the “prideful” person is often divorced from reality and has an overly confident stance
  • Greed – a desire to possess more than one needs and seems to be addictive (greed for money – excessive wealth, power, status or the acquisition of things)
  • Lust – excessive desire for an experience or thing, mostly lust for sex, but could also be lust for power, another addictive emotion.
  • Envy – a desire to have what another has which can destroy the person experiencing this emotion due to possessiveness / greed (also addictive)
  • Gluttony – over indulgence in food and drink (also addictive)
  • Wrath – or anger / rage and when accompanied with violence is a volatile emotion (also can be addictive)
  • Sloth – laziness or apathy related to depressive emotions.

 

Many people of “new age” view negative emotions as unwanted and bad.

The Seven Deadly Sins or Negative Emotions particularly greed, lust, envy, gluttony, hubris and wrath appear to arise out of addictive emotional / somatic elements that are substitutes for the lack of love and the bond of love needed for children. Sloth may arise from depressive emotions.

It would appear that hubris, greed, excessive lust, wrath and envy are extremely addictive emotions that arise from maladaptive behaviors within society and whose basis derives from avoiding fears or an inability to deal with fears.

Part of the purpose emotions involves how humans become attached to life on earth. This process may be likened to an attachment, an identification and / or addiction to the experiences of life. More on the function of emotions in an evolutionary process in Part Two.

I think its safe to say that we as humans have experienced one or more the seven deadly negative emotions at some point in our lives.

If someone tells you your having negative emotions then they are putting judgments on you and shaming you for emotions that are common to us all. But wait – what they are really doing is judging you for expressing so-called “negative” emotions in an ineffective manner that is often called “acting-out”. Negative emotions expressed negatively are quite common because we have little to no emotional education and may be furthering the cause of make negative emotions increasingly negative.

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Many people of “new age” view negative emotions as unwanted and bad. These emotions must be expunged or eradicated and replaced by positive feelings through affirmations, meditation etc. They often believe that the ego is bad and is associated with negative emotions and that the divine self or egoless self promotes only positive emotions. When the “negative emotions” are cut loose then a belief develops that the ego is functioning on an increasingly positive vector. This “cutting loose” of negative emotions may be an illusion based on a belief that the power of the mind (over matter) – over negative emotions when the emotion may have gone underground through denial, repression or suppression. This “new age” line of reasoning is based on many faulty assumptions that will be explored in part two.

Anger and/or rage may be the one negative emotion that may be wanted because it fuels righteousness and a sense of power over others and can be very addictive and abusive.

Negative emotions may produce a fight or flight response. When no immediate danger is present then the acting-out expression of negative emotions often repel others. Negative emotions are not always wanted and sometimes abhorred. Many a time I have heard clients and acquaintances say: “I want to get rid of this feeling.” This kind of thinking is based both on a desire to focus only on positive emotions and avoid negative ones and a basic flaw in our emotional education albeit informal. A misunderstanding of the functions of all emotions, positive, negative, mixed feelings and neutral feelings creates a stigma around negative emotions. The result is a misunderstanding of the function of negative emotions and a disservice to our growth and evolution.

There is a unspoken bias in our civilization that emotional states are divided into two groups so feelings can be reduced to the simplest terms for understanding. However this creates a trap so that negative emotions are seldom addressed effectively.

Some values of Negative and Positive Emotions

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unwanted wanted
unpleasant pleasant
shunned exalted

Emotions, especially negative emotions are usually expressed through stories especially amongst those of with no formal emotional education. Storytelling usually serves the function of describing the emotion without naming it and it justifies the storyteller in feeling a certain way adding morality such as I am right for feeling this way and it implies that the other person is “wrong” for feeling another way in the context of the story. In stories emotions are not left to stand on their own. Morality, judgments, rationalizations and justifications are attached to emotional states in an attempt to make one person better than another, the other being “the cause” of the emotional state – often negative.

Venting is a common storytelling morality play that serves in keeping the venter stuck in feeling and recycling the negative emotion as part of a cognitive belief.

Often it is through venting with / to another (or with our self) that many negative emotions become apparent and may be released however this is not so often the case. Venting doesn’t solve the source of the negative emotion it only lets it out to air. The underlying dysfunction from the past remains unsolved and venting begins again. This can take a variety of forms. Complaining is one kind of rift that is a kind of venting filled with storytelling ripe with frustrations, self-reproach and self-pity. I had a friend that would seek me out to vent about her relationship and ask for advice. She would paint herself as a victim: feel guilty, self-pitying and frustrated. She would ask for advice and I offered advice. Rinse-repeat. She never followed my advice. For a while I just listened. She repeatedly asked me what she should do. Finally I told her – I didn’t know and that I couldn’t help her and that she could seek therapy.

Repeated venting is often a rational justification for negative feelings through storytelling. Often the emotion is not expressed directly. The story has to do what the person has done and what was done to the person and a justification of righteousness. Repeated venting becomes an addiction. The justification for being right is separate from feelings (cognitive dissonance) and keeps the venter from taking action thus keeping people in the place of venting. This is especially true with regard to anger and rage. The emotion inflates the self of self and is linked to thinking of being right. When an injustice becomes evident many of like-mind become angry and the venting begins. Becoming angry / rageful over a perceived injustice may often be warranted and the anger may be an acting out that does not achieve justice. Venting is the result. Many of the group doesn’t take action or if they do there is no immediate result so more venting is warranted. When venting recycles enough it becomes addictive and no actionable results are produced.

Anger and/or rage may be the one negative emotion that may be wanted because it fuels righteousness and a sense of power over others and can be very addictive and abusive. Historically anger comes from the fight principle in defending the self from immediate danger. In our daily social politics those that display anger and / or rage do so from “acting-out” behaviors that may be adult tantrums that are refined or unrefined. Seldom I have seen anyone arousing anger in them selves as an effective emotion. Those that are acting-out their angers are impossible to avoid unless we run from them. Intervening with someone who is acting-out anger or rage is potentially dangerous due to the possibility of violence.

My father enjoyed baiting me into arguments so he could dominate me with his premises and make me bad, wrong and stupid. During the Vietnam war I constantly argued with him. I asked my lover during that time to assist me with the debate.

I said: “I feel all war, all killing is wrong.”

He said: “We have to defend our allies against the Commies.”

She said: “A feeling is a feeling. Its not right or wrong, it just is.”

From that point on I was able to diffuse all of my Father’s attacks (unless he had been drinking) by identifying his premise and either disagreeing with it or ask him if he meant to hurt my feelings with his argument.

This curtailed his yelling at me that I was bad wrong or stupid and we engaged in playful joking or conversations about the weather.

Many of us have been trained to believe that others are responsible for our emotional state. “You make me so mad,” and other similar statements allow us to remain children without power. Certainly our emotions may be triggered to arise from the unpleasant manifestations of others.

Don Miguel Ruiz’s The Four Agreements speaks to others emotions and judgments. The second agreement:

Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

 

An honest approach to emotional expression may look something like this:

“I feel angry right now and I realize this is in no way your fault. I was triggered when you did such and such. If you’d like to assist me in processing my feeling that’s okay. Otherwise I’ll just sit with the feeling myself.”

Obviously this is ideal. When we come from environments where acting-out negative emotions and behaviors are modeled its difficult to make a transition to taking responsibility for or emotions.

In Part Two the function and necessity of negative emotions are discussed as a part of the way towards mastery.