A Search through Dreams

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In late September of 1990 I called out to the Spirit World to guide me to a new place to live. I worked through my network while searching for a new place to live. The house I was sharing with two housemates had become intolerable due to addiction issues with one housemate and the co-dependence of the other.

We found a peace school

I asked for a dream to guide me:

I dreamt that I was traveling with a friend from the Sonoma Valley to Napa Valley on a secret road that paralleled Trinity Road and Dry Creek Road into Napa County. We found a peace school and a few others secret places where I felt drawn to on a heart level.

Iris at a church service recommended Jim Hallock who as it turned out at purchased her old house on Trinity Road in Glen Ellen about 1,000 feet above the valley. He had an unlisted phone number. Iris gave me the address and I wrote him a letter.

He called me. I went and looked at the small apartment beneath his house. I brought deposit cash with me. He told me that just before he picked up the mail his tenant gave notice that he was moving out. Jim was delighted with the synchronicity. I offered him deposit dollars and he said:

“No, I take you at your word.”

I moved in on November 1, 1990. A few months Jim told me he was lowering my rent because he liked me.

We became good friends and we played Ping-Pong often.

In 1998 Jim sold the house to Klaus. He moved to Colorado with his wife Nora and began building houses with an adobe brick making machine.* Klaus gave me 6 months notice because he liked me and wanted to remain friends with Jim

In July of 2000 when Klaus gave me notice ( 6 months) I asked for a dream and I did a vision quest for a new place.

I moved out 10 years and 1 month later in December of 2000.

*Jim was invited by the State Department to go to Mexico to help rebuild after a major earthquake. He started a second business of building adobe homes in Mexico. After dealing with wealthy people in the US and Mexico with whom didn’t pay their debts he started a non-profit and one of his projects was building a clinic somewhere in Africa to treat children with HIV.

 

My next dream finding place was a house with a tall tree at the front of the house. The owner was a tall lanky man that bore a resemblance to Sam Shepard, the playwright and actor. I took the dream to a vision quest.

had forgotten about my dream

In the waking vision I saw a house surrounded by nature. The house itself may have been built in the 1930s or 40s. The kitchen was on the left side towards the back with a screened in porch on the right overlooking a field. There may have been a detached garage.

In the living room there was a fireplace or maybe one that was sealed up. The place had one or two bedrooms.

The Redwood in the front yard became my teacher.

A friend suggested an ad in the paper and she wrote the ad for me.

When I looked at the place I had forgotten about my dream. It was within the city limits of Sonoma and was on a half-acre of land, a big field with a few tall trees. I walked through the backyard and saw that the TV antenna had fallen over since my arrival. That triggered me to remember the dream. The lawyer – landlord did resemble an older Sam Shepard. The layout of the house was dyslexic and there was no screened-in porch in the back.

I took the place.

 

The Redwood in the front yard of about 65 feet tall became a teacher.

https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/2015/12/17/journey-with-a-spirit-guide-the-redwood-tree/

 

Composite Beings – Part One

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A number of years ago in the 1980s the term “walk-in” gained popularity especially with new age thinkers. Ruth Montgomery first coined it in a book published in 1979: Strangers Among Us [1].

peaceful co-existence between the dissociative parts and personalities or a hunger for integration.

Walk-Ins were high vibrational beings who replaced “souls” that wanted to leave due to personal trauma [1]. Later in the 1980s and 90s the walk-in name was expanded to include a permanent or temporary stay by the higher vibrational being and/or sharing knowledge with the individual host [2].

Composite Beings have been with us before our current written history

However when knowledge and experience are shared between the original host and the higher vibrational being there is a blending. This is a Composite Being. Usually the single “walk-in” experience was obscured or cloistered from the host for many years until an urge for healing becomes oriented towards either peaceful co-existence between the dissociative parts and personalities or a hunger for integration.

Composite Beings have been with us before our current written history and occur for a variety of opposing reasons:

The Host (receptive vessel):

  • Is an old soul in the cycle of reincarnation
  • Has had single or numerous severe traumatic events and/or losses in childhood or adolescence
  • Has responded to trauma with a Dissociative Personality Disorder strategy over time
  • In the multiple dissociative states including Alternate Personalities there is a great longing for unification and/or peace and balance.

 

A Higher Vibrational Being (active vessel):

  • The Higher Vibrational Being is an older soul than the host
  • Has a karma/dharma link with the receptive vessel or host
  • Provides a unifying personality feature and strength of character needed by the host
  • The Higher Vibrational Being is on an active mission that allows healing to occur for the host while healing energies spill over to humanity at large directly and/or indirectly
  • The Higher Vibrational Being’s mission besides healing may extend to other areas.

 

The Neutral Vessel is Planet Earth.

 

Composite Beings are attracted to one another whether or not they are aware of the composite blending within themselves for the purpose of awakening and healing.

Once a fractured personality strategy is acknowledged in the conscious ego of the host where the Composite Being is acknowledged and recognized and healing begins other Composite Beings are attracted to one another on a higher vibrational level for the purpose of their missions.

When awakening begins to blossom within the Composite Being other Composite beings on the same or higher vibrational frequency are drawn to each other. The other Composite Beings are on a continuum of self-discovery where they may assist or be assisted by each other for the purpose of healing and fulfilling the individual and collective missions.

 

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Walk-in

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Walk-in

[2] http://www.crystalinks.com/walk_ins.html

 

A Daily Plan

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  2. The Flush: a ten to fifteen minute rant on Trump, make it funny if possible
  3. Data: gather data on FLIPPING CONGRESS AND THE NATION, PLUS legislation to support or oppose.
  4. BREATHE
  5. ACTION PART ONE: look at legislation to oppose and / or support make 3 phone calls and send emails – 1 member of House of Reps and 2 Senators preferably in your state to start.
  6. BREATHE
  7. ACTION PART TWO: look at budget and who and how much to contribute to candidates (progressive and/or Dems guys*) opposed to GOP agenda and contribute
  8. BREATHE
  9. ACTION PART THREE: make report on social media

BREATHE!

* guys – womens, mens, androgynous-es, transgenders, gays, lesbians, genderqueers, asexuals and everybody else.

PS This is not about real soup you eat or slurp. This is about the soup we’re in. Hope that clears things up. Tuff if it doesn’t.

My story of the movies…

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About the age of 15 or 16 my best friend Paul D. and I got together to make a movie. We wrote a script based on our goofy sense of humor and our favorite movies of Sean Connery as 007. Our character was James Notch 008 and ½ based on the Notch Store on the west side of Cheshire with a 67 page script maybe (it was a long time ago). It was a movie that never got made.

 

“Everybody knows they only make movies in Hollywood,”

classmates told us.

 

Coincidentally the Notch Store was the backdrop for the final scene in a film directed by Paul Newman called Rachel, Rachel in 1968 and was nominated for 4 Oscars including Best Picture (it didn’t win any Oscars).

I threw myself on the floor and rolled around. I moaned, I whined until she (my mom) agreed.

The next film that Paul and I filmed didn’t have a script. It was just visual ideas I had that I thought would look good strung together. It was a silent color film shot on a Double 8mm film made with a wind-up camera with three twists lenses and had variable shooting speeds. Back in the days of film – sound films were shot at 24 frames per second and silent films at 18 frames per second. Shoot at slower speeds and everyone would speed up. Shoot at faster speeds and slow-motion happens.

I convinced a girl down the street who was a year older than me to be in the film. She was the good guy with a white cowboy hat. I shot that first scene at sunset. The camera was on the ground, which meant I was on the ground too. She ran towards the camera hat on and she brandished the gun (an unloaded Luger my Father had as a souvenir from WWII) and jumped over me. She refused to be in the film after that. I even offered to pay her, but she said no. It was okay to use that footage she told me, mainly because she was in silhouette and no one could see her face.

After that I pleaded with my mom to be in the movie. I threw myself on the floor and rolled around. I moaned, I whined until she agreed. And she did. Phil B my best friend (the trio of nerdy guys – me, Paul and Phil) was the villain, though he looked like an innocent kid.

The Fordham’s Young Filmmakers Festival of 1968 in NYC

It was called: The Chase and it was awful. It was about 40 minutes too long. There were two special effects. My mom shoots at Phil and his black beret whips off his head. I used a fishing pole with some line. We shot all the scenes with my mom with slow film speeds so she looked like a lone Keystone Cop running in long shots that were way too long. And there was a car chase with one long POV (point of view) shot from the car, very boring.

The dying scenes were hilarious because my mom and Phil hammed it up.

Our art teacher suggested we send it to the Fordham’s Young Filmmakers Festival in NYC. We did and the only good thing about the movie was our entry into the festival. It was in 1968 in the winter during the first garbage strike. John Lindsay was major.

I learned so much about films and Paul and I had a good time – away from parents for a whole weekend. We saw a pre-screening of The Planet of The Apes with Charlton Heston.

When I returned I began studying film – Ingmar Bergman, Truffaut, Godard and American Film. I started a film club of watching great films and making small films, though we never got around to watching the great films.

I made one successful short film of 3 minutes made via pixilation or 3D animation (now CGI would be used). It was called King Chair. It made a $45 profit and was shown all over the world. When I asked my mom to be in subsequent movies she agreed if I was never to show her face.

I was thinking about going to go to New York University Film School and was toying with schools focusing on Creative Writing but my Guidance Counselor didn’t have the bravery to tell me that my SAT scores abysmally low. She brought me to the lounge of the other Guidance Counselors for their support in telling me. (Who was supporting me?). They basically said I was too stupid to get a BA and should settle for a BFA in film. I was angry and decided to let go of film school for a BA in English.

Writing pervaded my life.

I got side-tracked into psychology and ended up graduating from one of the top 20 universities in the US with a 3.2 cumulative average. I guess that proved I wasn’t stupid. I got a BA in Psychology with 2 Minors – one in English Literature and the other in Philosophy.

Writing pervaded my life. I tried going back into film in the mid to late 80s. I met Robert Altman who gave me an obscure window into his next film but I was too stupid to get it. (Maybe the guidance counselors were right – I was “too stupid”). His next film was The Player.

I’m still writing and doing my other work that I had surrendered into – as a healer. Being a healer/shaman/astrologer is something I have been doing formally since 1990. I have a fantasy novel that is being readied for publication – The Green Man of Destiny and I have been working on a series of 9 science-fiction novels.

Throughout it all I love stories and I love making-up and writing stories. I only wish I could transfer the images I see in my head to the reader’s head or the film goer, but I love the texture and wobble of words to send the images.

 

Nine Life Shaping Events and…

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One:

My early life as a child and later as a teenager was punctuated by extraordinary events that helped shape all subsequent experiences.

Before I attended kindergarten I was eager to learn spelling, which included writing out my name. In the mid 1950s my parents did not send me to nursery school. Between birth and five years old my parents and younger sister and I lived in a second floor apartment that had once been part of an attic in one big house.

At age four I was lying in bed one night watching the floaters in the film of my eyes dart across the night-light lit ceiling of my bedroom. I believed the floaters were stars and I was trying to catch one of them. As soon as I thought I had one it would dart away. It was a futile activity and I don’t know how long I spent doing it. Perhaps I was awakening.

I asked Jesus to protect me. Then I felt Jesus put the heel of his hand near my groin while his fingertips just reached my throat. Even though my body was small, Jesus’s hand must have been extraordinarily big. And I felt safe, grateful and joyous. I saw a piece of glass on the floor.

I took the piece of glass and I carved Jesus’s name in the top drawer of my bureau. The “J” was backwards and the writing was wonky. I threw the piece of glass in the wastebasket and went back to sleep.

In the morning I thought it had all been a dream until I saw Jesus’s name carved in the top drawer of my bureau. I knew that I was going to be in trouble with my parents for defacing the furniture. They said nothing and seemed to pretend that it didn’t exist.

Years later through flashbacks I uncovered a memory of sexual abuse that my father had perpetrated and my mother had covered up. It put the Jesus memory in a context that made sense. I chose to remember my contiguous memory of Jesus’s protection even though I had acknowledged the abuse and its cover-up.

 

Two:

At eleven or twelve years of age my mother drove us to the mall in the adjacent town. “How do these cars not hit each other?” I was wondering in my mind. They are in this dance of cooperation. The dance was fascinating especially when I extrapolated this dance around the world.

Three:

At age twelve I had been wandering in the library and found two books. One book reflected my depressive self and the other my expansive self. The first book reflecting the depressive in me was “Notes from Underground” by Dostoyevsky. The second book – “The Future of Man” by Teilhard de Chardin reflected my expansive higher consciousness self. That evening I asked to talk with my father about not using fear to shape his children.

Four:

In the summer of 1967 at age fifteen while I was on vacation with my family on Cape Cod I hiked up the beach from Eastham by Nauset Light to Truro about twelve miles – north of the Marconi Station. I had a heart-based experience that love untied the world. It filled ne with bliss and ecstasy. Words pale. The experience was ineffable.

Five:

In the summer of 1968 at age sixteen while I was on vacation with my family on Cape Cod I went out onto the mudflats at low tide in Wellfleet. The sun was beginning to set. I leapt into the air and I felt “the world as one”. And in a vision I saw every being connected by beams of light, one heart to another. From space the entire planet was consumed by light.

 

Six:

In 1984 I was in a leadership-training course. I was 32 years old. Our group was team building on a Ropes Course near Woodland, California. One of our teammates was up in the trees preparing to jump onto a wobbly platform, supported in a safety harness by two burly fellows on the ground and two support people in the trees. Our support consisted of us yelling like rabid cheerleaders at her. It made no sense to me so I projected the supportiveness of my heart energy into the trees and towards her.

Something happened that I hadn’t expected.

I saw light coursing through the trunks and branches of the trees. Looking at the light streaming so quickly through the trees was intense.

I looked down. I looked at the ground and then at the bare skin on my left arm.

I saw inside my arm. Where blood was pumping through the arteries and veins I saw light pulsing.  Light from a near by leafy bush (the leaves were tender and sweet to look at) extended a cloudy plasmic field of light around my arm as if to comfort me.

At that time it was too intense for me to process it and I closed my eyes and prayed for normalcy.  When I opened by eyes moments later I saw what I had expected to see – all was normal and reassuring.

Seven:

The Calling – https://psychesweather.wordpress.com/the-calling/

 

Eight, Nine and more – explore this blog.

Vision: And the Headline reads –

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Vision –

Headline to read:

Impeachment Imminent –

Trump Invalidated – Nation Healing

Trumps resigns and flees US to avoid charges of treason

GOP indicting President Trump for Treason, violations of the Emoluments Act, Obstruction of Justice – impeachment vote confirmed.

Trump avoided impeachment by resigning and fled the United States in a flurry of Twitter accusations against the GOP, the FBI and and CIA in his flight to Morocco. Trump administration resigning. Trump avoided indictments of treason and arrest warrants being issued by fleeing the US to Morocco with no extradition.

Vice President Pence to be sworn in as President.

Effective Manifestation – an example – bringing in a life partner

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– Making Full Use of Affirmations

The chief problem with affirmation effectiveness comes from both an illusory notion that our minds are all-powerful and a disconnection from other parts of our selves.

 We forget that we have emotions and an emotional center.

We forget we have a physical body.

 Okay, we don’t really forget these parts of ourselves we assume that these two other centers in us are part of that affirmation without acknowledging their true importance. As a result of this assumption we draw our emotions and our physical presence from an automatic or mechanic place so that the power of these centers may be greatly reduced.

In a workshops I have given on Mastery, we work with affirmations from a Full-Bodied Manifestation perspective can lead to greater results. I invite you experiment with contacting the center of emotions, your heart and the center of the physical body or moving center – the second chakra and incorporating the energies from these centers in your affirmations.

Get a special notebook that you will use for your affirmations and a pen that you will only use to write your affirmations. Write a vision statement/description of your involvement / relationship with that which you want to manifest – such as your beloved. Look at your vision statement before you write you affirmations.

Write in the morning when you wake and/or at night before going to sleep. Here is an affirmation for bringing in a lover or life-partner:

I, your First and Last name, am in a loving relationship with (the man, woman or being) of my visions and/or profile.

I, First and Last Name, deserve to be in this relationship.

I, First and Last Name, am creating opportunities for us to meet.

_______

You, First and Last name, are in a loving relationship with (the man or woman) of your visions and/or profile.

You, First and Last Name, deserve to be in this relationship.

You, First and Last Name, are creating opportunities for the two of you to meet.

_______

She or He, First and Last name, are in a loving relationship with (the man or woman) of his/her visions and/or profile.

She or He, First and Last Name, deserve to be in this relationship.

She or He, First and Last Name, are creating opportunities for the two of them to meet.