“I Made a Mistake, I Apologize.”

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In April of 1983 I was living at Eden Square Apartments in midtown Stockton, California. Parking was on the street. I had moved there in November of 1983.  I had moved to the Big Valley in 1982 from the east coast where I was unfamiliar with the kind of parking described below.

I parked on East Acacia – a side street. The front entrance was on El Dorado around the corner.

A guy started shouting at me and pointing at the street. At first I paid him no heed and continued to walk away.

“Hey you, Guy! You parked wrong.” He was yelling at me.

I stopped and looked at him.

       “What?”

He jabbed his arm / finger towards my car and shouted:

“You parked wrong.”

“Its how I always park,” and started to walk away.

“You see those lines painted on the street?”

“What?”

He pointed to the lines painted on the street. I looked.

“They’re there for a reason, buddy,” he was boiling mad.

The lines on the street were like a grid.

Duh, I got it.

 

 “Sorry, didn’t see it. Didn’t think to look. I’m sorry. I’ll move my car.” I got in and moved the car to in-between the lines.

 

            This guy was suddenly my best friend. Immediately his mouth dropped. He invited me to join him at Gold’s Gym- below my apartment building. I respectfully declined.

            He shook my hand and thanked me.

 

 

 

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Negative Emotions – part one of two

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What is the function of negative emotions? Why do we have them?

The seven deadly sins not withstanding negative emotions originate from our earliest beginnings and are built for our biological survival from immediate danger.

The seven deadly sins – put forth by the theology of the Roman Catholic Church are immersed in judgment and morality, but worth a look:

  • Pride (pride is a good emotion when not excessively indulged in creating hubris) Hubris is excessive pride where the “prideful” person is often divorced from reality and has an overly confident stance
  • Greed – a desire to possess more than one needs and seems to be addictive (greed for money – excessive wealth, power, status or the acquisition of things)
  • Lust – excessive desire for an experience or thing, mostly lust for sex, but could also be lust for power, another addictive emotion.
  • Envy – a desire to have what another has which can destroy the person experiencing this emotion due to possessiveness / greed (also addictive)
  • Gluttony – over indulgence in food and drink (also addictive)
  • Wrath – or anger / rage and when accompanied with violence is a volatile emotion (also can be addictive)
  • Sloth – laziness or apathy related to depressive emotions.

The Seven Deadly Sins or Negative Emotions particularly greed, lust, envy, gluttony, hubris and wrath appear to arise out of addictive emotional / somatic elements that are substitutes for the lack of love and the bond of love needed for children. Sloth may arise from depressive emotions.

It would appear that hubris, greed, excessive lust, wrath and envy are extremely addictive emotions that arise from maladaptive behaviors within society and whose basis derives from avoiding fears.

Part of the purpose emotions involves how humans become attached to life on earth. This process may be likened to an attachment, an identification and / or addiction to the experiences of life. More on the function of emotions in an evolutionary process in Part Two.

I think its safe to say that we as humans have experienced one or more the seven deadly negative emotions at some point in our lives.

If someone tells you your having negative emotions then they are putting judgments on you and shaming you for emotions that are common to us all. But wait – what they are really doing is judging you for expressing so-called “negative” emotions in an ineffective manner that is often called “acting-out”. Negative emotions expressed negatively are quite common because we have little to no emotional education and may be furthering the cause of make negative emotions increasingly negative.

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Many people of “new age” view negative emotions as unwanted and bad. These emotions must be expunged or eradicated and replaced by positive feelings through affirmations, meditation etc. They often believe that the ego is bad and is associated with negative emotions and that the divine self or egoless self promotes only positive emotions. When the “negative emotions” are cut loose then a belief develops that the ego is functioning on an increasingly positive vector. This “cutting loose” of negative emotions may be an illusion based on a belief that the power of the mind (over matter) – over negative emotions when the emotion may have gone underground through denial, repression or suppression. This “new age” line of reasoning is based on many faulty assumptions that will be explored in part two.

Negative emotions may produce a fight or flight response. When no immediate danger is present then the acting-out expression of negative emotions often repel others. Negative emotions are not always wanted and sometimes abhorred. Many a time I have heard clients and acquaintances say: “I want to get rid of this feeling.” This kind of thinking is based both on a desire to focus only on positive emotions and avoid negative ones and a basic flaw in our emotional education albeit informal. A misunderstanding of the functions of all emotions, positive, negative, mixed feelings and neutral feelings creates a stigma around negative emotions. The result is a misunderstanding of the function of negative emotions and a disservice to our growth and evolution.

There is a unspoken bias in our civilization that emotional states are divided into two groups so feelings can be reduced to the simplest terms for understanding. However this creates a trap so that negative emotions are seldom addressed effectively.

Some values of Negative and Positive Emotions

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unwanted wanted
unpleasant pleasant
shunned exalted

Emotions, especially negative emotions are usually expressed through stories especially amongst those of with no formal emotional education. Storytelling usually serves the function of describing the emotion without naming it and it justifies the storyteller in feeling a certain way adding morality such as I am right for feeling this way and it implies that the other person is “wrong” for feeling another way in the context of the story. In stories emotions are not left to stand on their own. Morality, judgments, rationalizations and justifications are attached to emotional states in an attempt to make one person better than another, the other being “the cause” of the emotional state – often negative.

Venting is a common storytelling morality play that serves in keeping the venter stuck in feeling and recycling the negative emotion as part of a cognitive belief.

Often it is through venting with / to another (or with our self) that many negative emotions become apparent and may be released however this is not so often the case. Venting doesn’t solve the source of the negative emotion it only lets it out to air. The underlying dysfunction from the past remains unsolved and venting begins again. This can take a variety of forms. Complaining is one kind of rift that is a kind of venting filled with storytelling ripe with frustrations, self-reproach and self-pity. I had a friend that would seek me out to vent about her relationship and ask for advice. She would paint herself as a victim: feel guilty, self-pitying and frustrated. She would ask for advice and I offered advice. Rinse-repeat. She never followed my advice. For a while I just listened. She repeatedly asked me what she should do. Finally I told her – I didn’t know and that I couldn’t help her and that she could seek therapy.

Repeated venting is often a rational justification for negative feelings through storytelling. Often the emotion is not expressed directly. The story has to do what the person has done and what was done to the person and a justification of righteousness. Repeated venting becomes an addiction. The justification for being right is separate from feelings (cognitive dissonance) and keeps the venter from taking action thus keeping people in the place of venting. This is especially true with regard to anger and rage. The emotion inflates the self of self and is linked to thinking of being right. When an injustice becomes evident many of like-mind become angry and the venting begins. Becoming angry / rageful over a perceived injustice may often be warranted and the anger may be an acting out that does not achieve justice. Venting is the result. Many of the group doesn’t take action or if they do there is no immediate result so more venting is warranted. When venting recycles enough it becomes addictive and no actionable results are produced.

Anger and/or rage may be the one negative emotion that may be wanted because it fuels righteousness and a sense of power over others and can be very addictive and abusive. Historically anger comes from the fight principle in defending the self from immediate danger. In our daily social politics those that display anger and / or rage do so from “acting-out” behaviors that may be adult tantrums that are refined or unrefined. Seldom I have seen anyone arousing anger in them selves as an effective emotion. Those that are acting-out their angers are impossible to avoid unless we run from them. Intervening with someone who is acting-out anger or rage is potentially dangerous due to the possibility of violence.

My father enjoyed baiting me into arguments so he could dominate me with his premises and make me bad, wrong and stupid. During the Vietnam war I constantly argued with him. I asked my lover during that time to assist me with the debate.

I said: “I feel all war, all killing is wrong.”

He said: “We have to defend our allies against the Commies.”

She said: “A feeling is a feeling. Its not right or wrong, it just is.”

From that point on I was able to diffuse all of my Father’s attacks (unless he had been drinking) by identifying his premise and either disagreeing with it or ask him if he meant to hurt my feelings with his argument.

This curtailed his yelling at me that I was bad wrong or stupid and we engaged in playful joking or conversations about the weather.

Many of us have been trained to believe that others are responsible for our emotional state. “You make me so mad,” and other similar statements allow us to remain children without power. Certainly our emotions may be triggered to arise from the unpleasant manifestations of others.

Don Miguel Ruiz’s The Four Agreements speaks to others emotions and judgments. The second agreement:

Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

 

An honest approach to emotional expression may look something like this:

“I feel angry right now and I realize this is in no way your fault. I was triggered when you did such and such. If you’d like to assist me in processing my feeling that’s okay. Otherwise I’ll just sit with the feeling myself.”

Obviously this is ideal. When we come from environments where acting-out negative emotions and behaviors are modeled its difficult to make a transition to taking responsibility for or emotions.

In Part Two the function and necessity of negative emotions are discussed as a part of the way towards mastery.

Dealing with Anxiety – a primer

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Anxiety arises from fear and it protects us from danger.

Anxiety has become a complex problem due to many factors.

There are two types of anxieties. One is exogenous and one endogenous. Exogenous means something that is produced outside of us. In and in the way I am using this word is directing the cause of anxiety to an event in our immediate present or near future. Endogenous means causes by something within us and I surmise that this type of anxiety began in the outside world in one or many traumatic events so that it appears to become internally produced or triggered. In this case there is no identifiable cause of feeling anxious and this becomes an existential condition.

Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management.

Exogenous anxiety is a cause and effect relationship. I’m anxious about my day in court. The day comes – it wasn’t as bad as I thought, I feel relived and anxiety is reduced significantly. However if I have experienced clustered exogenous anxiety producing events as a child then these can easily translate into an endogenous anxiety condition.

The two basic systemic problems of coping / dealing with anxiety are as follows:

  • We live in a complex world undergoing transformations even beyond institutional control that are stressful and anxiety producing.
  • Denial that anxiety is an emotion that could be valuable and is thus thought of as an emotion to be constantly controlled or virtually eliminated.

Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management. It is the perfect emotion to target with a product because our attitude towards the emotion (to be gotten rid of) and a world that is a nest for increasing anxieties and thus provides continuing and increasing profits. And it is not that simple either.

The use of street or illicit drugs at a young age for self-medication (dealing with depression and anxiety) and the concurrent addiction issues along with marketed pharmaceuticals on television has engendered a culture that looks to legal drugs to squash emotional problems of anxiety and depression amongst others. And while this may be effective it reduces our ability as a culture for self-reliant behaviors and creative problem solving.

Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience.

What happens when a younger person uses street drugs or prescribed medications to diminish anxiety, the anxiety goes away. Emotional growth stops at the age when street drugs and/or prescription drugs are used and often abused. A drug abusing person enters into a drug-culture. Later in life when a person wants to genuinely deal with emotional and psychologically difficulties their emotional responses may be childlike or childish because of legal or illegal drug use. Cognitively they may act like adults but when beset by anxiety they become stuck children. The frustration is overwhelming and dependence on drugs legal or illegal provides instantaneous relief.

 

Beginning to Deal with Anxiety

There are two basic strategies in dealing with anxiety:

  • Tolerate it until is dissipates.
  • Deal with it directly or indirectly.

In order to be able to tolerate anxiety one has to have had a history with it. Embedded in your history are the methods used to cope with anxiety until it goes away or disappears into the subconscious. Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience. Even part of tolerating anxiety becomes a part of dealing directly or indirectly with it.

Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies.

In dealing indirectly with anxiety comes the use of distractions. Some of the distractions may be healthy and some unhealthy. If you are depressed and you begin using methamphetamines to lift your mood, you will get an instantaneous lift from depression along with feelings of grandiosity and anxiety / excitement and this will be temporary. If you use marijuana to reduce anxiety you may become insular, depressed and /or paranoid if used to excess. Watching television to excess can make a healthy distraction unhealthy serve to isolate the individual etc.

Some distractions can also be a direct strategy in lowering anxiety. Taking a walk in nature or a run is one way to burn and / create energy to lower anxiety. It distracts the mind from the feeling and allows the body to detox anxiety on a cellular level.

Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies. In most modern cultures citizens don’t live in the body, we live in our minds (this also cold be called a preoccupation with thoughts to the exclusion of emotions and the sensory phenomena of the body). We know we have a physical body but we may be unaware of the body in a sensorial manner. Only un-mechanized agrarian cultures may remain in their bodies.

Immediate anxiety is an emotion that serves us when we are afraid and that fear is immediate. Anxiety serves to heighten awareness in this instance of immediacy. If a person is anxious about crossing the street because drivers are going through crosswalks illegally, anxiety and fear protect us from being hit by careless motorists. This is anxiety is exogenous.

Endogenous anxiety may be a feeling of dread upon awakening that develops into a full-blown anxiety attack. When that happens medications may or may not help. Practicing being aware of our body and our breath prior to a panic attack or increased unmanageable anxiety can assist in helping to lower anxious states if one remembers to employ the techniques. Dealing directly with anxiety can take on a number of strategies including:

  • Breath work
  • Systematized processes of reducing tension in various body parts allowing the person to be present with a body in a state of continuing relaxation.
  • a hot bath or shower
  • Receiving a massage
  • Drinking a relaxing non-caffeinated beverage
  • Listening to soothing (floatie-driftie) music
  • Reading
  • Sitting under a tree
  • Being with Redwood trees
  • Watching the waves at a beach
  • Soaking one’s feet in a foot bath
  • Centering and grounding
  • Hiking on a trail in nature
  • Running / Jogging
  • Swimming
  • Meditating

 

Besides using pharmaceutical anti-anxieties there are a number of natural alternatives. The supplement GABA or Gamma-Aminobutyric Acid is a neurotransmitter that has a number of benefits including lowering anxiety and … http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-and-supplements/gaba-uses-and-risks

 

And Acontium Napellus 30 c – a homeopathic formula for anxiety

 

 

Empathic Protection

Originally published May 21, 2015 and updated June 3, 2017

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Most children are empaths. Many people are empaths and sometimes this is a matter of degree. If we begin to think as the empathic ability as a continuum then sometimes people are highly empathic – highly sensitive and sometimes less empathic perhaps due to circumstance and/or better boundaries. However in every social group there may be one or more empaths that may function as checks for both conscious and unconscious emotional patterns within a particular group.

A client who was an empath asked me how she could keep out “bad energy” or “negative feelings”. How could she protect herself? This is a good question. No one who is an empath stays in a feeling place all the time. We go into our intellect as a way of protecting ourselves from the suffering of the world and from our own suffering.

Emotion is analogous to flowing water.

No one can stay in the heart one hundred percent of the time without breaking down. The best parts of ego allow us to balance emotions with the intellect. It is possible for an empath, stuck in fear for example, to begin to rationalize judge and exclude others shifting themselves from the heart into the mind and using the intellect as a fortress against emotions. A person overwhelmed with emotion could be fearful, defensive and react in anger if they are unaware of the empathic abilities. Other empaths may seem to attract nothing but negative energy from others (see Shadowcatchers below) and this may originate from being scapegoated as a child and accepting the role as an adult. Balancing mind and emotions requires attention and the use of thinking to identify emotions in others and our selves. Once we engage the mind to identify emotions we can develop a plan of action to help us cope with others’ feelings (see example below).

Most people who are empathic sponges would like to keep bad stuff out and let only the good stuff in, that’s only natural.

 

The best defense for empaths is flow.

 

Let it flow through you. A metaphor for flow of emotions is a fast flowing stream, waterfall or river. Emotion is the empaths currency. Emotion appears, we sometimes process it and then it goes. Empaths ability to feel others’ emotions and identify these emotions can be developed into a skill and can trigger responses in empaths that remind us of woundings from the past. As soon as you realize you are triggered remind yourself that you wouldn’t be able to recognize the trigger unless you were ready to deal with it.

If the empath can answer these questions when feeling others’ emotions then protection becomes simplified somewhat:

  1. Does this feeling I’m feeling belong to me? (Does it originate with me?)
  2. If YES, decide whether to deal with it in current time or postpone it until you can deal with it.
  3. If NO, then either let it flow through you quickly and ground it down into Molten Core of Earth, or offer it to be burnt up in the sun, or create a column of light to the left or right of you and put the emotion or set of emotions in the column of light.
  4. If MAYBE, it’s likely that the emotions that you’re feeling are similar emotions than the persons or persons producing them and you have lessons to learn here or you feel triggered. Ask that Spirit separate your feelings from the others and then deal with the feelings from the others as you would in #3 and /or in #1.

Many times the four-question method above may not be possible. When we encounter others’ emotions we may be overwhelmed with their emotions. Their emotions may trigger similar emotions in us. Part of our abilities as empaths is recognizing the common threads of emotion that bond humans together. Two common emotions that humans feel are grief and love. Feeling love in another or in others feels good. Feeling grief can be problematic. Part of the problem is that grief can spawn feelings such as sadness, anger / rage and these can turn into depression sometimes. Recognizing when you are triggered and dealing with the trigger is a first step at diffusing overwhelming emotions.

There can be two kinds of empaths for the purposes of this piece.[1] If you are reading this and feel you are an empath then you are on the path of a Conscious Empath. However there are unconscious empaths. These people become overwhelmed without knowing the reasons and sometimes blame others or become depressed. Their childhood traumas may be so complicated and their self-images so solid with walls instead of boundaries that their empathic abilities overwhelm them and prevent them from seeing triggers. They cannot process the overwhelming emotional onslaught without help. Usually some of these people feel they don’t need help.

You may also be a Shadowcatcher.

You may be a magnet for others shadows. Shadowcatchers may be absorbers of others unconscious projections. Essentially a shadowcatcher feels the shadow of another or shadows from groups. I noticed this when I was a participant in a healing circle. The facilitator asked for loving and healing energies from the group through coming forward – for a laying-on of hands or from our spot in the circle. Immediately I felt a surge of resentment and anger that was overwhelming. It happened many times until I realized what I was feelings was not coming from me. And as soon as I grounded it out I felt the love and was able to participate in the healing circle.

Sensitive people always attract less sensitive people to them especially if one or both parties are not conscious of their sensitivities. In psychology this is called Projective Identification.[2] Our culture often brands sensitive people as “weak” when in fact the opposite is true. I grew up in a stiff upper-lip Yankee family where tears were rarely shed. My Mother would shame me for my tearful behaviors by saying – “You’re too sensitive.” Often it was she who was projecting feelings onto me that I could express and then she would shame me for having done so because she did not want to acknowledge the feelings in herself. When sensitive people become aware of their sensitivities and can name their feelings and take responsibility for them with “I feel” statements then merely on the psychological basis feelings can be owned and the blame/shame game can be reduced.

If you are an empath that becomes infected with the shadows of others and these shadows blend with your emotions, then problems can become severely compounded. As a child and survivor of ritual sexual abuse that had been repressed I was severely depressed and passively suicidal for all of my teen years. When the memories of abuse began surfacing in my 40s I was able to begin to deal with the feelings and slowly work through the most arduous territories of the abuse. Every person on the planet has grown-up in a dysfunctional family to one degree or another. If you played the role of an empath in your family and that particular family was highly dysfunctional and negative then its likely that you may be carrying your family shadow and are acting out what had been passed on to you. There are three paths of approach that may help with your healing:

 

  • A daily spiritual practice that includes working on developing a non-judgmental and compassionate observed of your behaviors, thoughts and emotions (feelings)
  • Therapy
  • A visit to a healer to assist in removing possible ancestral beings stuck in your electromagnetic field.

 

I have been engaged in a daily spiritual practice for over 40 years and more intensely during the flashbacks of the abuse.

 

 

[1] The range of empathic abilities: https://lonerwolf.com/what-type-of-empath-are-you/

 

 

[2] Shadowcatchers in psychological terms: http://drs-oleary.com/Projective_Identification.htm

 

A practice of saying “thank-you” from the heart

As a recovering perfectionist I learned how to receive compliments and let go of doubt, low self-esteem and the constant need to be perfect in just a moment.

I was attending a Gurdjieff (Spiritual) School in the early 1980s. We were organized into groups for the first semester based on type. I was in a group of individualists who were creative, inventive loners, not playing well with others and had a cynical / angry / awkward edge to each of us. Our team / cooperation skills weren’t very good and so we were assigned to repair a truck gather wood while other groups worked on construction projects – finishing a greenhouse and building a loafing shed, and working on building a house. Our lack of teamwork and inexperience became evident when cooking a dinner. Our first dinner cooked by the ten of us for ourselves and 30 other students was a disaster. The appointed manager didn’t know what he was doing. But we improved.

After Thanksgiving I was manager for a meal. A woman from a group that made the best dinners approached me just before an evening class and congratulated me on doing a good job. I started to say that it could have been better (or perfect). Her reaction to my self deprecation was disappointment. In that moment I felt her praise, took it into my heart, looked her in the eyes and said:

                                                   Thank-you.



I saw that she was warmed by my acceptance of her compliment. This demonstrated an important principle of energy exchange.
It demonstrated a cycle of giving and receiving. When we work to accept a compliment in a heartfelt way we allow ourselves to receive a gift from another. When we say: “Thank-you” and look the person giving the compliment in the eyes we honor that person and acknowledge their gift with tender loving kindness. They gave us a compliment from a place of love and we have returned that compliment in kind. Giving and receiving is not a closed loop, it opens and allows energy to build.
The logical end of giving and receiving is a new economy based on community, cooperation where all are included…

Hope for Peace and Justice for All – the long haul

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In 1982 I experienced a gradual awakening as if I was emerging out of a cloud. I realized that the world was “Upside-Down” meaning that peace and justice existed only for those with the money to pay for it and that war was good for business. Later as a result of my desire for truth and a spiritual reconnection with planet Earth I came to see that justice needed to include the planet as well as all the peoples of the planet.

I didn’t know my place in this life-long movement, only that I needed to be a part of this vision for a better world for all.

My quest lead me to California to study Vipassana Meditation with a 90 year Cambodian Buddhist Monk. I felt called to become a healer, but my rational reductionistic thinking got in the way at that time.

In 1985 I began work in a Crisis Residential Treatment Center for people without money (or with SSI disability) experiencing a mental illness difficulties.

In the course of my work there I uncovered the alternative healer in myself and surrendered to this avocation.

I have worked in alternative non-profit Mental Health in California for nearly twenty years as a part of team working to assist those in crisis to have more meaningful lives. Many of our clients would come back. Some have gone on to meaningful and productive lives, others have died some by their own hand and some by disease. People without hope, living on the streets respond to a home-like environment and the care given by the team to begin the process of respect each individual deserves.

Working both as a Crisis Residential Counselor and as an alternative healer there are many times that I don’t or haven’t know the results of my efforts (or the team’s) and I continue to work for this because its the right path.

I recently retired to continue to pursue an alternative healing practice full time

A Primer ~ Autogenic Training

EssenceFlameEternalThe best way to learn Autogenic Training is through a teacher, guide or an instructor (an instructor has been practicing AT for many years but has not yet mastered it). AT without a teacher or instructor can be dangerous because of ego’s desire to meddle and build illusion towards self-aggrandizement.

Think of this piece as a teaser or introduction. Then look for a teacher, guide or an instructor.

Autogenic Training begins with self-observation that builds towards the formation of a Witness Self. The Witness is a cultivated dispassionate observer that can be described as “I was beside myself”, allowing us to perceive our selves with clear neutral pictures (perceptions) without judgment or opinion thus allowing divine compassion to enter and a clear picture of all our selves.

Self-observation is difficult to write about because we have no specific language for its description. Beginners often confuse self-observation with ideas, inferences and get distracted by associations which become mind-games. Self-observation requires participation from the mind, awareness of your body sensations, and your emotional state.

 

Here is an outline for starting:

 

  • Pick a simple physical activity to observe such as rinsing a dish, putting your key in the ignition and starting your car, opening a door.

 

  • Begin by relaxing your body.

 

  • Choose your pinky finger on your non-dominate hand to begin (I’m right handed, so I choose my left hand, my left pinkie finger.)

 

  • I allow sensation to gather in my pinkie finger by feeling its weight. This may appear as a warmth, tingling, energy running through the pinkie or an awareness of physical sensation there. Go lightly allow this to happen don’t force it to happen.

 

  • Once the sensation is established allow ten percent of your attention to rest in your pinkie finger while engaging in the simple physical task.

 

  • Allow yourself to be aware of your physical, emotional and mental state while performing the task in this way.

Share your observations with your teacher, guide or instructor. Always use first person – present tense when sharing you observations (remember “the past” are memories that exist in the present). For example – I notice…

See also – Struggle – It’s Not what You Think: https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2016/05/09/struggle-its-not-what-you-think/

 

Earth as friend – all beings sacred

imagesHumans are mammals living within a larger living being – Earth. Another way of thinking about the context of ourselves within the planet is the planet within us. We are host to many parasites, to cancer cells mostly inactive, bacteria and so on living symbiotically with us. Most of us have forgotten that we are animals and we have lost our connection to our home – the planet that sustains us. It isn’t enough to think about a connection to Earth and be connected. Thinking keeps us in the realm of thought and the mind. Thinking about being connected to the planet may be a romantic notion that continues to keep us disconnected. It is thought and the technology of thinking mainly language that has aided us in our disconnection from Earth. The nature of language and how we have used it has laid the groundwork for the objectification of Earth as a thing. Modern Capitalism has defiled Earth into resources or things.

 

Our bodies are ordinarily grounded to Earth. But we are not always present in our bodies so the grounding visualization is ideal for feeling a connection to Earth and having a personal relationship with her. Due to our focus on and in our minds we don’t have much awareness of our bodies and how they relate to one another and the environment both human-made and nature. We treat our bodies as vehicles of consciousness and thus make our bodies things to be used. Experience becomes objectified and we are cut off from our bodies, our emotions and even from our minds. The disconnection spreads to see people and earth as things. We become more easily manipulated and eventually enslaved from this kind of disconnection.

 

Earth: At the core of Earth is an iron ore crystalline sphere rotating four degrees faster than the surface of earth as it floats in the liquid magma at Earth’s center. Surrounding the magma is the magnetic core. Surrounding the magnetic core are all the layers of rock divided by volcanic fissures. The Iron Ore crystal contains the codes for all organic and in-organic body-beings in the biosphere. The Iron Ore is earth’s heart because it allows life and the magnetic field (aura) to exist. By connecting to the core on a daily basis one can develop a personally intimate connection with earth that goes beyond words.

 

This is a sacred process. When we feel Earth as mother and friend the threads of sacredness spread out to include all beings organic and inorganic. Sense, feel and envision our planet as a friend and our participation with Earth as a harmonious celebration of life.

An Intuitive Look at Thoughtforms

In Tibetan Buddhism a thoughtform or tulpa arises from the mind which creates illusory states often referred to as realities.EssenceFlameEternalSri Aurobindo reports that Modern Humans do not have the ability to think in complete thoughtforms. As a result of incomplete thought forms negative thinking manifests in lower vibrational environments as violence, war, murder and death. If a random negative thought occurs in us and we don’t take responsibility to stop if from entering into the stream of the world then it seeks out a lower vibrational reality to manifest itself.

 Most thoughts do not originate with us. It is extremely rare for an original thought to arise in us.

The question remains then if an original thought is rare where do all these thoughts originate?

Most of the thoughts we think are recycled passed on to us from our parents (and previous generations et. al.) and born from dysfunctional behavioral patterns based on fear instead of love. Lower vibrational thinking based on fears are easier to accept due to our neurological hard wiring and biological survival instincts. This kind of thinking and the emotional correlates make it easier for it to bond with the body’s thoughts and habits. Fear based thought is held by the body for the purpose of survival and harks back to human’s pre-language survival behaviors. Fear is a useful emotion when it alerts us to an immediate danger. Fears in modern civilization are often separated from immediate dangers and produce a neurotic impulses from which arrives anxiety and increasing stress.

“New Age” thinking though useful is predicated on the illusion that we are capable of original though and free will or free choice. Examples of this paradigm of logic can be found: https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2016/03/15/a-conversation-about-ego-and-unconditional-love/

The Dali Lama and others who meditate report that the best time of day for the practice of meditation is at 3:00 am. The reason – when the mind is quieted it is increasingly receptive to the noise of the thinking of others. Most people who sleep at night – the cycles of sleeping are deepest at 3 am, and the noises of others thinking is quieter at that hour. Quieting of the mind for meditation can occur more readily at that time. Meditation allows for a quieter mind allowing the nature of peace and expanded consciousness to be perceived by us. Meditation is the beginning of making space for the practice towards mastery and generating complete thoughtforms.

The neurological basis of thought is an electrical firing of energy across a synapse connecting with another synapse. The electrical nature of thinking fills our aura or electromagnetic field with the residue of our thoughts each with distinctive charges. Our biology creates an electromagnetic atmosphere around us that varies in size anywhere from 6 to 12 feet in terms the most personally charged field. Other more subtle fields can range from 25 to 100 feet in diameter and “sit” outside the personal field.

When we interact with many others we come in contact with the matrices of thought and shared thinking with others. This could be referred to being “psychic”, but it is not. It is not psychic because we have been sharing this chaos for so long it is difficult to tease out individual thoughts for two or more reasons: 1. There are too many thoughts to differentiate one from another. An automatic screener has developed in us and manifests unconsciously; 2. Receiving one thought of many thoughts triggers an association based on our ego’s constellation of previous thoughts and received thoughts are then mistaken for original thoughts. When we live in a sea of thoughts that are invisible absorbing the matrix of thinking that has existed since the technologies of language were first put to use then we create an illusion that we are original thinkers and continue to make assumptions that are built on the platform of language and ego.

The chief purpose of spiritual practices and disciplines are to assist individuals in developing essence and unifying the fragmented and wounded voices within (that make up ego) while bringing essence to a level of mastery. It is only then during the process of unification towards mastery that the field of thoughts and so-called original thoughts can be seen as recycled materials. Once the student begins to see this then the beginnings of accountability can take hold around thoughtforms.

When we begin to see evidence the ego as illusion and feel an insatiable thirst for wholeness of our Being then essence work can start and grow towards mastery. It is only then can incomplete thoughtforms be stopped through a process of taking responsibility for thoughts, emotions and somatic reactions. This is a monumental task and not everyone is up for the extent of work that the quest for mastery requires.