A Call to Service

VertexSmalldarkerDone-copyI was called to work as a shaman / healer.

It was a process of awakening that was slow at first. In the beginning I avoided the awakening experiences because of something some had once said:

“Many psychic-type experiences will happen as you do ‘The Work’. Pay no attention to this and continue to do your inner work.”

spoken by Pierre Elliot Headmaster 

of the Fifth Basic Course at Claymont School for Continuous Education


in August of 1981.

“The Work” is the Gurdjieff Work based on the esoteric principles of inner spiritual work to perfect one’s being as a part of mastery. As I did my inner work many amazing experiences happened that fell outside the norms of linear reality. My preparation in becoming a shaman / healer was through my work at a crisis residential treatment program as well as an on-going spiritual practice. After 4 years of work in this organization I was called to ask a question of the universe or God or Spirit in February of 1990:

God, what am I suppose to do with my life?


At the time I did not know why I asked the question. In retrospect I can see that I was stable enough on the path of my inner work so I was ready to take the next step.

I thought that I might have a dream about my path. When I awoke I realized there had been no dream. I felt groggy and not ready to leave my bed.

A Being entered through my groin and curled up into a ball in my stomach. Then a full name came to me.  It was the name of a woman whom I had met about a month earlier that I had instantly disliked. I went to the phone book thinking I would be let off the hook and not be able to call her – in my groggy trance state I mistakenly thought her phone number would not have been listed in the phone book.  But I found her number. I dialed the number. She answered and I identified myself.

I know what I’m about to say sounds crazy, but…” 

I relayed the experience that had just happened.

She said:

“I’ve been curled up in the fetal position and I have been thinking about killing myself.”

At that point I made her promise that she would not harm herself in any way until we could meet two days later.

I drove to her house on Bennett Mountain where she told me what had happened to her over the holidays. I had gathered the names of therapists and groups in town from my friends at work (the crisis resident treatment house) as resources for her. I spent four hours at her home.

At the end of my stay I handed her the resource list and she said:

“The universe put you out there to hear my call. 

That’s what I needed to start going again.”

We are friends and she is alive and healthy to this day.

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I have felt blessed since I heard my calling and surrendered into it. I worked hard to get to this place and upon surrendering into it I was shown something in dreamtime*. In the dreamtime I stood beside a luminous being as they opened a book of golden light and felt that my destiny as some thing that had already been written. I was allowed to take a glimpse. It was an honor. Gratitude, acceptance and love flowed through me.

All those who have come to me for healings have been my teachers. Its been an honor. Thank-you All and Blessing to you.

*the dreamtime is a separate reality different from ordinary dreams.


If you’re interested in knowing more, need assistance or wish to open to your spiritual – clairvoyance, clairaudience / shamanic gifts you can email me: the.kai9@gmail.com or look for my upcoming book – a memoir on how I uncovered my life as a healer at the end of this year or the beginning of 2021.

Frank Kai Ontario

3 thoughts on “A Call to Service

    1. Thank-you.

      And thank-you for allowing me to go deeply to the heart of your question – curiously your question has opened my heart to the nexus of the life-blood that sustains me in the work that flows through me.

      My mission is completed each time I work with those that are suffering. My mission is completed in the present moment if/when they find ways to accept the healing that flows through me or not. My mission is continuously completed in the sacred present moment when they discover the healing within themselves. The mission is not so much about an effort of completion in a linear time-space continuum, rather it is my work to accept the people that come to me exactly as they are offer compassion, safety, skills and service which have never gone unrewarded even if they reject my efforts. Of course this takes work on-myself.

      After all, I am no saint.

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