Charlottesville and the Downside of The Solar Eclipse

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The eclipse is the shadow of the moon obscuring the light of the Sun on the Earth. Shadow elements of the blockage of the Sun (in late Leo – proud heart of love) is bringing forth its opposite hate, fear and violence to be released.

The god of war – Mars is also associated with action and leadership – on the high side and anger, violence and aggression on the low side. Mars is a (male) yang planet. Mars in Leo can be pushy and dynamic and is associated with the eclipse, part of the shadow.

The impulsive/ dark side violent energy of Mars in Charlottesville was fueled by Moon in Aries wildly impulsive prone to emotional outbursts.

The shadow of fear and hatred has come to light. One of the perpetrators has lost his job. Others are under investigation for their crimes.

The Illinois State Legislators have proposed a law:

http://reverepress.com/news/illinois-senate-passes-bill-label-white-supremacists-terrorist-organization/

Trump /GOP notes – the bullet list “Out-of-sight. Out-of-mind” (part 2)

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GOP / Trump says:

  • If your white you’re with me (black is okay to – only if in upper middle class and think poor people don’t count)
  • If you hate people of color, LGBT, Latinos, Muslims – wait – hate is too strong a word. More like out of sight out of mind.
  • Believe in the America of the 1930s and 1940s
  • Might makes right
  • Women belong to men
  • every white and/or upper middle class guy should carry a gun and use it to defend himself, his family and property even if it means proactively hunting down poor people and killing them

 

Solutions for America

  • Poor people should get a job or disappear (get a job, stop complaining and disappear “Be grateful I am your Prez,” so says Trump.)
  • the mentally or physically disabled are burdens and should disappear
  • Liberals should disappear
  • “Problems that aren’t problems will disappear, because I say so,” so says Trump
  • “Anyone who disagrees with me,” so says Trump “should disappear.”
  • “I don’t want to think about those people,” so says Trump.
  • “The rich will inherit the earth,” so says Trump.

 

Disappear Means (though never spoken or written):

  • Be imprisoned (in state and federal prisons, or concentration camps)
  • Leave America
  • die
  • Be Christian or be dead or leave America
  • shut-up, obey “And cower before me,” so says Trump.
  • “Worship me. Tell me of my greatness everyday. Bow before me,” so says Trump.

Dealing with Anxiety – a primer

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Anxiety arises from fear and it protects us from danger.

Anxiety has become a complex problem due to many factors.

There are two types of anxieties. One is exogenous and one endogenous. Exogenous means something that is produced outside of us. In and in the way I am using this word is directing the cause of anxiety to an event in our immediate present or near future. Endogenous means causes by something within us and I surmise that this type of anxiety began in the outside world in one or many traumatic events so that it appears to become internally produced or triggered. In this case there is no identifiable cause of feeling anxious and this becomes an existential condition.

Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management.

Exogenous anxiety is a cause and effect relationship. I’m anxious about my day in court. The day comes – it wasn’t as bad as I thought, I feel relived and anxiety is reduced significantly. However if I have experienced clustered exogenous anxiety producing events as a child then these can easily translate into an endogenous anxiety condition.

The two basic systemic problems of coping / dealing with anxiety are as follows:

  • We live in a complex world undergoing transformations even beyond institutional control that are stressful and anxiety producing.
  • Denial that anxiety is an emotion that could be valuable and is thus thought of as an emotion to be constantly controlled or virtually eliminated.

Part of what the drug industry has done in helping to treat anxiety has made the emotion an undesirable problem to be eliminated or under constant management. It is the perfect emotion to target with a product because our attitude towards the emotion (to be gotten rid of) and a world that is a nest for increasing anxieties and thus provides continuing and increasing profits. And it is not that simple either.

The use of street or illicit drugs at a young age for self-medication (dealing with depression and anxiety) and the concurrent addiction issues along with marketed pharmaceuticals on television has engendered a culture that looks to legal drugs to squash emotional problems of anxiety and depression amongst others. And while this may be effective it reduces our ability as a culture for self-reliant behaviors and creative problem solving.

Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience.

What happens when a younger person uses street drugs or prescribed medications to diminish anxiety, the anxiety goes away. Emotional growth stops at the age when street drugs and/or prescription drugs are used and often abused. A drug abusing person enters into a drug-culture. Later in life when a person wants to genuinely deal with emotional and psychologically difficulties their emotional responses may be childlike or childish because of legal or illegal drug use. Cognitively they may act like adults but when beset by anxiety they become stuck children. The frustration is overwhelming and dependence on drugs legal or illegal provides instantaneous relief.

 

Beginning to Deal with Anxiety

There are two basic strategies in dealing with anxiety:

  • Tolerate it until is dissipates.
  • Deal with it directly or indirectly.

In order to be able to tolerate anxiety one has to have had a history with it. Embedded in your history are the methods used to cope with anxiety until it goes away or disappears into the subconscious. Tolerating anxiety comes from learning and experience. Even part of tolerating anxiety becomes a part of dealing directly or indirectly with it.

Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies.

In dealing indirectly with anxiety comes the use of distractions. Some of the distractions may be healthy and some unhealthy. If you are depressed and you begin using methamphetamines to lift your mood, you will get an instantaneous lift from depression along with feelings of grandiosity and anxiety / excitement and this will be temporary. If you use marijuana to reduce anxiety you may become insular, depressed and /or paranoid if used to excess. Watching television to excess can make a healthy distraction unhealthy serve to isolate the individual etc.

Some distractions can also be a direct strategy in lowering anxiety. Taking a walk in nature or a run is one way to burn and / create energy to lower anxiety. It distracts the mind from the feeling and allows the body to detox anxiety on a cellular level.

Part of dealing with anxiety directly is being present, centered and grounded in our bodies. In most modern cultures citizens don’t live in the body, we live in our minds (this also cold be called a preoccupation with thoughts to the exclusion of emotions and the sensory phenomena of the body). We know we have a physical body but we may be unaware of the body in a sensorial manner. Only un-mechanized agrarian cultures may remain in their bodies.

Immediate anxiety is an emotion that serves us when we are afraid and that fear is immediate. Anxiety serves to heighten awareness in this instance of immediacy. If a person is anxious about crossing the street because drivers are going through crosswalks illegally, anxiety and fear protect us from being hit by careless motorists. This is anxiety is exogenous.

Endogenous anxiety may be a feeling of dread upon awakening that develops into a full-blown anxiety attack. When that happens medications may or may not help. Practicing being aware of our body and our breath prior to a panic attack or increased unmanageable anxiety can assist in helping to lower anxious states if one remembers to employ the techniques. Dealing directly with anxiety can take on a number of strategies including:

  • Breath work
  • Systematized processes of reducing tension in various body parts allowing the person to be present with a body in a state of continuing relaxation.
  • a hot bath or shower
  • Receiving a massage
  • Drinking a relaxing non-caffeinated beverage
  • Listening to soothing (floatie-driftie) music
  • Reading
  • Sitting under a tree
  • Being with Redwood trees
  • Watching the waves at a beach
  • Soaking one’s feet in a foot bath
  • Centering and grounding
  • Hiking on a trail in nature
  • Running / Jogging
  • Swimming
  • Meditating

 

Besides using pharmaceutical anti-anxieties there are a number of natural alternatives. The supplement GABA or Gamma-Aminobutyric Acid is a neurotransmitter that has a number of benefits including lowering anxiety and … http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-and-supplements/gaba-uses-and-risks

 

And Acontium Napellus 30 c – a homeopathic formula for anxiety

 

 

Last Mass Extinction Scenarios and the Best Alternative

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About 25,000 years ago life on Earth was substantially very different. People had a natural ability to connect to nature, to communicate with animals and plants as well as each other in a way that was telepathic and empathic (emotional) woven together. A Guardian of the Planet due to races on the other side of the galaxy seeking to mine higher functions of humans – basically to eat the light that humans generated shut off this ability. A buffer was put in place for about 200 to 300 years. When it was removed the ability did not return for the majority of humans though the danger had passed.

 

Not to scale – charts of worlds 1 – 5 (and the beginning of world 6)

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Aliens and humans from the future orchestrated a mass extinction event that instigated a thermonuclear war between two major powers and Atlantis. The war and the testing of a crystalline communications and power transfer system totally destroyed almost all the people of Earth and decimated Atlantis through massive floods and sinking islands and sub-continents. The Toltec described the end of the 3rd world as a thermonuclear war.

 

The era of the 3rd World of Atlantis and Lemuria were a time of clans and guilds. Lemuria pioneered genetically produced human beings to augment and replace the Servant Clans towards the end times of the third world. Many of the new servant class were clairvoyant and knew of the impending end and went into caves. The Bible mentions Giants. The servant class was short in stature 4 to 5 feet tall. The “Giants” were easily six feet or taller. They emerged from Shambhalla (also know as the Hidden Directorate, Shangri-La, Beldovia) to assist the humans of that time to cleanse from radiation poisoning and to provide seed stock and grains. The Shambhallans traveled as couples man-woman pairs taught populations how to cleanse from excessive radiation and then they perished.

 

The servant peoples evolved into the Matriarchy and survived for 5 to 6,000 years before being overcome by the Huns. There was no single Mass Extinction Event between the Matriarchy (the 4th world) and the 5th world, the Patriarchy. The Matriarchy survived the longest in North American before the influence of Europeans and other influences destroyed their way of life through genocide.

 

Jeffery Wolf Green astrologer and author of many books – Pluto being one of them (Pluto – death brings new life) says that we, meaning all of us alive today- born in the mid 1930s to present time were alive during the matriarchy. And those awakened are the leaders into the sixth world.

 

Moving into the Sixth World: Three Scenarios

 Moving from worst to best. Each of the three scenarios listed below in terms of maximizing economics and limiting human suffering is the last choice.

Continue with Climate-Denier Policy

Droughts, floods, super-storms, wildfires, famines, water-wars and other resource wars are just the beginning. Species of plants, animals – gone.

Result – Human Species wiped out.

Preventative measures – life underground for 1,000 to 3,000 years – only the rich will be able to access this. Underground seed banks and genome banks to clone animals when humanity returns to the surface.

A Thermonuclear Holocaust

 A small amount of humans survive – in underground bunkers and space stations. Well space stations are unsustainable. Population reduced to about one million or less. There may be places where radiation may be lower, but due to radiation cloud cover for about 1,000 years it won’t make a difference.

Some may build domes in advance of the war(s) and this could be viable with orbital solar panels.

Underground seed banks and genome banks to clone animals when humanity returns to the surface.

Human Contribution to Climate Change and Actions

The Paris Accord. Rapidly phasing out oil and gasoline…

Humanity is saved and COOPERATES.  Humanity enters a new era.

Common Sense

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In the early 1980s I lived in the Central Valley of California in the city of Stockton with hot summers – many days of 105 degrees or more and cold damp winters.

Exhaust from cars would bond with the water molecules and give the fog a “stink”

Winters in the Central Valley where we would often experience Tuolumne or Tule Fog (pronounced Toolie). A layer of fog or clouds that would condense after a rain or cool moist conditions that forms a layer of fog beginning at 2,000 feet or lower. Temperatures in the 40s would seem lower due to the increased humidity and it made for bone chilling weather. Tule Fog is known for a constant mist or drizzle that is sometimes freezing when the temperature drops as it occasionally does.

Common sense and logic easily solved this question.

The chief problem of Tule Fog is that it is known not to burn off and thus would stay during the nights and days for weeks and even months on end. After a time the fog would begin to give off an odor. Exhaust from cars would bond with the water molecules and give the fog a “stink”

Common sense and logic easily solved this question. For me it was giving me the beginnings of breathing difficulties and an aversion to being outside due to the stench.

The University of California in Davis did a study of Tule Fog and pollution and “proved” what I already knew.

I didn’t need a scientific study telling me what I had already deduced from my experience.

This is a snapshot of a person living from fear as are others.

Extrapolating the Tule Fog inversion layer containing molecules of carbons and pollutants from cars to an inversion level around the world doesn’t take scientific proof.

Ninety seven percent of climate scientists have confirmed that human beings have produced enough carbon emissions to change the climate and trigger the beginnings of a mass extinction event that will end in the elimination of the human species unless we stop it.

Three percent of the scientists that disagree with the evidence have had their premises obscured through a variety of filters as well as others:

  • Fear and a desire to live in a past environment of the 1940s and 50s where growth was unchecked by environmental concerns
  • Suspension of Common Sense in favor of the security of a past reality
  • Under the pay of oil companies and Conservative PACS and Think Tanks that have a heavy investment in denying human contribution to climate change.

I have a relative that lives under the rubric of this fear and it permeates every aspect of her life. Before inheriting some money from another relative she was less conservation, more joyous and less obsessed with money and subsequent greed. It’s saddens me. Mere logic has no effect on her position. She watches and freely admits to relying on Fox News as an oasis surrounded by the heinous Liberal Media.

,,,doesn’t it make sense to begin to explore and develop alternatives to oil now rather than wait until gasoline reaches $20 per gallon?

Her isolation and refusal to live in the present is sad and disturbing. She won’t watch any recent TV shows or movies with James Spader because she wants to only remember him when he was young and sexy in “Sex, Lies and Videotape”. She won’t watch George Clooney or Sean Penn movies because their liberals and therefore – the enemy. I sent her a Noam Chomsky Interview around the time of the bombing of the World Trade Center in 2001. She said it made sense, but five days later she was shouting death to Muslims. She voted for Trump. At dinners out (around 5 to 6 pm) she can’t understand why families bring their children (screaming infants and toddlers) to dinner at restaurants – why they don’t hire babysitters. Even after a logic explanation of families wanting to be with their children and not being able to afford a sitter. Or she could choose to go to dinner at 8 pm when the likelihood of young children wouldn’t be eating out on a weeknight. She believes Wal-Mart serves a valuable service to communities… Need I go on.

This is a snapshot of a person living from fear as are others. I feel it when I’m around her (not very often). I remember in her before she was infested by money and greed. Not all of her old characteristics are gone – she displays caring at times but couched in denial of human responsibility to climate change.

Life and the changes in our world both technologically, politically and environmentally are overwhelming. Many people cannot tolerate the acceleration and destabilization of modern institutions. Intellectually and/or emotionally they require a simple solution to a problem.

With my relative I steer away from most of the content of my life (as a spiritual – political activist) and focus on the present and the personal. Its a common sense response to an immovable object.

The only way I would consider a debate with a person regarding climate change (like my relative) would be a side step of the issue. Coming from that oil is not a renewable resource – doesn’t it make sense to begin to explore and develop alternatives to oil now rather than wait until gasoline reaches $20 per gallon?

Exponential Trump Logic – The bullet list (part one)

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  • Gut Healthcare – screw the poor – tax cut for the rich
  • Gut Environmental Protection Laws – kill people off twice by A. exposing them to higher levels of toxicity and B not offering adequate health care

 

With more air and water pollution comes more illness both acute and chronic and people without enough money and/or pre-existing conditions set in place by Trump more will die. Is this an out-of-sight / out-of-mind brain of the POTUS or a deliberate ploy to kill off people without enough money to buy insurance (I didn’t say the poor here because the working class and/or middle class is included in this picture). This is a nifty circular ploy.

 

The insular mind of Trump focused on WINNING, GETTING EVEN AND MAKING MONEY automatically excludes an awareness of a fair healthcare bill and how repealing environmental protection laws interact to cause bigger health problems. This allows the less moderate and conservative GOP to eliminate the working /middle class from being full citizens of America in favor of the rich in a play-out of the logic.

What supplements I use to help combat Arthritis

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[NOTE: these are not prescriptions, I’m sharing this as my own experience in helping to reduce arthritic pain and inflammation – you may need to experiment with the dosage you take and always consult your doctor for possible drug interactions.]

Many people and clients have asked me about this and I have grown weary of writing down the list each time.  So here it is:

All of this was passed on to me except the Bromelain – which I reasearched. It works to some degree. I will begin the list with the least expensive and work up to the most expensive. The least expensive places to buy these supplements are at Amazon or Vitacost with two exceptions.

  1. MSM (methylsufonylmethane) 1,000 mg per day with and equal amount of Vitamin C to activate it. It will take up to two weeks for any noticeable effect. MSM occurs naturally in foods. It treats joint pain, muscle cramps and may decrease joint degeneration. It is used in treating other problems see: http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-and-supplements/msm-methylsulfonylmethane-uses-and-risks#1
  2. Turmeric anywhere from 450 mg to 1,000 mg per day for lessening inflammation: https://draxe.com/cayenne-pepper-benefits/
  3. Bromelain (pineapple enzyme) I take two tabs of 500 mg on an empty stomach per day. Normally Bromelain is used as a digestive enzyme – in Europe they have used it as a natural anti-inflammatory. I’ve experimented with taking up to 3,000 mg at one time and although it eliminated the pain completely it also produced dizziness boarding on vertigo. http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-supplements/ingredientmono-895-bromelain.aspx?activeingredientid=895&activeingredientname=bromelain
  4. Cayenne in capsules I take two 500mg x once per day for reducing arthritic pain. http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-supplements/ingredientmono-945-Cayenne+Pepper+CAPSICUM.aspx?activeIngredientId=945&activeIngredientName=Cayenne+Pepper+(CAPSICUM)&source=2
  5. Glucosamine 750 mg / Chondroitin 600mg for joint pain. Some swear by this I’m not sure it has any effect on me. http://www.consumerreports.org/cro/magazine/2013/10/facts-about-joint-supplements/index.htm
  6. Hyaluronic Acid 100mg to assist joints. I get the Now brand without additions of Collagen. http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-supplements/ingredientmono-1062-hyaluronic%20acid.aspx?activeingredientid=1062&
  7. Fish Oil 1,000 mg for joints (it also has been used to treat depression) I take 1 capsule of 1,000 mg per day. http://www.webmd.com/hypertension-high-blood-pressure/guide/omega-3-fish-oil-supplements-for-high-blood-pressure
  8. Flex Now 2,250 mg of Shea butter helps with maintaining cartilage and bone, reduces pain and inflammation. It takes 30 to 60 days to notice a result. http://www.powerofshea.com/
  9. Topical – Helichrysum essential oil

Where I buy:

  1. MSM 1,000 mg from VitaCost.com 240 capsules from the Vitacost brand
  2. Turmeric from either Vitacost or Amazon
  3. Bromelain – Source Naturals 500mg per tablet, 120 tabs per bottle and I get two bottles from Amazon at a good price.
  4. Cayenne – I get it from the Now brand from Amazon
  5. Glucosamine 750 mg / Chondroitin 600mg from Costco 220 tablets per bottle
  6. Hyaluronic Acid – from Vitacost or Amazon
  7. Fish Oil 1,000 mg per soft gel; 400 tabs per bottle at Costco
  8. Flex Now from their website two bottles of 90 tabs each (180 tabs altogether) for $59.95 not including shipping. Amazon and Vitacost charge about $60 per bottle:     http://www.powerofshea.com/

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Health Care as a Right

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Caring for health both as humans and as a planet with all the beings and all the elements of the planet does not seem to enter into our thoughts about health care. Some have thought about the health of the planet, but a healthy planet is not considered a part of health care policy. Our health and the planet’s health are divorced from one another and that seems unnatural and dangerous. Much of the literature – on-line about health care involves cost and money. This is an example of a reductionistic view of health that separates health from communities and the planet and sees health care as a business where profit is the highest value and health care is secondary to profit. Most corporations – at least the larger ones become more or as concerned with profit as with the products and/or services that they provide or sell. An environment where profit is accentuated limits the ability for higher levels of health care service to come to the fore due to a context of competition for profit.

By artificially separating Health Care for humans from a holistic view of a healthy planet we have created an isolated system where individual health is doomed for failure. Large corporations and government regulation or the lack of it to provide the best health care possible for humans excludes our environment – Earth and creates a destructive loop. As far as profit from larger corporations such as HMOs, the AMA, insurance companies and pharmaceutical corporations Health Care has less to do with health and more to do with profit.

By excluding Earth from the health equation the Health-For-Profit Care Business excludes known and intuitively known toxic elements manufactured by industry that kill, maim or systematically weaken immune systems over time to name a few of the health risks from the toxic environment of planet Earth. Thus we create conditions for poor health, utilize Health Care Corporations to use expensive solutions to assist those that fall prey to toxic conditions so additional profits can be generated and maybe ill persons may survive. That is unhealthy but it creates huge profits for large corporations. The work of Patch Adams provides a ray of hope for medicine.[1]

Based on public health care the long-term effects of immediate profit create a higher expense: “In 2010, U.S. public entities spent $3,967 per person on health care. That’s far more than Germany, Canada, France, Britain, and all of the other countries we conservatives normally think of as socialist dystopias.”[2]

The myopic gestalt of profit and the greed it foments has truncated our survival as a species on planet Earth. The short-term solution is government regulation and a human right to Health Care. A longer-term solution may be to include Earth as part of capitalism.[3]

[1] http://www.patchadams.org/gesundheit/

[2] https://www.forbes.com/sites/theapothecary/2013/03/28/yes-health-care-is-a-right-an-individual-right/#227bd71a4d66

[3] http://www.natcap.org/

Why NOT go to a Psychic?

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Originally published on April 6, 2010 – now with updates

Context:

As technology and social change have accelerated beginning in the 1980s humans have resisted these changes and seek reassurances from psychics and other spiritual gurus that “I am going to be okay.”

In 1992 the frequency of the planet changed and the way of the patriarchy died and something new was born. No one knows exactly what the new energy is like or how it will manifest. Our proclivity as humans is to remain the same until whatever new future is deemed “safe”. The patriarchy is hanging on – one need only look at the election of Donald Trump to see a desire to return to simpler times while in denial of a complex world.

 

When one asks a psychic about one’s future there are a number of underlying assumptions we’d all like to be true:

 

  1. There is a future that can be nailed where anxiety and fears are removed, then I can know I am safe and happy.                                                                                                        ~ one possible solution: breathe through anxiousness and face fears as a way towards mastery. When we put off safety and happiness in the future we are always chasing it rather than acknowledging we may already feel safe and happy because we decided.

 

  1. I give up my power to the psychic (a parent-figure perhaps?) instead of co-creating my future with spirit.                                                                                                                         ~ one possible solution – breathe and be your own psychic – perhaps through meditation

 

  1. I believe that some “thing” in my future will make me be okay.                                             ~ see possible solution in #1

 

  1. There is something wrong (or I am bored) with me in the present – I am incomplete.      ~ one possible solution – perhaps peace is the flip side of boredom? The present is all there is. Decide you are complete, peaceful and there is nothing wrong with you.

 

  1. The content of my life (what my ego identifies with) is what makes me happy. Things and having allow me to feel secure and owning happiness – “I am in-control.”                                                                                                                                                  ~ one possible solution – begin with a gratefulness practice. How are you happy right now? Make a list or just contemplate this.

 

  1. I have forgotten what real happiness is (like when I was a kid) and have traded my happiness for “I’ll be happy when I have…” thus confusing content for being (an other way of stating number 4).

 

  1. I believe “magic” can make things happen and I don’t have to work for it.                          ~ one possible solution — making a space for unplanned events to unfold while cultivating your intuition can open doors to “magic”. Intuition may be a “spotty” thing, but without a practice to exercise intuition the the logic of daily life fills up everything and where’s the fun in that?

 

Anyone with intuition can see your expectations and tell you the logical conclusion to them – thus posing as a psychic and maybe doing a good job of it.

Life is 99% hard work and maybe 1% miracles or good luck. There are many factors in manifesting the content or things of our lives. Remembering that we are already happy can be increasingly difficult because we have forgotten how to play like children and have heaped personal, family and society beliefs on our plate and forgotten how happy we once were.

Once I began cultivating being within myself working towards “the future” became easier knowing that whatever happens to be “I am okay” inside.

my account of the Blizzard of 1978

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INTRODUCTION

In 1978 I worked in a psychiatric nursing home. One of the patients punched me in the face and broke my plastic framed glasses and drove it into my left eye. I went to the ER. The Ophthalmologist said that I may have a detached retina, but the area was too enflamed to make any determination.

“Go home and rest. No reading.” He squirted some goo in my eye, put a patch on it and made an appointment for February 5 1978 at 10 am at the Fallon Clinic.

THE BLIZZARD

On Monday February 5th two of my nine housemates took me to the appointment, one driving his car and other driving my car.

 Snow fell, and it was a storm like any other. The waiting room of the Fallon Eye Clinic was in a basement and was without windows. The doctor had had an emergency at the hospital so my appointment was pushed back to 11:30 am.

No detached retina, my eye was fine.

I put my coat on and stepped out of the waiting room. White-Out. I barely found my car the snow was everywhere, visibility was maybe five feet at best. I drove, inched home. I lived in a house with nine others two toddlers and an infant and Monday was our food shopping day. When two of the shoppers arrived home from the supermarket with some food they said that the store was being closed due to the blizzard.

We went to Spags (of Worcester, MA) – they said – open for emergencies only. We didn’t have enough food that was our emergency. We went to a deli on Water Street, our last stop before hunkering down in the storm.

One of my housemates was trapped at his parents’ house and delivered groceries to customers from their corner store on a snowmobile.

Four to five feet of snow fell. People died in their cars on the Mass Pike.

Giant bucket lifters cleared the road; piling snow up on either side of 20 to 25 feet high. It took me three days to dig out my little VW bug. And it had a flat tire.